Do you think Dick ever looked at Damian and went, "Ah, to be young and filled with rage and bloodlust."

very incredibly emotional abt steven grant rn. steven grant who is consistently kind and apologetic and shy. we start off in the first few episodes thinking that steven is the host and marc is his stoic protector made to confront anyone who tries to hurt him.

but steven is the protector. he is soft-spoken, constantly saying sorry. because that’s what the body needed to be to survive. not aggression, not fight or even flight, but to fawn. to minimize danger by constantly appeasing others. we can assume this worked because steven has no bad memories of his mother— presumably she left him alone or even treated him passably because he knew what to do around her. how to act. how not to bother her.

when dr harrow is calling her in front of him, we hear steven saying don’t do that, and twice he says don’t bother her, please. am i crazy to think that despite the happy loving image he has of his mother, he still had that internal monologue going? it’s worth noting that despite his very positive opinion of his mother he still seems somewhat… anxious when it comes to her. he doesn’t tell her the truth, hardly— it seems everything he tells her over the phone is processed and filtered in such a way so as to not upset her. when the date goes badly, he lies. when he ends up in the middle of the street, he laughs about it and even jokingly puts himself down to her. all things he is used to, even if he’s not sure why. all the stress in his life he seems to vent to things that cannot respond to him— gus, being a fish, and a living statue, whose job is to sit there and do nothing. people and things he cannot bother. and when dr harrow starts calling, he starts tearing up, begging him not to bother her— what does he think the repercussions are?

to me even the final realization of my mum is dead. feels like an acceptance of not just that fact but all of marc’s memories, at least the start of that process. he’s filling in the gaps. do you think there were times where he slipped up, bothered her, and suddenly woke up alone in bed, bruised or with his face wet with tears, unsure how he got there? unaware that marc or jake had to step in and take the blows because they wouldn’t expose steven to that? do you think he begins to cry in that scene because he’s realizing what must’ve happened to the body through the years after he was taken from front each time?

dead means more than simply she’s not living. the image steven had of his mother is dead as well. the love and the admiration are dead. marc and presumably jake had known she’d passed away, but when steven disconnects from her, stops calling her, stops loving her, that’s when she’s truly dead to them. because even past her actual death, steven was still talking to her— and marc must have known. jake must have known. marc had his reasons for getting a phone of his own but i feel like one of them was so that he wouldn’t have to look at all the unreturned calls to a number he feels sick even looking at. they hadn’t wanted steven to know the truth, any bit of it. steven had been unaware they even had a brother.

(and if i get into the implications of marc being so resistant at first to letting steven follow roro… he hates himself for what happened and he refuses to let steven know. maybe because he thinks steven would hate him, blame him, say it was his fault… and even more heartbreaking still because he thinks steven would blame and hate himself.)

the system trying to protect steven’s innocence is something so truly sob worthy to me. not only because they genuinely care about him and want him to be happy, or because him being happy may be the only remaining bit of them that is, or because they know it’s near impossible to live with it and steven’s possibly one of the only reasons they’re still alive (marc seems to have been perfectly content going practically dormant seeing as steven apparently had a functioning life, job, everything for a while, with the only disturbance being one of his alters— and we could even assume that was actually jake, given that he’s more likely to have set up a date than recently-divorced marc —up at night). i need y’all to also consider that the system still needs him to protect them. they still live in fear.

they need steven, because they need someone who is too good to hurt. marc and jake don’t see themselves as deserving of mercy or love but they know steven is. they need him to be comfortable and happy and healthy because it is their body’s only chance to feel it. because he deserves it and they want to preserve that state for as long as possible. again, because that’s what they need, have always needed, to survive.

aghhhhgg :(

Got the moves like Steven...

He knows what he’s doing😭

Oscar Isaac

OSCAR ISAAC as JONATHAN SCENES FROM A MARRIAGE 1.01 INNOCENCE AND PANIC

Scenes from a marriage: The curious incident of the bug in the night time

Moon Knight Blooper Reel

Beating up bad guys IS the date. Quality time is their love language 😂

Reblog this if it’s okay to DM you and shoot the friendship shot.

Hi guys

Dick grayson :D

i drew it at 3am and subconsciously gave him curly hair 🙌

I give you …..THEM ✨✨

I feel like I did Steph dirty…. Tbh I’ll try harder next time guys I swear 👀😅

Just a little comfort doodle :)

In which Raven happens upon Damian’s unannounced return home after weeks of him being gone. He’s a bit battered and bruised, as he always is when he returns—but that doesn’t stop the overwhelming joy and relief Raven feels to have him back in her arms.

On the one hand, it's irritating when I Google Image search "Steven Grant" and get pictures that are obviously Marc Spector, or vice versa.

On the other, I love that I can look at a still image and immediately know which alter it is.

I love when people write about Steven getting you flowers but hear me out… imagine his reaction when you get him flowers

This are my new favourite things 🩵

I think I crushed it today. (Sometimes I'm not sure after looking at it for so long)

Did I finally do you justice, Jake?