Sorry, it will happen again.. :(

Got in a fight with my boyfriend and told him to fuck off so now he thinks what I needed was space when all I wanted was for him to comfort me but I can’t admit that because that makes me look weak. Frustrates me that he could comfort someone else but didn’t even think for a moment that might have been what I needed. I’m just left to deal with a trauma trigger on my own now.

Anyone know how to deal with losing an FP? I’m fucking exploding and don’t know what to do anymore.

I wish u the best throughout everything, as hard as it gets you can do it even if it’s days where you can’t imagine yourself going on I believe you and I can’t promise there will be better days but I will always wish for them to come to you

This is probably the nicest thing I’ve heard from someone I don’t know, thank you for that :( I am definitely trying and will keep trying as long as I can

I have no purpose anymore.

I have a brain disease that causes me to severely hate myself and is constantly trying to make me murder myself. Try fighting that shit all day every day. It's like having a psycho stalker you need a restraining order for, only it's yourself.

Splitting so violently that it’s making me physically ill. I feel as though if I don’t drastically self destruct then I am not going to survive.

Starting to become more and more content with being alone. I really don’t see the point in human connection anymore. If I didn’t have this dumb disorder that made me reliant on others I’d seriously be on my own forever.

Been in and out of episodes for the past 2 weeks I seriously can’t take this anymore someone end the misery

Having an FP is the worst pain anyone can ever experience. It’s having every fibre of your being and every last drop of your soul get poured into a person only to get fuck all back. No one will ever care about me as deeply as I care about them. It is truly the greatest pain in existence.

Every minor mistake I make just reminds me that I’m a failed attempt of a human and I shouldn’t be here at all.

I wish I had words to express the feelings I feel without threatening suicide. I wish I could fully explain exactly what I feel. I wish I could say something other than life is meaningless and I want to kill myself.

I’ll say things like “oh I’m just not in a good place mentally right now” like when have I ever been in a fucking good place mentally

i will forever be the hurting child, the angry teenager and the lonely adult.

Me when I jumped from incredibly euphoric to a suicidal breakdown within 20 minutes yesterday. BPD is fucking insane. Wish I could turn this shit off.

Got diagnosed with OCD so top of BPD. Fun times.