"Put yourself in my place for just one day Watch all the colors in your spectrum fade grey More aware than ever that I might never be calm again And it shakes every fucking bone Trying to do the right thing on my own So I let the ink tell you how I come to grips with all of this

I'm getting too old for this"

"They say home is where the heart is. So, where do you keep your bed? And if home is where the heart is, Then what do I do with this empty chest?"

“I think the thing is that I shut off from everything. From friends and family and my own ambitions. From having fun. I just shut off from everything.

Self-defeating? Yeah, probably. But I don’t know that I had total control over it. And I’m not sure it even matters why.

Sometimes things happen and you can’t do anything. Plus, I’m the only one who deals with it anyway. So, if everyone could do me a favor and just put their fingers down I’d -and keep your mouths-

Sorry. I know I seem angry. I’m not, I…I promise. I just know I did this to me. And I will deal with it accordingly.

And I don’t need opinions from those never a part of it. Don’t need them pointing out my problems, they’re mine. Don’t need reminders, I know better than anyone.”

I don't usually post things like this. I'm not the kind of person who discusses their issues on social media, but I came across this the other day and thought to myself "I don't think I've ever read anything more accurate in my life." And I wanted to let anyone battling anxiety and/or depression know that I understand. There's someone out there who genuinely understands. And I want you to know that you matter. Even if you don't believe it yet. You are not dispensable. You deserve to be happy and I truly hope that you will be one day. To those fortunate enough to have never had to experience what this is like, I hope you realize how lucky you are. Anxiety and depression consume you. They disable you from functioning like a normal person. Things that may come easy to you, do not come easy to us. As much as we want them to. So please be kind and please be patient. Thank you for your time.

Real Friends // I Don't Love You Anymore // Friday July 31, 2015 // Tricky Falls

Real Friends // Late Nights In My Car // Friday July 31, 2015 // Tricky Falls

"I've grown accustom to losing sleep. Sweep me off my feet, dig your nails into my wounds, and pull. A lucid dream, where my chest will collapse from the weight of a fictitious ghost." Counterparts // Burn // Friday July 31, 2015 // Tricky Falls

"I'm scratching at my skin to take my mind off the absence we've created. The lines blur together like the veins in my arms. And I wish I wasn't so alone. You're the difference between hell and home." Counterparts // Compass // Friday July 31, 2015 // Tricky Falls

“You are a broken heart tattoo I’ll have forever on my chest for a love that I have lost but never will forget.” 

I can't wait 😃

My sanctuary ❤️

"Well, I played with fire. I burned it all down. I've made more mistakes than you can count." Tigers Jaw // April 25, 2015 // Tricky Falls // El Paso, Texas (at Tricky Falls)