Me randomly in 2020 after going on a 'slight diet' to loose 'a bit' of weight, completly unaware of the impact it will have on me for next 4 years of my life

Afterschool classes that last since the hour you finish school to 8pm are actually a blessing when you wanna fast:yum:

Rice cakes are awesome. The ones I eat are 21,3 calories each and taste so good with greek yoghurt. They day stores will stop selling them is the day I die🥱🥱🥱

Sometimes I'd look in the mirror and go like 'Eh, it's not that bad' but then get a bit thinner on the second day and say shit like 'Ew, I'm so fat'

I tried to /gen eat a little more than I usually do just so I have some energy and won't faint. I was lowkey scared I will binge but I didn't finish anything atp. I took few bites then threw it away. And the thing is it's not even tasty anymore, I'm losing my apetite and interest in food I loved (Not sure if I'm happy or sad)

I have a hate-love relationship with food but without the love

How I be looking at people when they ask me if I'm okay (I've walked like 10kms today) (It's hot as hell) (I ran at least 1,5km) (I'm fasting) (I don't have energy for anything) (I'm dehydrated) (My everything hurts) (I'm gonna tell them I'm perfectly fine)

My dad bought me my favourite food but I can't eat it because it has so much grams of fat and calories. When I told him I can't eat it because I'm on a diet he was like 'Oh, that's a shame. I got these especially for you, cuz I know they're your favs' Imma cry

Mood atm (I have to eat breakfast tomorrow because I have VERYYY important exams on 14th, 15th and 16th and I don't wanna fail cuz my dumbass can't focus at all)

Why does eating 500kcal feels like a binge</3

Recently (on 10th May) my granmother had birthday. She had a cake (not too big one, like medium sized) and it looked actually so good and neat, it was with (I assume?) strawberry jelly, strawberries and so much good shit but I was fasting. Maybe the taste was good but the feeling of drinking green tea while others ate cake and drank coffee with milk and sugar was better for sure ! ! !