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I never published it but I once wrote a self insert fic where my character was basically there entirely for the purpose of driving the plot forward. He helped couples get together, created conflict, subtly made characters reflect on themselves, acted as a bit of a mystery to be solved. But after I'd resolved all the plot lines I got really sad about how my character was sort of abandoned by everyone (he wasn't really part of their stories, so he got forgotten about) so I killed him off via suicide o-o

Why did I do that? I really dont know

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Washington my beloved, that is all

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i hate this blog bc there are so many confessions on here that i read and i’m like “wow ur opinions suck and i would love to never interact with you again!” but i can’t block them bc they’re on anon. so i just have to wonder if anyone i know is secretly harboring fucked up takes instead of just being able to not interact with people i don’t like. like. own ur fucking opinions man. blogs like this just encourage ppl to fester over shit instead of actually talking about the issues they have. anyway if you want joel back huff my nuts a good voice actor is not worth a right wing sinophobic chud being given a platform. get a fucking backbone.

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okay alright i know this is about to be controversial but god i really do hate tuckington

if this is a ship anyone likes i’m gonan advise you don’t read this bc it just won’t be enjoyable for you, but id like to get it off my chest

for me, tucker and washington are two characters who are just generally quite bland, and i feel like their only merit comes from the fact that they’re the cool/badass/hot ones. tucker’s arc is literally him just going from an insufferable misogynist to,, less of an insufferable misogynist. he stops being unwilling to take action about everything he does and turns into someone who like, does the bare minimum ig? literally the only reason he stepped up on chorus is because a. it directly started affecting him when half the team was captured by the feds, and b. cunningham and rogers were killed and it was solely his fault. he would not have grown if this hadn’t happened (@/chorusan has a really good post abt this). then there’s the whole character assassination from like season 15 onwards that i know isn’t tucker’s fault(?) and is just the writers being useless at consistency but it still really annoyed me, all that grating selfishness and self righteousness (especially aimed at grif) was just,, eugh. characters with faults are good, but they need to be written better than this.

wash, oh wash. you’re literally just There. he is such a boring character, the only interesting thing that happens to him is epsilon exploding in his mind but that wasn’t an action orchestrated by wash, it was another, far more interesting character doing something To him & then the season 15 plot where he got shot but that was completely disregarded in zero (again, this isn’t exactly a fault with the character but with the writers but i’m still mentioning it bc i feel like wash going through the recovery process and adjusting to life with cerebral hypoxia could’ve made his character at least fractionally interesting but we didn’t get it). aside from that ig he has a little bit of dimension with him going from goofy in the freelancer saga to serious later on but i find that seriousness just boring yk? he doesn’t have any faults, he’s the handsome, smart, capable fighter and that’s literally it. the counsellor mentions he’s supposed to have anger issues but they’ve literally never surfaced so idk what all that’s about. his whole villain arc in season 6 was completely out of the blue imo, he was literally just evil for the sake of being evil and then it was never mentioned again outside of bits abt him killing donut. aside from him being like ‘waa i’m a prisoner and nobody likes me anymore’ there was literally no reason for him to be so awful & yet?? he’s encountered the rnbs before, he knows how stupid they are and knows that they probably would’ve just helped him if he used his big boy words and actually asked them for it. he’s this tragic sadboy for the sole reason that the writers wanted someone to fill that role without putting any merit into it

with that absolute destruction of their characters aside, i’ll get onto the bit that i really hate (bc as shocking as it may sound after reading that, i don’t Hate hate tucker and washington. i don’t particularly like them, and i wouldn’t go out of my way to read a fic about them or whatever and when i make content they’re usually tacked on the end*) i just don’t like the tuckington ship because for me, it’s the standard straight girl yaoi ship. these characters have like zero depth together aside from maybe having an ounce of enemies to lovers but tucker isn’t the sort of person to really reciprocate the whole enemy thing, he forgives wash after sidewinder in like a grand total of four seconds, second only to caboose, and wash falls flat as a villain anyway like i mentioned before. the fact that they’re both depicted in canon as the generic hot skinny anime boys with the most delicate eurocentric features isn’t helping their case either, if it isn’t borderline fetishisation it’s just boring and unoriginal. it’s a ship for the sake of being able to ship two men together, sure they have like a few select moments in canon where they connect or whatever (and i Am willing to acknowledge that i don’t have much ground to stand on here when it comes to shipping characters that don’t interact much) but the amount of traction it gained as a result of those few scenes (in comparison to something like grimmons which is so insanely intrenched into like every season of the show) is insane and wouldn’t have resulted in such a popular ship if the characters weren’t, at risk of repeating myself, generic hot boys who are good at everything

alright. that’s all. just my take as a wlw who isn’t completely swayed by the fact that tucker and wash are apparently the sexiest characters in the show or somethjng

*i do have to admit there have been Some outliers in which i have cast a shred of interest in wash’s general direction but that’s usually only when i can throw an interesting character into the mix with him, ie sarge, donut or doc

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i saw someone say 'aint that a bitch' out in the wild a few days ago (like, as an rvb reference) and i was like wow, i have matured, i'm not even crying about it. but no it just took a minute for the tears to kick in. :( still hurts, years later

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I think its hilarious when ppl are like “[x character] is so hot” bc afaik (i havent seen the most recent seasons) only a few of the characters have had their faces revealed so its like.

Yeah that suit of armour sure is a very sexy color. Yeah i just love how the light gleams off the visor. Mmmmmm what a hunk (of metal)

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i really wanted to join the fandom and make mutuals and friends so i have someone to talk to about my rvb brainrot but for some reason i feel really intimidated to do so...like i know and saw some good posts from the fandom and they all seem very friendly, but something just keeps stopping me from saying hi and join the fandom..

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The Counselor should have had an opportunity to wear a slick suit and a gay little bowtie imo

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i hate how people call all halo machinima “rvb copies” when the only thing that is similar is that its halo machinima

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i hate fandoms. i only ever minimally interact with them (ill reblog fanart and other peoples posts but ill never put myself out there and talk to people except maybe in small discords. and ill never make my own posts or contributions) but the rvb fandom is the exception. Sure it has a few bad apples, every fandom does, and maybe ive just blocked enough people to have a decent experience but ive genuinely never had a bad time in this fandom and its the only one i feel really comfortable interacting with others. I still don't think im particularly *close* to anyone but im glad to have so many rvb mutuals who find my posts interesting. I will say this is specifically my tumblr experience, i wont touch the subreddit or twitter with a 50ft pole

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washington definitely eats just. plain white bread. plain white kingsmill bread for the plain white bread boy,

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I think Caboose and Donut have had sex, like. Once. As friends.

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I feel bad that I'm upset over the fact that my RvB friend spoiled the animation upgrade for my friend who hadn't seen the show yet

When the Warthog crashed through the wall and hit Wash, I was expecting a "HOLY SHIT" reaction, only to find out she already knew bc the other friend showed her the Tex Army fight

It sucks though, I spent so long building up the hype and barely got a reaction

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I like to imagine Sarge cries when he listens to the band Roxette

No real reason, he just agrees you should listen to your heart before you tell him goodbye

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My friend and I thought we were galaxy brain for thinking Donut is Ace, but apparently that's already been thought of, oops

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I dont even ship it but Sister/Tucker are endgame, like if they ever do a "where are they now" segment I wanna see them married and proud of their college graduate Junior

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