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Everything To Me - Epilogue

A Stardew Valley fan fiction about the relationship between Sebastian and my farmer, Lily. Thanks to @kissingtruth for all their lovely and helpful feedback... here are those Abigail scenes you wanted!

Notes: I was very unsure if I should post this as I really didn't know if the story needed it but, ah, what the hell, sometimes a little closure is necessary...

Synopsis: In the calm after the storm Abigail's guilt is finally assuaged and Lily & Sebastian spend their first anniversary together

Cast: Original Female Character, Sebastian, Abigail, Haley, Emily

Contents: Established Relationship (Married), Friendship Dynamics, Love, Fluff, Romance

Warnings: None

"And then you heard him calling your name and woke up to find him giving you his blood!" Haley gazed at her, eyes wide, hands clasped together, cheeks flushed. "Oh, that's so romantic! I just can't stand it!" She lifted a hand to rub the tears from her eyes. "Tell me again about how he climbed into the hospital bed with you!"

Lily laughed at Haley's enthusiasm, which immediately started off a coughing fit.

"Now look what you've done, Haley!" Abigail admonished, quickly placing another pillow under Lily's head to help prop her up. "You're wearing her out asking her to tell the same story over and over again!"

"But it's so sweet!" Haley wailed as Emily joined Abigail in fussing over their convalescing friend.

"It's okay, you two," Lily said, smiling at her nurses. "I'm fine really, I think I just need a drink, that's all."

"See, you've made her talk too long!" Abigail glared at the blonde girl. "I'll go get you some iced water right now, Lily." She hurried off to the kitchen.

"She doesn't need to be so mean about it," Haley pouted, deflating rapidly in her chair.

"Try not to take offence," Emily soothed as she finished straightening Lily's covers. "You know she's been feeling guilty about this whole thing, this is just her way of trying to make amends."

Lily sighed and Emily turned to look at her again. "Are we tiring you out, hun? Do you need us to leave?"

"Oh no," Lily quickly shook her head. "It's not that, I love having you here. I just wish Abby would relax a little, both Sebby and I have told her over and over again that we don't blame her but…"

"I know," Emily said, gently shushing her. She could see the tell tale little frownline appearing between Lily's eyes, a surefire warning that her friend was starting to worry. "She'll get over it eventually, it'll just take a little more time, that's all."

She cast an eye over the vast array of flowers and gifts Abigail had brought to the farmhouse in the week that Lily had been home. She couldn't help but feel sorry for the goth girl, for sure she had made an ill-considered decision to go into the mines but it was the mistake of an unthinking youth, sure of their own invincibility, and she could only imagine the burden of guilt the poor girl must now be carrying.

"Here you go, Lily," Abigail said, quickly returning with the drink and immediately beginning to restraighten the already straight covers. "I'll just sort these out for you."

"Sorry to disturb you all…"

They all turned to see a slightly hesitant Sebastian enter the room, looking a little flushed as though he'd just been busy with something. He coughed nervously, his cheeks reddening further at being the centre of all their attention. "It's getting late and… well, it's our anniversary today and… um…"

"You're totally right, Seb," Emily saved him from trying to find more words, smiling to herself at his shyness. She had noticed it becoming more pronounced again over the last month or so and wondered what had happened to cause it. Well, maybe some time alone with his wife on their special day would help him. Goodness, so many people seemed so delicate these days, she would have to send extra healing energy out into the world tonight!

"We should be going, we've been monopolising Lily's time for far too long. It's your first anniversary and after all that's happened I think you two deserve to spend the night alone together!" She looked down at her sister. "Come on, Haley. You can get Lily to tell you that tale again some other time."

"Okay," Haley patted Lily's hand and climbed to her feet, looking Seb up and down as she did so. "What have you been up to anyway? We heard a whole load of bumping and thumping from outside earlier on."

"Nothing much," he shifted his feet nervously. "Just some stuff on the farm…"

"Now stop bothering the boy, Haley," Emily took her by the arm. "Unlike you, he has work to do!"

"That's not fair, Em!" Haley pouted once more. "I help out around the house!"

"Only when I threaten to throw out all your fashion magazines if you don't!" Emily laughed good-naturedly. "See you later, Lily. Have a wonderful night with your hubby and try not to worry about anything, okay?"

"I'll try," Lily lifted a hand to wave goodbye. "Thanks for coming, both of you."

"Any time, hun!" The door closed behind the sisters leaving just Abigail behind.

"Well, I suppose I should get going too." She looked a little forlorn, grabbed Lily's hand and forced a smile onto her face. "I'll come visit again tomorrow, okay? Don't overdo things, will you? Remember what the doctor said?"

"I will," Lily laughed. "I have both you and Sebby constantly reminding me!"

"Come on, Abby," Seb was still fidgeting. "I'll walk you out."

"Okay."

The two walked through the kitchen and out the front door in silence. Once outside Abigail came to a halt and stared at the new installation on the porch.

"Is this what all the noise was about?"

"Yep."

"Is it Lily's anniversary present?"

"It is." Seb folded his arms and switched feet again. Not for the first time did he wish he were better at articulating his feelings with anyone other than Lily. He was sure he needed to say something right now but for the life of him he didn't know what it was.

Abigail didn't move for such a long time he felt his anxiety ratchet up another notch, then she started shaking so much he thought she was about to fall over.

"Seb!" she turned an agonised face his way. "I'm so sorry! I almost took all this away from you! Because of me you almost lost Lily! I… I was so horrible to her right from the start and then… then I did this… I…" she buried her face in her hands and he gaped at her, utterly at a loss for what to say.

He looked down at the ground, trying to rein in his own shaking. He'd gone through a lot of soul searching lately. Lily had been in hospital for a full week after her surgery and in that time he'd gone through a whole kaleidoscope of emotions, was ashamed to admit that he had raged at and blamed Abigail in the midst of that whirlwind. The only thing that had kept him even remotely stable through all of it had been Lily, the knowledge that she was still there, still alive, still his…

Still his…

"Abby, it's okay."

She looked up at his words, seeming surprised by the calm strength in his voice.

He felt surprised himself on hearing it.

"Don't beat yourself up about it, it wasn't your fault, it was just something that happened."

Her eyes glistened with tears and hope in equal measure. All of a sudden he knew it was true. She was an idiot. She had done a stupid thing. But he couldn't find it in himself to keep being angry at her. And… this surprised him even more… couldn't be angry at his father either. Not any longer. Not when his sweet wife was waiting safe and sound inside for him.

He stepped forward and caught his friend by the shoulders.

"Go home Abby, go home, rest, relax, go back to uni. You don't need to take time off anymore to look after me or Lily. We're okay."

"Seb… really? We… we're okay?"

He nodded. "We're okay. You, me and Lily. We're okay and we always will be."

She let out a long breath, looked down, gave a determined sniff, scrubbed at her eyes and then turned abruptly on her heel.

"Right, well, I'll be going then! I need to take the morning train to ZuZu tomorrow, gotta catch up on all those lectures I've missed!" She lifted a hand in farewell as she walked away. "Have a wonderful night with your wife, Seb. You two deserve it!"

Sebastian watched her go. She didn't look back but he could tell from the way she carried herself that a weight had been lifted from her shoulders. He sighed and turned back to the farmhouse. Suddenly he felt tired and just wanted one thing. His wife. To see the look on her face when he showed her the present he had made for her.

He opened the kitchen door and stepped back inside.

He walked into their bedroom to find Lily giggling softly as both their cats took turns in vying for her attention. For a moment he just stood there, soaking in the gentle domestic bliss of his wife stroking their pets, laughing as Nyx's tail waved in her face and Tyx, immediately envious, rolled over and offered a soft belly for rubs.

He smiled and felt his heart expand. Yoba, he loved her. Would never get enough of this. Of her. Of their life together.

"Sebby," she noticed his quiet presence and looked up, her smile causing his heart to swell even more. "I know it sounds bad, I love them all so much, I really do, but it's so nice now that they're gone and it's finally just you and me!"

"I know, baby," he sat on the bed next to her, joining her in dealing with their attention-seeking kitties. "We've had so many visitors since you came home I feel like I've barely had any time alone with you."

"Well, we have all night now," Lily let out a small sigh and collapsed back on her pillows. "Although I feel so tired I'm afraid I'm not going to be much use to you!"

"That doesn't matter," he said and stroked her cheek fondly. "Even if all we do is just cuddle all night and watch movies that's enough for me."

"That sounds nice," she smiled up at him. "I love when we just lie together like that."

"So do I," he bent his head and kissed her. "But hey, before we pick something to watch, do you want to see your present?"

"Oh Sebby, you didn't have to get me anything!"

He laughed. "But you knew I would!" He stood up and reached carefully underneath her, lifting her from the bed, blanket and all.

"Sebby, what are you doing?"

"I'm taking you to see your present," he grinned, wrapping the blanket more securely around her much to her amusement. "It's cold outside and I don't want you to catch a chill."

"I feel like a human burrito," she giggled again as he carried her towards the front door. "And what on earth is my present doing outside anyway?"

"You'll see," his grin grew wider, the sound of her laughter taking away all his earlier tiredness. "Close your eyes," he said as he pushed open the door.

"Wha…?"

"Trust me…" he said softly.

"Okay…"

He carried her outside, set her down gently on her present and stepped back to watch her reaction.

"You can open your eyes now."

"Sebby? What…? Oh!"

She shifted position, looked from left to right then lifted her head and stared up at him with wide eyes. "Oh Seb! This is my Gran's rocking chair, the one we found all broken and abandoned in the cellar…" she ran her hands over the smooth wood of the arms. "I have so many happy memories of sitting in this with her when I was a little girl. You… you fixed it up!"

"I did," he couldn't stop the smile that was taking over his face at her delight. "Well, me and my mom did. Why don't you have a closer look at the headrest?"

She twisted in her seat, trailed her fingers over the carving he had worked so hard on. The carving of their names twined around a single rose.

"Oh Seb…" her voice trembled. "Did you do this?"

"I did, it took me ages, I messed up three times and my mom had to chip out the wood and inlay that section fresh, but I didn't stop till I got it just right!"

"Seb," she turned to look up at him, face full of wonder, so beautiful, so perfect in the rich evening light that for a moment he still couldn't believe she was actually his. "This is amazing… I don't know what to say, this means so much to me!"

Tears rolled slowly down her cheeks, his throat filled, he felt himself moving towards her, drawn by a love so intense it couldn't be denied.

"Because of all this," she sobbed and gestured helplessly at her still bandaged form. "I don't have anything to give you."

"Oh Lily, yes you do," he dropped to his knees before her, cupped her cheek in his hand, stroked away her tears with his thumb. "Stay with me. Forever."

"Oh Seb," she touched his face for a single moment, so sweet he felt his soul ache, then threw her arms around him. "Of course I will!"

He let his tears fall at her touch.

She was his.

He would never be alone again.

He sighed, pulled her close and let the warmth fill him.

Let the memory of that cold empty door closing behind his father finally disappear for good.

~The End~

Cute little page dividers by @chachachannah / Boring old plain green ones by me!

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Write what you want because even if everyone in the world lines up to tell you they love what you wrote it won't mean a thing if you're not happy with it yourself.

I'm going to write the most tooth-rottingly sweet fluff about my babies imaginable and it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks because I'm going to be sitting at my desk, kicking my feet, giggling like a maniac and melting into my seat with happiness.

And that's really the only reason to do anything.

From my private meme collection. Since I also work as an editor I often have to remind myself there aren’t actually any rules in writing. I’m happiest when I let myself follow my obsessions, my interests, my fancies and caprices–even if that means it doesn’t “make sense,” or the results are weird, or I never finish it, or no one ever wants to read it or publish it, or it’s 5 words long, or it’s written on toilet paper, or whatever. Sharing for whoever needs to hear this today <3

#writing #inspiration #be happy #be free

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stardewlily · 10 days

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Your emotive ability is amazing, I feel lost in those sad eyes... my heart is breaking too :'(

Sad Seb WIP <3 I actually make a sad puppy dog face when I look into his eyes whilst drawing him. My heart, it breaks!

#sebastian art #always appreciate a new seb from OP!#the juxtaposition of his expression and that umbrella...#sheer genius #so beautiful #so poignant #and so meaningful for me right now...#WARNING rest of tags just me rambling for my own purposes... proceed at your own risk!!#i realised just the other day that one of the reasons my moods have been so volatile lately...#is because i've been giving my poor sweet boy such a hard time in my latest fic #i often forget how deeply what i write affects me emotionally #i don't know if that's true for all writers or just me being cyclothymic #but i HATE making him sad and the relief i feel at having finished it...#...the desperate need i now have to make him happy again...#is summed up perfectly in how badly this picture makes me want to console him #i love you my baby boy and i promise mountains of fluffy fic are now coming your way! <3

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Part Three of Everything To Me

A Stardew Valley fan fiction about the relationship between Sebastian and my farmer, Lily. The third part of my new mini-series (here are links to part one and part two for those who want to catch up).

Notes: Please don't roast me for the boatload of medical inaccuracies I'm sure are present here, I did do some research but ultimately I had to take certain liberties for the sake of the story. And my god, did this series take it out of me! I think I'm going to spend a long time writing mindless fluff to recover from this!

Synopsis: Lily's life hangs in the balance after a terrible accident in the mines

Cast: Original Female Character, Sebastian, Abigail, Marlon, Gil, Harvey, Maru, Robin

Contents: Established Relationship (Married), Drama, Trauma, Major Character in Life or Death Situation, Hospital, Surgery, Hurt/Comfort

Warnings: Blood, Physical Injury

Why was he kneeling here by the lake with his face in his hands? Sebastian lifted his head and stared at his palms. Everything looked blurry. He could hear a distant, tinny voice, asking if he was still there. It sounded panicked. He looked down at his phone, lying on the ground…

Abigail… it was Abigail… telling him…

Telling him about Lily.

And an accident.

An accident in the mines.

Everything swung into sharp focus, nausea rushed over him, he bent over and threw up.

Lily... the mines... why was she in the mines?

Coughing and sobbing, ignoring the pain in his body, he dragged himself to his feet, knowing only one thing. He had to get to the mines. Had to get there right now.

Marlon pressed down harder on the girl's wound, next to him Gil mopped at the blood on the ground, face grim, shoulders set. Marlon grimaced. He knew how bad this was, they both did. The other girl, the one with the purple hair who had burst into the guild building and dragged them down here, looked on from her place huddled in the corner, an expression of utter horror on her face. He had already laid fully into her for the folly of her ways, he couldn't spare any more time for her, not when her friend's life lay in such danger.

"Medics should be here soon," Gil said tersely. They had called both Harvey and the city hospital as soon as they'd had the chance. He looked down at the pale face of the girl they had pulled out of the mines. She had many injuries but the one in her side was the worst. How she had held her own against four shadow brutes he would never know but it was lucky for her that he and Marlon had shown up when they did. It took experienced warriors to put down so many powerful foes. "Do you think she's going to make it?"

Marlon didn't answer. He honestly didn't know. He heard the other girl whine in fear but had nothing to offer her. The brutes had done a lot of damage. He knew basic first aid but…

A noise at the mine entrance made him turn, hoping to all hell it was Harvey or the ambulance arriving, but it wasn't, it was just a lad, must've been only in his early twenties, then he recognised him from the wedding he had attended last year and his heart knotted at the same time as the young man's face contorted and a despairing cry left his mouth.

"Yoba dammit, girl," he glared at the cringing goth. "You called him here?" He turned to Gil, never letting up pressure for a second. "Hold him back, Gil. He doesn't need to see his wife like this!"

The first thing Sebastian saw when he entered the mines was the blood.

So much blood…

On the floor, covering the arms and hands of the man who crouched on the ground next to Lily, covering the rags the other man held in his hands…

Covering Lily…

"Lily!" he screamed her name and darted forwards, only to be caught and held in the surprisingly strong arms of the tall, bearded old man.

"Now then, kid, stay back. You need to leave this to the professionals."

"Lily!" he struggled desperately to be free. "Lily! Fuck! Let go of me! Let me go to her!"

"Sebby…?" her voice was faint, so terribly faint, but he heard it, would have heard it even if it were a million times quieter.

"Lily!" he saw her arm raise, a blood streaked hand reaching for him… oh Yoba, he wanted to go to her, needed to go to her… why wouldn't this bastard let go of him?

"I came as soon as I could!" It was Harvey's voice. "How is she?"

People pushed past him, Gil's arms still restrained him.

"She's lost a lot of blood!" Maru's voice. She was here too?

"I've been keeping pressure on since I found her but she's been bleeding heavy, doc!"

"You've done well. Maru, get the dressings ready while I check her vitals!"

"Seb, I'm so sorry!" His head spun crazily, he hadn't even noticed Abigail until now. She started crying as he stared blankly at her. "I'm so sorry, she told me she'd promised you never to come in here again. She only came in to save me. Just to save me!"

He couldn't speak. Couldn't take it in. Couldn't take it in at all.

"I don't like her breathing… her pulse is getting weak, all this blood loss, she's going to go into shock. This is more than I can deal with at the clinic, the internal damage is too great, she's going to need surgery to repair this!"

Shock? Surgery? Sebastian choked. Black spots circled his vision.

"You said you called Zuzu General?"

"Yes, same time we called you."

"We need them here right now! Maru, get them on the phone, find out what's happening!"

"I'm already ringing!"

"Doc, I think she's losing consciousness!"

"Harvey, the ambulance is still on call with another patient!"

"Yoba dammit! We can't waste any time, I'll take her in my car! Maru, tell them to prep for surgery, I'll get her there! Marlon, help me lift her, but gently, gently!"

So much activity, so many voices.

"Seb," his sister's hand on his shoulder, Gil's arms finally releasing him, he barely felt any of it. "Are you okay? Can you hear me?"

He could see Lily being carried away. Away from him.

He cried out. Reached after her.

"Seb!"

He stared at Maru with wild eyes. "We're taking Lily in for surgery. Come with us. She needs you right now."

His eyes found focus at her words. "Come on…" she held out a hand. He took it.

"Can you get Abigail home safely?" she turned to Gil.

"I'll take care of her Miss, don't you worry."

And then he was being led away, the last things he saw of the mine the pool of blood on the floor and Abigail's tear-streaked face staring after him.

"Female, early twenties, abdominal trauma, hemorrhagic shock, we need an I.V. and oxygen right now!"

Sebastian held on to his wife's hand as the hospital staff lifted her onto a trolley. He hadn't let go of it the entire journey. Harvey had driven like a madman to get her here in time, but Yoba, she was so pale, had drifted in and out of consciousness constantly, the slight pressure of her fingers around his the only thing that had given him any hope at all.

"Is the operating room ready?" Harvey's voice.

"Yes, we can take her through right now!"

"Hurry, her blood pressure's crashing!"

"Get that I.V. in!" one of the doctors tugged an I.V. stand over and Seb watched in horror as Lily's head fell limply to the side while the medics worked frantically over her.

"Lily…" he clutched desperately at her hand, his one lifeline, felt like he was going to pass out. "Lily…"

Oh Yoba, he wanted to feel her squeeze his hand right now but there was nothing.

The medics wheeled the trolley hurriedly away and Sebastian let out a helpless sob as her hand fell from his.

"Sebastian," Harvey looked at him, sympathy in his gaze. "Don't worry, she's in good hands, the ER surgeon here is top class." He turned to Maru. "Take care of your brother, please. I need to go liaise with the admissions department, I'll be back soon." He hurried away down the corridor, frown creasing his face. The doors in front of them swung shut behind the trolley and Sebastian turned slowly to his sister.

"Maru… what… what's happening? What am I going to do? It was supposed to be our anniversary next month… I can't lose her, not now… not ever. I just… I… I can't!"

All of a sudden he couldn't feel his body anymore, he collapsed onto the nearest chair and wondered absently what animal was howling so pitifully in a hospital of all places.

Maru's hands hung limply at her sides as she stared at her brother wailing in front of her. She had never seen him like this before. Had no idea what to do to console him. Nothing in her experience had ever prepared her for the sight of one of her own family members so distraught.

She started to shake, her own shock finally catching up with her.

"Mom…"

She forced her fingers to pick out her mother's number on her phone and then she was echoing her brother's tears while Robin listened in horror.

Sebastian looked up as the doors opened again. His neck grated like it was on rusty wires, he felt dried up, like he had cried so many tears there wasn't an ounce of water left anywhere in his body. A man and a woman in green scrubs stepped through, removing their masks as they did so.

"How is she?" His mother, who had arrived not long after Maru's phone call, asked the question for him, and his sister, sitting mutely by his side, squeezed his hand in support.

The man took a deep breath. "The surgery was successful, she's in recovery right now and has stabilised somewhat but she lost a lot of blood and it's a rare type, we used all that we had during the operation, if…"

Sebastian was already on his feet and rolling up his sleeve.

"My blood's the same as hers. Take as much as you need!"

The surgeon's gaze turned quickly to Harvey. "You're their GP, correct? Is it true, is his blood the same?"

"It's true," Harvey nodded. "They're the only two in town with that blood type."

"Very well then…" he paused, waiting for a name to be offered.

"Sebastian. I'm her husband."

"Come through here, Sebastian. Your wife needs your help, right now."

The surgeon snapped out orders to the nurse accompanying him and then led Sebastian through into a small room containing one bed on which Lily lay, still and unmoving, face white as a sheet, bandages everywhere, monitor beeping steadily beside her, I.V. still hooked up to her arm. Sebastian couldn't help the cry that escaped his lips at the sight of her and the doctor tried to smile reassuringly as the nurse quickly returned with a collection of plastic tubes and other paraphernalia.

"Try not to worry, it's not as bad as it looks. Your blood should be the only thing she needs from now on. Sit there." He gestured towards a chair next to the bed and Sebastian sank into it with a deep sigh.

The nurse smiled sympathetically as she approached. "I'm afraid this might hurt a bit."

"It doesn't matter," he said, reaching out with one hand to stroke Lily's hair. The nurse took his other arm and inserted the needle as gently as she could. He barely winced, all his attention fixed on his wife's face.

The surgeon knelt down beside him. "She still needs quite a lot of blood, so you're going to end up feeling pretty tired and dizzy." He looked up at the nurse who was stepping back, checking the tubes as the blood started to flow. "It will take a while for the transfusion to be complete and this nurse will stay with you the whole time to monitor the process. As I said, please try not to worry, your wife's going to be okay. The surgery was a complete success, she'll be weak for a while but she's going to be just fine. I promise."

"Okay," Sebastian said distractedly. "Thanks, doc…"

"You're welcome."

Sebastian barely noticed the man leave the room, didn't spare a glance for the nurse quietly checking his and Lily's vitals, all he could see was his wife's face in front of him.

"Lily," he whispered her name, stroked her hair, her cheek, couldn't tear his gaze away from her. She looked so small, so pale, so fragile, her body seeming to take up hardly any space in the bed. He took her hand and watched his blood flow slowly through the tubes and into her veins. With every pulse of his heart he willed his life into her. Finally, something was in his control. He had made a vow that he wouldn't let anything be taken away from him ever again and he intended to keep it.

"Baby," he said softly. "Come back to me. Come back, don't leave me…"

He repeated the words over and over for what seemed an age, clinging to her hand desperately, completely willing to give every last drop of blood in his body if it would save her. There was no reason for him to go on living without her in his life.

"Lily, please…" tears rolled down his cheeks, he was amazed he had any left at this point, then his breath caught in his throat as her eyelids fluttered and she started to murmur.

"Lily," his heart pounded, he stared into her eyes as they opened, eyes he'd been afraid he'd never see again.

"Seb…" her voice was a tiny whisper, he gasped as he felt her fingers squeeze his ever so gently.

"Oh Lily," he threw himself forward onto the bed, pressing his forehead to hers, cradling her face. "I thought I'd lost you!" he kissed her, tasting the salt of his own tears. "I thought I'd lost you!"

"Sebby," she lifted a hand, shakily touching his hair. "What happened?"

"I'm giving you my blood, baby," he sobbed, still kissing her. "You had surgery and lost a lot, you needed more. I'm giving you mine."

"Oh Sebby," she said softly. "You're so sweet."

He looked at her, she was smiling up at him. It was weak, but it was a smile. Oh Yoba. She was here. She was alive. He hadn't lost her.

"Lily," he cried out her name in utter relief, trying desperately to wrap his arms around her as best he could with all the tubes in the way and she did the same, the I.V. stand coming dangerously close to toppling over as they hugged onto each other, both crying, their tears mingling with the endless kisses they couldn't help but share.

"You're really not meant to do that, you know!" the nurse admonished with fake sternness as she finished calling for the doctor and removed the I.V. that had nearly met a messy end.

"I'm sorry," Sebastian said, stroking his wife's cheek as she gazed adoringly up at him. Their hands were so firmly clasped together that the nurse laughed, she had tried her best not to intrude on their sweet moment and couldn't really be angry when they were so endearing together.

"How's our patient doing?" the doctor strode into the room. "Hmm, almost back to normal," he touched her face. "Colour and temperature are much better too." He looked over at Sebastian, noting the tubes still connecting them. "Your blood must have magical properties, young man!"

Sebastian smiled into Lily's face as the doctor strapped a blood pressure cuff around his arm. "Low, as expected," he let out the air and removed the cuff. "You've given a lot of blood, Sebastian. You'll need to take it easy for a while before you're fully recovered. You can stay here with your wife if you like. We'll need to keep her under observation for a while to make sure there are no complications, but rest assured, she is out of danger now."

"You couldn't make me leave if you tried, doc," Sebastian said as the nurse removed the needle from his vein, placed a wad of cotton on it and then wrapped a bandage firmly around it before hurrying out of the room with the bundled tubes.

"Seeing as you're a married couple I'll bring another bed in here so you can sleep together," the doctor said, carefully finishing his checks on Lily before smiling tiredly at the two of them. "You're both probably going to need a lot of rest now, I know I certainly do, so we'll discuss things in more detail later. I'll just go and update your GP and your relatives on her condition and then I'll be back, okay?"

He turned and left the room. Sebastian had never taken his eyes from Lily's face in all that time and, now that they were finally alone, he took her fully in his arms and held her close.

"Sebby," she slipped her arms around his back, clinging to him as tightly as she could in her weakened state. "I'm so sorry I went into the mines when I promised not to."

"You don't need to apologise," he laughed, amazed that she still held that promise so dear, even now. "You did it to save a friend, my love. I'm so proud of you."

He kissed her then sat up, kicked off his shoes and climbed into bed beside her, needing to be as near to her as possible. She sighed and snuggled up to him.

"I love you, Sebby," she said sleepily.

He smiled and gathered her carefully against his chest, painfully aware of her many wounds, but relieved beyond all measure to hear the soft sound of her breathing as she drifted off in his arms.

She was his. He had saved her. Would never lose anything precious to him ever again.

"I love you too, Lily," he said, gently stroking her hair. "You're everything to me."

And then his own exhaustion took him and he fell asleep still holding her in his arms.

When the doctor returned wheeling the extra bed he smiled to see them curled so close together. Well, it wasn't usual procedure, but in this case he was willing to make an exception. He had a feeling that the love these two shared was the best medicine either of them could have right now.

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This commission has left me at a loss for words. Not because I have none but because I have too many. In fact, I want to invent more just so I can fully convey all the things this makes me feel.

I finished Seb & Lily's main arc on Valentine's Day and writing their wedding meant so much to me. I never thought that someone would take all that I felt and put it so beautifully and so perfectly into visual form. But the lovely and talented Verumew did just that and I don't think I will ever be able to thank her enough for this.

I adore every single pixel of this picture. The warmth and softness of the colours, the sense of depth and movement, the flowing ribbons, those exquisite roses, so painstakingly drawn, even the ones in the background, my god do you see them? they're beautiful! And all the little details, the texture of that embroidery on Lily's dress, the weightlessness of her veil, the flowers that hold it, the rich tones of her hair, their matching rings, even something so seemingly unimportant as the buttons on Seb's cuffs (some of these things you can only see when you look closely, but I assure you they are all there).

I love the amount of care that has gone in to this picture.

But most of all I love how Seb & Lily's emotions have been captured.

That embrace.

I will see it in my dreams at night.

Thank you for giving me the sweetest gift I could ever receive.

My beautiful babies happy and in love <3

#stardew valley sebastian #sdv sebastian #stardew sebastian #stardew valley sebastian fanart #sdv sebastian fanart #stardew valley fanart #sdv fanart #stardew valley oc #sdv oc #seb & lily

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If He Disappeared

A Stardew Valley ficlet about the relationship between Sebastian and my farmer, Lily.

Notes: I'm still working on the next part of Everything to Me but I thought it would be nice to post this in the meantime. It's a little piece that ultimately didn't find a place in part two but I loved writing it so here it is anyway!

Synopsis: In the wake of his father's visit Lily reminds Seb of just how much he means to her

Cast: Original Female Character, Sebastian

Contents: Established Relationship (Married), Mental Health Issues, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Love, Fade to Black Ending

Warnings: None

Lily set the last of the food on the table and cast a glance at the clock. Sebastian had been gone for nearly two hours now and although she knew he needed time alone to process his feelings she couldn't help but worry about him. Ever since his father's visit she had watched him struggle not to slip back into his old melancholy and it hurt her to see him so sad.

Nyx and Tyx, their two cats, wound around her ankles, mewing in well-practised unison. She smiled and bent to pet both of them. Her smile grew softer as Tyx, now adolescent, purred furiously at the attention. She remembered Seb gifting her this precious Birman kitten last Winter Star, how he had spent the whole day striving to give her the best holiday ever, knowing how miserable her childhood had been and wanting to make it all up to her.

How badly she wanted to do the same for him. To take away all the pain of the abandoned little boy inside him. To see him smile again.

She climbed to her feet and moved to the door, thinking that she might take a walk up the path into town to meet him. He should be coming home soon, he'd promised he'd be back for dinner.

She stepped into the evening air and let out a little cry of surprise at the sight of her husband sitting on the porch steps, shoulders hunched, head hanging, twisting the chain of his mermaid pendant so hard between his fingers that she feared it might snap. He looked up at the sound of her arrival, his big, beautiful eyes full of so much pain that she had to bite back another cry at the sight of it.

"Sebby!" she tried to sound cheerful, hand unconsciously seeking the matching pendant around her own neck. "There you are, I was just coming to look for you. Dinner's ready and I just fed the kitties. We've all been missing you like crazy!"

"You have?" His mouth twisted and his head dropped again. He let out a bitter little sound, half a laugh, half a sigh. "I doubt it… hell, if I just disappeared would it really matter?"

"Oh Sebby…" Lily's throat filled, tears pricked at her eyes. Her sweet boy…. she couldn't bear to hear him say such things.

She walked down the steps and sat herself squarely in his lap, loving the fact that despite his distress his arms still instinctively came up to hold her.

"Lily!" his eyes were wide and wondering. "I…"

"No," she shook her head, laid a finger on his lips. "Don't say anything else. Those aren't your words, they're your father's." She stroked his cheek. "It would matter if you disappeared. It would matter so much, because if you did you'd take my heart with you. I love you, Sebby. You're my husband. I wouldn't want to live if you weren't here with me."

"Lily..." He gazed at her like she was his sun, moon and stars all in one then grasped her face in both hands and kissed her desperately.

"Seb..." she responded in kind, heart aching with desire, didn't complain when he picked her up, didn't complain when he carried her past her carefully prepared meal, didn't complain when he laid her down on their bed...

...because she knew they both needed a different kind of sustenance right now.

~The End~

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stardewlily · 16 days

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Yum indeed! :D Reblogging this because a) he's beautiful and b) I think your main account may have finally been fixed because you just showed up in my followers list after being invisible for ages, yay!

Yum <3

#sebastian art #yes i'm still obsessed with your art ;)#i mean... just look at him....#look at how cute and adorable he is...#how soft and sweet his face is....#my beautiful hubby!#please keep drawing this man because i need him like spongebob needs water!!

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stardewlily · 16 days

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This is exactly what I'm striving for in my current work! This is Seb & Lily's relationship summed up perfectly. A love so strong they literally can't exist without each other. I know some people might find it cringe or unrealistic, but I don't care, it appeals to my over-emotional neurodivergent brain, so there! :P

i love it when characters are codependent. i love it when losing someone feels like losing a limb. i love it when two people "complete" each other so wholly and terribly that one can barely function without the other. i love it when the fear of losing the only person who understands them is so all-consuming they'll destroy anything to stay together, including themselves.

#this is what happens when a hopelessly romantic autistic person writes fan fiction... you have been warned!

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stardewlily · 16 days

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Oh my goodness, you have no idea how much your words mean to me! I've been through so many agonies with these stories and became so afraid I couldn't do the theme justice that I actually deleted them a while back. I had to force myself to repost in an attempt to regain my confidence. I'm so happy that you enjoyed them, this gives me fresh motivation to keep working on part three, thank you so much!

Part Two of Everything To Me

A Stardew Valley fan fiction about the relationship between Sebastian and my farmer, Lily. The second part of a new drama-heavy mini-series. Part one is here for those who missed it.

Notes: This is another story that bit the dust during my recent bout of depression. I think it was up for less than a day before I deleted it and only had one note but still, I'm sorry to that one person for their disappearing bookmark!

Synopsis: Seb & Lily deal with the emotional fall out of his father's visit until a trip into the mines causes fresh trouble

Cast: Original Female Character, Sebastian, Abigail

Contents: Established Relationship (Married), Mental Health Issues, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Drama

Warnings: Abandonment Issues

Sebastian stared out over the water. He was sitting at the end of the abandoned dock near the tide pools. It was peaceful here. Nothing but the sound of rolling waves. He loved this place. It was where he had proposed to Lily.

Lily.

He blinked. Wondered why his vision was so blurry. He wished she were here right now. For some reason the waves weren't soothing him as they normally did. He still felt so cold inside. Had felt that way ever since he left his mom's. Ever since he'd smashed that camera. Ever since…

His dad had left.

Again.

He shook his head. The static was still there. Was it ever going to go away?

He was so alone. His vision blurred even more. Always alone.

It was what he deserved. Wasn't it?

"Sebby…"

That voice. That sweet sweet voice.

"Lily…"

He looked up. Oh Yoba. He needed her. Needed her more than anything.

He let out a broken cry and reached for her.

"Lily, he did it again! He left again... Why, Lily? Why? What did I do? What's wrong with me? Why does everyone always leave?"

"Oh Sebby…"

His eyes were huge, his tears endless. She couldn't bear to see the face she loved full of so much pain. She flew to him, tears streaming down her own cheeks, threw her arms around him, pulling him to her as she collapsed to her knees beside him on the dock.

"You didn't do anything, Sebby," she crooned as his arms snaked desperately around her and he buried his face in her chest. "There's nothing wrong with you, it's not your fault, sweetheart, it's not your fault!"

"Lily!" he sobbed, clutching her so tight she could barely breathe. "Don't leave me, don't leave me!"

"I'm not going to leave you, Sebby," she said, stroking the silk of his hair and rocking him gently, heart aching with sympathy for him. "I'm never going to leave you. Never. You mean the world to me. I love you, I love you so much!"

"Lily, I'm not going to let anyone leave me ever again, I swear it! I'm never letting go of you, Lily, I'm never letting go of you!"

He held her as close as he could. Now she was here the static was gone, her warmth had chased away the cold and the waves could soothe him again. He sighed into her chest. Lily. His precious wife. The one thing he could never lose. He would do everything in his power to keep her with him. With him forever.

Sebastian smiled as he took a sip from his latest 'World's Greatest…' mug. Ever since his father's visit Lily had been an even bigger sweetheart than usual, treating him to so many silly little things that he'd been completely overwhelmed. She had come back from town the day after his initial upset with a mischievous grin on her face and every morning since then he had received his coffee in a new mug that had proclaimed him in turn to be a multitude of things, including the world's greatest husband, lover, musician, programmer and philosopher amongst others.

She had cooked his favourite foods for him every single day and had even invented some new ones. This morning she had woken him with a breakfast éclair iced perfectly in the shape of a little keroppi, his latest 'World's Greatest Froggy Boy' mug sitting right next to it. He had laughed so hard when he'd seen the tray and when she'd giggled and told him how she'd had to get that mug specially printed he had pulled her into bed and shown her just how much he deserved his 'World's Greatest Lover' mug.

Along with all of that she had put up with his endless moodiness with not a single complaint. And he had been moody. He knew he had. All of his old abandonment issues had resurfaced with a vengeance and he had vacillated between periods of bitter introspection, locking himself away for hours at a time, to clinging to her so desperately that he had literally not let her out of his sight, constantly holding onto her, touching her, following her around everywhere like a lost puppy. The deep, dark, broken part of him, the part that expected anger and rejection, had instead been blessed every single time with her sweet smile, her ready embrace and a supply of love so endless and constant that he'd been brought to tears time and time again with the knowledge of just how lucky he was to have her in his life.

And now, for the first day in ages, she was gone. He looked up at the clock and tried not to feel nervous. He knew she had left for a good reason, working on a job to help the town fisherman, Willy. The old man apparently wasn't meeting his quotas and was panicking so much about his poor catches that Lily, kind hearted as always, had offered to help him. Sebastian hadn't wanted her to go but knew he couldn't keep her at his beck and call forever. He also knew that he really needed to get on with his own work and so had kissed her goodbye as she headed off to the lake with her fishing gear, wished her luck, then spent all his time ever since counting each minute until she returned.

He shook his head and tried to turn his attention back to his work. Everything would be just fine. She hadn't really been gone that long and when she returned he was already planning to cook her favourite meal, just to show how much he appreciated her.

He sighed and started coding. Yes, everything would be just fine. He knew it.

Lily pulled her wire basket up out of the water and smiled to see it nearly full. She'd had a really productive couple of hours at her old lakeside fishing spot and hugged herself at the thought of how relieved Willy would be when she brought her catch to him. She set her bait and cast again, thinking she might as well take a little more advantage of her good fortune. There was always room for a few more, after all!

She was already thinking ahead to after her trip to Willy's shop, humming happily to herself at the thought of being back with her Sebby again. She was so busy with her daydreaming that she didn't hear Abigail's approach until the girl sank heavily to the ground next to her, frown on her face, rucksack and pickaxe on her back, sword strapped tightly to her waist.

"Hmph!" Abigail declared meaningfully, tugging vengefully at the grass near her knee.

"Abby!" Lily exclaimed. "You made me jump, I didn't hear you come up!" She looked over at the goth girl, wondering what was causing her black mood. "What's wrong?"

"My stupid dad," Abigail pouted. "He saw me practising with my sword and went absolutely ballistic. Started spouting all this crap about how young ladies shouldn't wield weapons, that I shouldn't even be thinking of going into the mines, that I should just go home and help my mom with the dinner!" She looked up at Lily indignantly. "Can you believe it? I told him how the mines can't be that bad 'cos Gil never even gets out of his chair, plus you go in the mines all the time, but he just rolled his eyes and started mumbling something about you being a bad influence!"

"Well, I used to go in the mines," Lily said, trying to keep an eye on her float as Abigail began digging ferociously at the ground with a stick she had found. "But I don't anymore. It can be dangerous, you know?"

"Oh, don't you start too!" The stick snapped and Abigail tossed it aside in disgust. "I thought you'd be on my side!"

"I am on your side," Lily sat down beside her. "He had no right to say those things to you, it was pretty sexist really."

"Damn right it was! He's so fucking archaic, I can't believe it! Well, I'll show him! I'm gonna go in those mines, right to the deepest level, get the biggest diamond I can find and shove it right under his nose! That'll show him what young ladies are capable of!" She climbed to her feet and marched off in the direction of the mine entrance, a determined expression on her face.

"Abby!" Lily struggled to her feet, calling after the rapidly departing girl. "Are you sure that's wise? If you're going to go into the mines you should really start with the lower levels, the monsters farther in are…"

She trailed off. Abigail was either too far away to hear her or just refusing to listen.

She frowned and looked at her fishing line. Dammit, she didn't want to leave her spot but she couldn't let Abby go getting herself into trouble. She was one of Sebby's friends and she didn't want to think about how upset he would be right now if anything bad happened to her.

She groaned and set off after her, hoping she still had time to catch up before anything stupid happened.

Yoba, Abigail could move fast for someone carrying such a big pack. Lily had already lost sight of her before she finally came to the mine entrance. She wondered momentarily if she should go to the guild to fetch Marlon but decided against it, the guild building was too far away, by the time she got there Abigail could already be deep in the mines. If she could just get to her before she had the chance to properly set out, all would be well.

She hurried through the doorway and ran over to the elevator. Her heart sank when she saw it set to level eighty. She had hoped that Abigail had only been joking, that surely the girl would know how dangerous those deep levels could be.

She jabbed at the recall button, heart hammering in her chest as she tapped her foot impatiently, waiting for it to arrive. Ah, how could it take so long? She needed to get down there fast. If only Abigail hadn't made it to the ladder yet.

The door pinged open and Lily jumped inside, realising only as the door slid shut in front of her that she didn't have a single weapon on her. Nothing she could even use to defend herself with.

Well, she would just have to hope that it wouldn't come to that. There weren't always monsters on every level, after all. Sometimes when she had gone mining she had passed a whole day seeing nothing more threatening then a few nervous slimes. She began to tap her foot again as the elevator whined its way down.

Yes. Maybe she was worrying about nothing. She just needed to get down there and talk some sense into her, that was all.

The elevator ground to a halt and the door pinged again. Lily was through it before it had even finished opening, looking frantically around the room for some signs of Abigail. There was nothing to be seen and her frown deepened as her gaze fell on the ladder leading down to the deepest levels. There was nothing for it. Abby had gone down there and so she would have to, too.

'I'm sorry, Sebby,' she said to herself as she clambered down. 'I know I promised you I'd never go in here again but it's for a good reason and I'll be straight back out.'

She sighed. She hated breaking her word, especially to him.

"Abby!" she called out as soon as her feet hit the bottom. "Abby, where are you?"

"Lily? Is that you?"

Lily let out a sigh of relief as she turned and saw Abigail on the other side of the cavern, sword in hand, peering back at her, monster-free and completely safe in the dim light of the torches fixed at varying intervals along the walls.

"Abby, thank Yoba you're okay!" she started making her way over. "You need to come back up with me right now, it's way too dangerous on these levels!"

"Are you joking?" Abigail laughed. "There's nothing here! I didn't know you were such a scaredy-cat, Lily. I'm going down to the next level, I don't see any rocks worth breaking here."

"Abby, no!" Lily reached out, watching in dismay as Abigail descended to the next level. "Ah, dammit, dammit…" she ran over to the ladder, fear piercing her heart as she heard a high-pitched scream from below.

"Abby!" She slid down the ladder so fast she could feel the skin burning on her palms. "Abby!"

She landed in a pile of rock dust and turned to see Abigail cowering back from the group of shadow brutes she had disturbed with her sudden entrance.

"Abby," Lily spoke with utter calm, though her heart beat so fast she was sure she was about to die. "Get back here right now, don't try to fight, you don't stand a chance."

The shadow brutes turned to look at them, there were four, it seemed almost as though they had been talking amongst themselves, a small circle of stones lay at their feet, like some kind of gathering spot. Not for the first time did Lily wonder if they were actually as mindless as people liked to think.

"Lily… oh, Lily…" Abigail whimpered and fell, scrabbling frantically backwards as the brutes climbed to their feet.

"Get back here," Lily hissed, "and give me your sword!"

Abigail screamed again as the shadow brutes darted for her as one. She dodged them just in time, turned a desperate gaze towards Lily, tossed her the sword.

"Get up the ladder, now!"

Time seemed to slow to a crawl for Lily. She somehow managed to catch the sword by its hilt. Stepped between the brutes and her friend. Watched as the girl threw herself at the ladder. Began to pull herself up it.

Then she turned to face the brutes, sword raised high in her shaking hands.

"Fetch Marlon!" she cried in the moment before they descended on her.

Abigail stared down in horror as Lily disappeared beneath a roiling black mass then turned and ran for the elevator door.

"Marlon," she gasped as she sank into the corner of the elevator, shaking like a leaf. "Have to fetch Marlon."

And then she put her face in her hands and wept.

"Oh, Lily, I'm so sorry!"

The frog mug slipped from Sebastian's grip and smashed to the floor. He stared at the shards and his shaking hands. What the hell...? One minute he had been drinking calmly and the next minute a shock had run right through him, like something terrible had just happened.

He looked at the clock.

Lily. Something had happened to Lily.

All of a sudden he was sure of it. She needed him. Needed him right now.

He shot to his feet, grabbed his helmet and bike keys and ran for the door.

All the way down the mountain road his heart was racing, he couldn't shake the sickening sensation that something was wrong, he was off his bike and running before the sound of the engine had even fully died away.

He ran as fast as he could, lungs tearing as the lake finally came into view. His eyes scanned the water's edge frantically, finally coming to a halt on the empty fishing spot.

Where was she? Why wasn't she here? Turning to look at him with a smile on her face. Like she should be… just like she should be…

"Lily…" his voice was a broken moan, he barely recognised it as his own. "Where are you?"

His phone went off in his pocket, he slapped a hand on it, wrenched it to his ear.

"Seb!"

It was Abigail. She sounded terrible.

"Oh Seb… it's Lily… I… I'm so sorry…" he could hear her crying… "this is all my fault… aaah… you have to come to the mines right now… there's been an accident!"

Sebastian's knees gave way. His phone fell to the ground.

His world went black.

~Part three coming soon~

Cute little page dividers by @chachachannah / Boring old plain green ones by me!

#stardew valley sebastian #simping for fictional men is the best thing ever #seb has always been my favourite #i love him so much #i work so hard to write him perfectly #because he means everything to me <3

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stardewlily · 17 days

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This is so wild, so primal, so him... and so beautifully drawn I can hear the waves and feel the rain on my face.

Getting back into stardew recently and realised I've never posted this.

#sebastian art #this is him #this is how he feels #i know this sensation #it makes me want to cry #losing your pain in a storm that's bigger than the one inside you #fucking sublime #i love it

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stardewlily · 19 days

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My moods are yo-yoing all over the place right now (thank you cyclothymia) and today I once again find my finger hovering over the delete button of not only all my latest stories but even my blog in general.

I'm not going to do it though. I'm walking away. I'm playing Stardew. Because right now I need some time in this gentle world with my fictional hubby and I don't care how crazy that sounds because this game and this sweet boy soothe my sadness like nothing else can...

#stardew valley #stardew valley sebastian #even when i feel like crying my eyes out he can say something like this and make everything alright <3 #i love my fictional husband #i wonder how many other people find solace in stardew #games get such a bad rap and yet this one has saved my sanity so many times...#i'm so grateful to be able to lose myself in this precious world

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stardewlily · 19 days

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How can I not care about my baby boy looking so cute!! :D

sebastian with a frog beanie if u even care

#sebastian art #awww he looks so adorable here <3 #just look at his sweet little face!!!#oh dear... i can't stop myself... it's happening...#i officially need to hug him to bits right now!!!#*sounds of intense hubby snuggling ensue*

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stardewlily · 20 days

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AAAAAAAH, JUST SAW THIS ON MY DASH!! THIS IS AMAZING!! MY BOY!! THE ROBE!! THE SLIPPERS!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I LOVE YOU!! <3 <3 <3

Another rough WIP of my fictional husband <3 @stardewlily don't know if mentions work for me right now, but here's your request to see this one! I love drawing him so much <3

#sebastian art #I LOVE THIS!!!#everything is so fucking perfect in this picture!!!#omg is that a tattoo i see there on his chest??#i'm kicking and screaming the delight is just too much <3 #you are doing god's work with this right now!!!!#goddam tumblr needs to get off their ass and unshadowban you cos more people need to see this!!!

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Part Two of Everything To Me

A Stardew Valley fan fiction about the relationship between Sebastian and my farmer, Lily. The second part of a new drama-heavy mini-series. Part one is here for those who missed it.

Synopsis: Seb & Lily deal with the emotional fall out of his father's visit until a trip into the mines causes fresh trouble

Cast: Original Female Character, Sebastian, Abigail

Contents: Established Relationship (Married), Mental Health Issues, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Drama

Warnings: Abandonment Issues