The Color of Pomegranates (Նռան գույնը), dir. Sergei Parajanov (1969)

when bjork said “you’ll be given love, you’ll be taken care of. maybe not from the sources you’ve poured yours. maybe not from the direction you are staring at. twist your head around. it’s all around u” SHE WAS RIGHT!!!!!! 

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Sometimes I think about my best friend in my 20's response to when I told her I was envious of how talented and skilled she was cause she was always the friend that was doing a million new hobbies and just really had it together in my eyes and she seemed so disappointed in me and said how she's always been perceived as "talented" for things she was not a natural at and had actually worked tirelessly hard to learn to do and how it's never a compliment to assume someone has something you don't simply because they got lucky because more often than not they were just as capable as you and just chose to take risks, dedicate time, push through discomforts or doubts that maybe you succumb to, and really earned things that are often nonchalantly disregarded by peers as having walking in with already in hand

And I feel like that conversation really changed me cause I've always been bad at school and been a slow learner so I just sort of decided I wasn't smart and it wasn't my fault I wasn't born with the same advantages of people around me and I think that's something we all do as self protection from the truth that the only thing truly keeping us from what we want is usually ourselves and our decisions about our own narratives that aren't actually in stone even if we see them that way

I realized my friend was actually just not a quitter, and that she also felt not good enough often but decided to keep going in times where I know I would have stopped in her place

And I feel like taking ownership of my life a lot in the last few years has made me understand her better, even with stuff like chronic illness that practically begs us to victimize ourselves and then that way of thinking makes us sicker and more dependent on others when we could be accepting help without considering ourselves so helpless

It's really weird interacting with anyone once I've realized so much of that because I see my old self in people when they talk to me like I have something they don't because I am finally making different choices than I used to and honestly it is very irritating regardless of intention

If you want something someone else has that doesn't give you permission to assume how they got it or what it is even like having it - and I think more and more people have decided it's not their fault how they are choosing to live and that's why they are so stuck

From May of 2 years ago reflected light from moving water on a tree. Some bird song too.

[scans] GOING magazine | the colour 13, mingyu and jeonghan take out withfull credits

read literature in your first language! learn about your country's literary history! read those sentences and memorize new words you didn't know yet! find an author you like and explore their work! explore the modern literary scene in your country! visit a local bookshop and ask for recommendations in your own language! refuse to let the english language trample over linguistic diversity! stop acting like it's too hard! just START!

one thing i never get tired of in songs is when they include some sounds from the recording booth like a laugh at the end, a ‘was that good?’ or like, the sounds of the guitar being put down, a chair creaking. it’s nice how music can be used as an escape but also something that ties you right back down to earth. it will affect you so deeply & then ur like wow… you just played that. it’s grounding & magical & just one of my fave things ever!

behind the scenes of hirokazu kore-eda's monster (2023)

Perfect Days (2023) dir. Wim Wenders