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au where warden alistair stays with the inquisition as a fifth advisor, partially just to keep morrigan on her toes.

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“ every piece of me is made from what you did to me. ”

“ i couldn’t stop missing you if i tried. ”

“ death seems to follow me. ”

“ i can’t let go of this. ”

“ what if we tried again? ”

“ i don’t want to know what life is like without you. ”

“ you’re an impossible person to forget. ”

“ i didn’t think i’d see you again. ”

“ i don’t think i’m built for forever. ”

“ sometimes you break in places that can’t be fixed. ”

“ stay, just for tonight. ”

“ once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale. ”

“ her/his/their/your angel eyes see the good in many devils. ”

“ you can’t go back and change the beginning. ”

“ you can’t go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending. ”

“ every atom of me missed him/her/them/you. ”

“ destroy what destroys you. ”

“ your eyes stole all my words away. ”

“ you are someone too. ”

“ be kind, but don’t forget that you deserve kindness too. ”

“ we deserve a soft epilogue, my love. ”

“ darling, you are not at war. ”

“ darling, you are not at war with anyone but yourself. ”

“ i want kingdoms to tremble when they hear my name. ”

“ teach me how to be a monster. ”

“ some things have to end for better things to begin. ”

“ never feel guilty for starting again. ”

“ i’ll be there when your heart is ready. ”

“ if someone makes you feel, let them. ”

“ there is true magic in you. ”

“ choose people who choose you. ”

“ soulmates aren’t just lovers. ”

“ you drew memories in my mind i could never erase. ”

“ the person you loved was an illusion. ”

“ people leave you out in the cold and get mad when you learn how to get warm by yourself. ”

“ your name hurts. ”

“ grieving someone who still lives might be the worst pain. ”

“ you’re just a stranger with all my secrets. ”

“ i think we were meant to be, but we did it wrong. ”

“ how could you possibly let go of someone that felt like home? ”

“ a part of me still thinks that if i can find the right words, it will save us. ”

“ whatever we are, i still remember the way we were. ”

“ as long as you still love it, it will continue to break you. ”

“ you made it look so damned easy to leave me. ”

“ i still find pieces of you in me. ”

“ perhaps not forgetting you is the only forever we will ever have. ”

“ you and i will always be unfinished business. ”

“ hell exists. it’s here, 3am, awake and without you. ”

“ i regret the end, the way we couldn’t leave one another without wounds. the way we made it seem as if all the love we shared was just wasted time. ”

“ you can forgive yourself now. ”

ultimate dragon age meme | five warriors [ 2/5 ] - alistair

Favorite Brotp - Cassandra and Cullen

"we all have sins we must pay penance for."

HE HAD always tried to be a good and dutiful man; following the lead of the chantry, the will of the maker, for the prosperity of all people's. emboldened by the horrors he'd seen, supported by the powers that be. 

                                               a good and dutiful man.

A FEAR that has festered inside him; a pointed distaste for the very thing he'd been tasked with protecting. a purpose warped and twisted beyond recognition; from the idealistic man of his youth to avoiding his own gaze in a mirror. unaware of himself he clenches, as if his body is bracing for a fall that's lasted a decade. 

              "        THERE IS.. so much i must atone for. so much that i - some of have been lost to time and memory. i am trying to make things right."

I realize it’s not Monday but it’s been a while since I’ve shown my face so.......... feast ur eyes

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“ unique just means alone. ” “ i’m not afraid to die, just wish i could live a little first. ” “ i know i’m a monster, but you look at me like i’m a man. ” “ there’s nothing i wouldn’t do to keep you safe. ” “ we all have sins to pay penance for. ” “ don’t look at me like i’m a hero. you’ll only disappoint yourself. ” “ sometimes when you look at me it’s like…it’s like you’re staring straight past my flesh and into my soul. ” “ you make me want to live. ” “ i know i don’t deserve forgiveness, but i like the idea that some people think i might. ” “ i trust you with my life. ” “ you’re more like family to me than my own blood. ” “ i’ve never had any sort of family before. ” “ your life is far more precious than mine. ” “ i don’t care what happens to me. as long as you’re safe. ” “ i need you to live…cause if you’re gone then, i don’t know what the point of it all is anymore. ” “ i know i’m not the person you want, but i’m here. ” “ i love you, and i know you may never feel the same. but i’m okay with that. ” “ i couldn’t say no to you even if i wanted to. ” “ you’re worth more than this. ” “ why do you walk around as if you’re somehow less valuable than the rest of the world? ” “ please, let me help you. ” “ just let me do this for you. ” “ you do have something to live for. you have me. ” “ you’ll always have me. ” “ i see you. i know you feel so invisible all the time, but you’re not. not to me. ” “ it’s okay to be angry, you’re allowed to be upset about what happened to you. ” “ don’t you realize you deserve more than this? ” “ you’re not a machine or— or some thing. you’re a person, and i’m sorry anyone ever made you feel otherwise. ” “ please, just hold on a little longer. i can’t lose you too. ” “ this scar..what happened? ” “ if you won’t do it for yourself, then do it for me. ” “ you’re bleeding— how long have you been hiding this?! ” “ sometimes i realize one day i could die, i could just disappear and the world would be none the wiser. there’d be no one to miss me and that terrifies me more than death itself. ”  “ i’m not sure i know who i’m supposed to be anymore. ” “ my mind is so loud and i’m afraid it’ll never be quiet again. ” “ when i’m in a crowd i just want to melt away and yet, when i’m alone it’s somehow worse. ” “ loneliness is a poison and i’ve been drinking it for so long, i don’t there there’s an anecdote to save my soul. ” “ i don’t care if the world knows my name, i just want you to remember me. ” “ you deserve more than i could ever give you. ” “ i love you. i know that’s not enough, but i do. ” “ you’re safe with me, you always will be. ” “ you make me feel safe. like i’m allowed to be anything i want. ” “ i’d do anything to be the person you love again. ” “ i’ve got you, you’re safe. ” “ just rest, i’m here. ” “ you can stay with me tonight. ”

rlly if it were up to cullen he and his significant other would always be walking the way teenagers do where he's just right behind them with his arms around their waist.

💙 / why not

IN A  moment, it happens, two hands reach for the same end, flinching in a single moment. eyes have no chance to meet before lips touch; softly, but in full union. it is a closeness and warmth he'd scarcely felt. a decent amount of time had passed since last he'd last engaged in such contact. even the reactions in his thoughts reflect the origins of a chantry puppet; inappropriate. distraction. before preceding the more rational thought of: maker's breath what have i done.

IT IS after a moment of mental disarray that senses snap back into him.

           "       I, UM, oh no." it comes mumbled.

           "        I AM so sorry, my lady."

Send to get a kiss from my muse!

Add 👀 to give my muse the kiss, instead.

Send ❤️ for a romantic kiss. Send 🖤 for a neck kiss Send 💚 for a familial kiss Send 💙 for an accidental kiss Send 💜 for a platonic kiss Send 💛 for hand kiss Send 💝 for a a kiss on the forehead  Send 💞 for a dip kiss Send 💓 for a cheek kiss Send 💟 for a kiss on a wound Send 💔 for a bite on the lip Send 💘 for a kiss goodbye Send 💗 for a good morning or goodnight kiss Send 💕for a deep, passionate kiss Send ❣️ for a kiss that conveys an emotion Send 💖 for an anniversary Send 😍 for a kiss in greeting Send 🤜 for a punch in the kisser Send 🍝 for a food-based kiss Send 💋 for a kiss of the receiver’s choice

it really makes me laugh to think about the ways cullen reacts to slight deviations in his plans esp in romantic interractions. trying to push his lover's hair behind their ear and accidentally poking them in the eye, or tugging at their hair, and just........ never able to live it down

anyways, i love cullen and do my best to be true to the development i’ve wanted for him even though his writers failed us and if your character ever wants to punch him right in the face i am here for you he needs the smoke

yes i would like to hop into the cullen discourse (under the cut for everyone’s comfort and convenience) 

ive been roleplaying cullen since before inquisition’s release, i’ve always been fascinated by the role that trauma plays in a person’s worldview, and exploring the role of personal responsibility we all have in overcoming the biases that are born from trauma. as a fan of cullen, his treatment in inquisition wasn’t only underwhelming, it was upsetting. i will never understand what went on in the writing room that allowed cullen to be denied his just desserts. maybe it was a matter of prioritizing fan service, but it’s really just tragic that the culmination of his character over the course of two games is ~uwu, should i take my lywium?~  i wish he would’ve been held accountable, rivaled, questioned. i wish that every withrdawal symptom drilled into his skull the ways in which he failed every person around him. reminded him of the twisted cruelty of the institution that he worshipped. that his insipid obligation, his pathological need for duty and purpose were all misplaced, and that mayebe.... he’s neither as good or as bad as he thinks he is.

switching over to @thedastian for some alistair shenanigans B)

thewardcn​:

At that, the queen couldn’t help but laugh. Morrigan? Finding safety here, in Halamshiral? She’s having fun here, Lily is sure of it. Danger to the Witch of the Wilds meant much more than a temperamental empress. It was also more than an archdemon, come to think of it.

     “Morrigan could not be more at home than she is here,” Ileanna glanced around at the garden. “If it were more of a bog, maybe. But her game is even more dangerous than Celene’s.” She shook her head, offering a real smile at Cullen’s idea of success. “But you and I both know that throwing soldiers at the Winter Palace would have ended up with a dead empress and a court full of demons.” And Celene was… trying for peace with Ferelden. Or at least, Alistair was. He would never let her see the end of it if Celene died this night.

     “And you have to admit, the wine is good.” She’d been drinking out of her canteen long enough to miss the taste of something good. Her particular brand of ritewine was sweet but it burned like hell down and back again. “And I have missed food that doesn’t taste like mushrooms and blight.” She thought her tastebuds had been destroyed, after so much time in the deep roads. “Actually,” She admit. “Between you and me, commander Cullen, it’s pretty nice to be topside again. And please,” she added. “It’s Lily, here. Ileanna, if that’s too informal for you.” He did seem to have a rod up his ass. Maybe she can get him to laugh.

WERE THE deep roads the home of some secret hero club of sorts? all great stories seem to be intrinsically tied to them. even so, cullen counts himself lucky to know them only by second hand accounts. across the board it is a clear and unwavering truth: fuck the deep roads. it is hard to imagine her there, bubbly and beautiful and bright, squatting in some crumbling hovel beneath the earth. perhaps sharing her meal with an oversized spider.

              "        WHAT? ARE there no petty ballroom antics in the deeproads? too few masquerades and mixers? how terribly the darkspawn have failed at common courtesy." he makes his best attempt at adopting a humorous tone, borrowing from varric a certain inflection.

              "        I CANNOT imagine the reason for you to be sequestered in such a place. accommodations could have been made at skyhold, were we aware. in truth, your expertise would have been most valued in adamant. surely, your reasons are your own, i - i don't mean to pry, your - lily."