I know I gotta keep, keep on breathin’. 

PLOTS THAT I NEVER KNEW I NEEDED TILL NOW — *

                                                                PLOT #1 

muse a is what they call “the wall”. no matter how well you may think you know them, no matter how well you may make them smile or laugh, you’ll never truly know the real them, due to the wall they have up. muse a has always been closed off when it came to relationships — they didn’t believe anyone could actually see themselves with muse a in the long run, even if they had every single trait they had been looking for. after failed attempts of relationships, muse a had began to get better and better at going from the dumpee to the dumper. like clockwork, muse a just got out of another relationship, one to where it lasted far too long and they bump into muse b, a free-spirited and loving character who never settles, who never gets into relationships and for some odd reason, muse a wants a relationship with muse b in someway and somehow, they were determined to have it — whether it meant risking being hurt once again but, how can you hurt when you’ve become numb to it, right? 

                                                                PLOT #2

the question that everyone has regarding a break up, is can exes really just be friends after a break up? muse a and muse b had dated for years, knowing every little detail and every habit they had about one another. muse a was this driven and perfectionist of a person, but they always knew how to have a good time — whereas with muse b was always getting in some type of trouble. despite the odd pair, their relationship never went through the ups and downs, they barely ever argued and overall, the two always mentioned how well their relationship has always been — it wasn’t until muse a began to feel like muse b was going into a horrible route in their life with almost getting arrested, talking to people disrespectfully, getting drunk every other day. they were turning into someone muse a didn’t really know anymore and it didn’t make muse a feel any better or safer being with muse b, which ultimately led the two to break up. however, due to their long status of their relationship, muse b has been reaching out, asking and hoping for muse a to at least give them a chance at friendship, but — muse a is now that person asking, can the two really just be friends?

                                                               PLOT #3

being in an on and off relationship, muse a had always been wrapped around muse b’s finger. the two would fight, break up, make up and repeat and everyone knew the routine of the couple. muse a would fall for muse b’s flashing smile and their heartfelt words that led to them getting back together, even though muse a knew they didn’t actually mean a single word. wanting their relationship to work, muse a tries and has tried everything there is but, muse b makes it clear they could careless of the effort. after looking back at all the fights and all the tears that muse a had to deal with thanks to muse b, it’s a surprise to everyone and to muse b, when muse a finally puts their foot down and begins to worry about themselves again, they start ignoring muse b’s phone calls, home visits and eventually drives muse b over the edge and makes them reevaluate what’s truly happening and tries everything to get muse a’s attention again. 

                                                              PLOT #4

muse a and muse b had always been the best of friends. the two always were together and nobody or anything could get the two apart. it wasn’t until muse b was offered a job somewhere across the country, and without much thinking, muse a begged them to not go — finally admitting their feelings, muse b agreed to not leave, and without thinking turned down a job that could have changed their life forever but, like every cliche movie, they were blinded by a confess they believed would end happily. after a few months, the two began to fight more often, which led to random outbursts, or one leaving without speaking a word or trying to fix things. the sexual connectivity was there and sadly, it was the only thing keeping the two together. muse a started to feel emotionally disconnected while muse b could only blame muse a for dragging them behind and keeping them from their dream. it was a best friends gone lovers turned into strangers, and that was something they had always wanted to avoid, no matter what may had caused the two to start feeling disconnected to one another.  

                                                   PLOT #5

muse b is the big shot around campus, known for their charm, their families’ fortune and of course, their player antics. not only are they top of their class, but they are also a top athlete. instead of the cliche, shy muse a falling for the popular muse b, how about muse a is a transfer to said college, and not only are they also known for their charismatic and outgoing personality, but they are also a top athlete. with being said, the two are introduced during class, muse b is up to their old little habits, answering each and every question that the professor throws at them, until they get one wrong and is out shined by muse a, who frankly is, smirking and making it seem like they are taunting muse b for their mistake. it turns into a feud almost, who can answer more questions, who can drink the most beers, who can out fuck the other — little did they know, they have a lot more in common than they truly thought when muse a finally asks muse b on a coffee date, which is where the real tension begins to show. 

Ansel Elgort (October, 2018)

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if you could shine brighter, i’d be the dark

my last words are probably going to be ‘wait what’

things my boyfriend has done

- urgently marched into A&E and said ‘we’re having knee pain!!’ to the confused receptionist. i had to explain that it was only my knee and that he was just worried

- when asked to tag me in a meme of ‘what water are you?’, said ‘you are the ocean: home to all friends’

- loved ‘filthy gorgeous’ and, rather than learning the words, learned ‘all three parts in the song where they ring a triangle’

- after we had an argument about him not ‘getting’ my ADHD, i caught him halfway through a three hour playlist of lectures on ADHD, with a pen in hand, taking notes

- he suffered a TBI last summer and he did not like the orienting questions they ask (’what year is it? what day is it?’ etc). when asked ‘do you know where you are?’, he cracked one eye open and angrily said ‘in bed!’

- he played knack 2 and hated it. when i asked why he was still playing it, he said ‘so i never have to play it again’. he got every achievement and as soon as he got the last one he stood up, ejected the disc and returned it to the store

- lately he’s given up on making lunch so he just drinks huel which is a meal replacement shake, except huel is kind of boring so he sometimes puts nesquick strawberry powder in there

- my favourite drink is pepsi max. when asked about his dreams for the future, they often involve ‘being rich enough to find a way to pump pepsi max directly into our house’

- one time in our first year of dating i hadn’t seen him in weeks, whereas we normally saw each other all day every day, so i was gonna go stay with him for a couple days. he had a temporary job (i’m talking 2 weeks total) at the time and i was bummed that i was gonna be alone at his for a bit, but w/e. he was texting me like ‘work is going okay, in the line for the canteen right now’ while i got on the bus. i found the key where he said it was, i found a note on the table like ‘hi love! the wifi code is [password], I’ll be back at 5!’, and then I went into the lounge and he was there. he was lying on a fold-out bed with Marvin Gaye playing. the TV was on a powerpoint slide that said ‘Welcome, Jess. I quit my job.’ he was entirely naked except for a cushion with the letter ‘D’ over his crotch. im 95% sure there were candles

- we play the game Rimworld, where you micromanage a colony of people on an alien planet. he uses it entirely to simulate a peaceful colony, mostly of women, who have a large number of animals they care for and train. one time he got this random event where all the women in the colony got a psychic mood boost and he was like ‘honestly that’s my life goal’

- when he was in hospital and his cognitive functions were slowly coming back, he looked up from twitter with horror and said ‘jess… is the american president a racist?’

- we were playing Articulate, which is a game where you have to describe a word without saying the word itself. His partner said ‘when you’re beginning sex, you are…’. he, without a second of hesitation, yelled ‘FOREPLAY’. the answer was actually ‘initiating’, but my ego grew like fourteen times

- one time he asked me what guacamole was, and i told him, and he said ‘if it’s made up of things that already have names why does it have a different name?’ i have not let him live this down yet

- i used to have an eating disorder, and whilst i’m good 99.9% of the time now i occasionally do have wobbles. one time i’d eaten some mini-donuts and i told him ‘i kind of want to check the calories on those…’, so he immediately pulled the label off and ate it

- i lost him for like twenty minutes at a uni event, and when i found him he presented me with a pepsi max badge and said ‘i rode this mechanical bull to try and win you a year’s supply but i fell off pretty quickly. sorry.’

- we won the ‘best couple’ award in our year at uni, but neither of us were there to collect it because i was ill and he left halfway through to come home and take care of me

- one time he wasn’t paying attention while making lunch and he cracked an egg directly into the bin. the look of confusion on his face was priceless.

- on the rare occasions when i wake up before him, when i kiss him/ touch him he makes these little like… activation sounds? you know like when you touch a cat? it’s like those