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are you ever going to update?
hi anon. i'm sorry for taking years to answer this. i'm answering this for closure, for myself and anyone still around who follows or remembers me.
i first started writing RI (and all other fic) when i was in my last year of high school. fandom, and tvd in particular, was my escape, creative outlet and coping mechanism with a life i was not terribly happy with. i was so, so passionate about this universe and i loved this ship so much. i think it shows in all the care and patience i have nurtured my writing with.
however, i always promised myself that i would try to change once i got to college. it was going to be my fresh start. i would start living my real life instead of living through characters from worlds that weren't real. and that included removing myself from fandom when the time came.
and i did it. it was not easy and there were days i didnt think i would ever feel a single good thing again but i never gave up. i discovered myself. who i was, what i cared about, what i value. i made the best friends i could ever ask for, after only ever knowing ones who chipped away at my self worth. i looked in the mirror and felt beautiful, after years of wishing i was. i kissed boys and got my heart broken and i did it again. after spending nights crying myself to sleep, nearly failing two classes, i achieved things academically and professionally i never thought i could. the life i live right now is a life i never thought i could actually have.
reading my stories back, i feel so much love for this universe i had immersed myself in. for my 17 year old self, who so fiercely loved everything except herself. i see my hopes and dreams and fears between the lines in my writing. i didn't realize it until i re-read my first fic just now, but i first started writing on new years eve 2016. on new years day 2022, i almost feel like a different person who has stepped through a time portal and is face to face with her past self. it is bittersweet and beautiful and nostalgic and a reminder to myself to never give up hope.
and if you are reading this, dear friend, i hope the last few years have been kind to you too. i hope you look back on this stage as fondly as i do. i know i will never meet any of you, but for a brief moment in time we were brought together by our love for these two characters and their love. i hope each and every person who ever belonged to our little fandom is happy and healthy and safe.
i'm sorry i never finished the story, but the girl who wrote it grew up into someone who could never finish it and do it justice. you know the ending anyway. they lived happily ever after.
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fanfiction culture is when you donât wanna tell people you write fanfic but you do want to talk about writing, so you just say, âoh yeah, sometimes I write little short stories here and there!â
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Look at what you are. Look at it. Look at your anger; why are you angry? Look at your jealousy; why are you jealous? Look at your envy; why are you envious? Look at your insecurities and understand why. Look at your judgments; why do you judge? Look at your unmercy; why arenât you merciful? And look at your laughter; where is it?
RAMTHA: A Beginnerâs Guide to Creating Reality
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âAgamemnon,â Aeschylus (translated by Anne Carson)
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every conflict in fake dating fics is like âwe literally kissed in front of my whole family today but you wonât face me while weâre both sleeping in my bed because thatâs just too personal i guessâ
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Anyone: /reblogs my art or writing
Me: /fucking RUSHES OVER TO SEE IF ANYTHING IS IN THE TAGS
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authorâs note on fanfic ch4: iâll probably have it updated by the end of this week!
authorâs note on fanfic ch5: so i know itâs been two years but i can explain
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When will you update revenge interrupted ??
This year!
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Angsty Romantic Cliches Iâm a Slut ForÂ
Holding their partnerâs unconscious/dead body
Sobbing into their partnerâs shoulder/chest
One of them is hurt and the other falls asleep in their hospital room
The other losing their mind when their partner is hurt/killed and charging into battle recklessly
âI thought I lost youâ hugs
âDonât go where I canât follow!âÂ
One is mind controlled and forced to fight the other
The other refusing to harm them and getting seriously injured as consequenceÂ
The person coming to and seeing what theyâve done
I could go on about this trope alone for 5 hours
A last desperate âI love you!âÂ
A tearful, hard kiss before battle, bonus points if its a confessional kiss
âPlease, I donât know what Iâd do without you.âÂ
Bandaging each otherâs wounds
Both of them injured, and waking up beside each other
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Set of holographic stickers dedicated to The Holy Trinity.
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when you like a bad show and start to think about how to improve it
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If you donât write paragraphs on paragraphs on shit absolutely nobody but you and maybe 2 other people give a shit about you are not living your most authentic life
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 Fan fic readers when they want a part two:
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I often wonder what happened to authors of unfinished fanfictions.
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I was reading my writing today, and let me tell you, it may not be good, plot is not the best, and characters are a bit stereotypical, but boy do I have fun writing it
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