If people were too mean to you when you were growing up, a newborn animal will materialize inside your brain and it’s so so scared and shivering and it will stay there for years. Decades, even. And whenever you say something kind of weird but true to your heart the animal will tell you “Noo! You can’t say that! If you say that, everyone will hate you!”. The animal means well. It’s so so small and everything is so scary for them and it’s just trying to protect you. But listen to me. Listen to me. Whenever this happens, you can’t do what the animal says. You can’t. If you do, you’ll become as scared as the animal. You have to keep saying weird shit. You have to keep doing things the animal wouldn’t approve of. If you do enough things that scare the animal, maybe one day it’ll go to sleep.
It’s okay if you’re not the version of yourself you always saw in your head. You are an beautiful person whether who you have become was expected or unexpected.
The emotions you feel aren’t bad. They’re neutral. Things like jealousy, anger, and anything else that sometimes get labelled as “bad” are just emotions.
It’s what you do with them that matters. You’re allowed to feel them and it is so valid to feel them.
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` ·. if you’re reading this i hope April is gentle to you. i hope your days get better, easier, brighter, happier & more exciting. be patient with yourself & watch how great things get. sending love, please accept