Having to take antipsychotics while also having an ed is hell because most of them cause weight gain. Fuck this.

For the other full time hosts out there: is it normal to be exhausted and a little fuzzy around the edges when you come back to front after a switch?

We switched last night, and I'm still feeling unwell from it. My protector doesn't like being from and is also not feeling great. Do we just need rest, or is there something else we can do to recover?

At least I stopped myself from sitting on the porch. I used to punish myself by not letting myself go indoors at night or in bad weather because I "didn't deserve it". Been years since I had that urge last, but I resisted tonight!

Up past my bedtime, full of sadness and hurt and bad, wishing I was comfy in my bed but also don't want to keep my partner up. Life feels strange sometimes

Up past my bedtime, full of sadness and hurt and bad, wishing I was comfy in my bed but also don't want to keep my partner up. Life feels strange sometimes

A couple of nights ago I switched right before falling asleep. My protector almost never fronts, and she had a panic attack because she was so started. Since then, sleeping has been more stressful. I've tried all my coping mechanisms, but it's still hard. Not sure how to get back to normal :/

Does anyone else have moments where the host has control of the body except for one particular part? Is there a term for this?

It happens a lot where I will be fronting but my protector will have control of the voice/mouth. I really struggle with intrusive thoughts, and it's easier for me to hear her sometimes when she speaks out loud.

My name is Rain (they/them), and I'm going to use this side blog to maybe open up about having an alter and hopefully feel less alone.

For most of my life, I've shared my brain with a protector named V (she/her) who came about due to abuse. Only a couple of people in my life know, and I feel all sorts of bad feelings when we switch. Even writing about this is making me nervous haha.

I've been on tumblr for a long while, but I'm very new to this community and am still learning a lot of the terms. I'm going to try to move at my own pace to not completely stress myself out, so I probably won't post much at all or frequently. But I just wanted to introduce myself and say hello! :)