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nekoarcdesu Ā· 7 days
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Do y'all ever think about corruption?
Not about how Chuuya leaves his life in Dazai's hands, I don't think Chuuya cares much if he lives on any given day, he leave more than his life to Dazai when he uses corruption
I mean about Chuuya, who so wants to be human gives up control over his own body the singularity it was changed and designed to hold. The singularity that's reason he was taken from his parents and experimented on, so he could be used as a weapon. The way he lets himself be used now
Letting go of his ability, the thing he spent the amount of his life he can remember, trying to control and understand. Putting everyone nearby in danger, including his subordinates, his friends and his city that he wants to protect. The city he gave up knowing if he was human or not for, the same city he puts at risk every time he uses corruption.
He leaves all of that, all of him up to his partner. And he's always woken up when it's done.
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 2 months
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I am literally so close to finishing the goddamn novel- *I will finish it this year*
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 2 months
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Absolutely incredible ā€¼ļø Thank you for this feast, I desperately needed someone to talk about the underlying dynamics of Akutagawa and Dazai. These relationships are so interesting when you look closer and it makes me sad that people donā€™t ):
Dark Era: Dazai and Akutagawa
The Scene in Dark Era where Dazai shoots Akutagawa was abusive and messed up, but sadly justified on Dazai's end.
Now this may sound harsh but let's take a step back from the emotions the scene causes and look at it purely logical and analytical. (No I am not excusing the abuse Akutagawa went through. Dazai had no right to abuse him but this scene is more than abuse.)
What happens in this scene?
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Per Dazai's orders as an Executive within the Port Mafia agents from Mimic were captured to be taken to Kouyou for interrogation, as is her department. Akutagawa then kills the hostages in retaliation for the casualties the Mafia suffered at the hands of Mimic. Dazai proceeds to punch and shoot Akutagawa.
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In essence this is what happened: Akutagawa disregarded direct orders of his executive in front of multiple people and said executive. Plain and simple, this is insubordination.
We know, due to Stormbringer, that insubordination of the Boss and his executives (who essentially work as extensions of the Boss within the BSD Mafia) is a death sentence. It's at the same level as betrayal.
So, while messed up and abusive, Dazai's reaction can be classified as a mercy. Had it been another executive or Mori, Akutagawa would be dead. And no, you can not use that Chuuya cares for Akutagawa as an argument against Akutagawa dying here were it Chuuya. Chuuya's loyality is to the Mafia and Mori in a situation like this. We saw this at the end of the Guild Arc when Chuuya asked Mori what punishment Akutagawa should face for disregarding Mafia orders and going on to the Moby Dick. Since the moment in Dark Era is a similar case, it is safe to assume Chuuya would have asked Mori for the punishment and then delivered it.
Now here comes the much more interesting part about this scene I sadly do not see talked about. (If you find posts talking about it please send them my way!)
This scene shows us, in a very subtle way, how the dynamic between Akutagawa and Dazai works.
But how? Let's count it: - Akutagawa is very self assured in his insubordination. - Dazai gives him a chance to speak up about his reasoning, to defend himself and ask for forgiveness for his blatant insubordination. - Akutagawa in turn arrogantly doubles down on his decision. - Dazai punishes him.
While Dazai framed the moment at the end as a teaching moment with his comment about Akutagawas use of Rashomon, it is mostly a punishment. Yes there are 2 moments that can be seen as a teaching moment but what Dazai does is in fact nothing more than a punishment in his eyes.
(Giving Akutagawa the chance to think about his rash action was the first teaching moment btw)
Now the way the scene is handeled with it's framing tells us something interesting about the relationship between Dazai and Akutagawa.
Dazai actively favours Akutagawa with his treatment.
But how? It's a good question because the answer is very much hidden.
Both characters treat the situation as something usual. This in turn tells us that Akutagawa often commits insubordination against Dazai. And only Dazai, since Dazai takes him under his wing as his direct and only student. (This is made clear in the short where he actually recruits a younger Akutagawa) This means that Dazai does favour his student above other subordinates rather openly. We know he would not let this slide with other people under his command. The scene at the beginning of the Dark Era LN with Hirotsu shows this.
Akutagawa's reaction to being shot also tells us that this is the first time Dazai points a weapon at him. While not expecting, but accepting, the punch he did not expect to face a harsher punishment than this.
He is visibly surprised. But not just him.
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In the Anime adaption (which is the best LN adaption in BSD) we see that even the other subordinates around them only become surprised when Dazai draws the gun and shoots Akutagawa.
Did Dazai think Akutagawa would survive being shot at? 100% yes. He even says as much after the fact.
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(This is actually what makes teaching moment number 2, since he remarks that Akutagawa "finally" managed to protect himself with Rashomon. This tells us that they were actively training this and Akutagawa was failing at it for some time already.)
In short: - Akutagawa feels very much secure in his position at Dazai's side, despite the regular abuse. - Dazai favours Akutagawa openly enough within the PM that other subordinates are surprised when Akutagawa faces an openly harsh punishment. - Akutagawa, in committing insubordination, regulary disrespects Dazai as his superior and Dazai let's it slide. This is something that mirrors the relationship between Dazai and Mori, as Dazai does disrespect Mori in private and Mori let's this slide. (The biggest difference in this relationship mirror is that Dazai never disrespects Mori in front of other people.)
In my eyes (and I hope we learn more soon) this also shows that Dazai's abuse of Akutagawa has multiple reasons. - Dazai sees himself in Akutagawa. Dazai also hates himself and blames himself for shortcomings so he projects this onto Akutagawa, who he then abuses because of it. - A warped sense of care. In his own, very fucked up, way Dazai does care for Akutagawa. Is he good at showing it? Absolutely not. He wants Akutagawa to be stronger than Dazai himself is, he wants him to be better. So he favors him but also abuses him. - He favors Akutagawa so Akutagawa needs to get strong extremely fast to avoid a conflict within the ranks of the Mafia. - Dazai tries to get Akutagawa as strong as possible as fast as possible since Akutagawa effectively went from joining to third highest rank in 10 seconds and needs to prove himself in front of everyone else, not just Dazai's eyes. In this he ends up abusing Dazai because he himself is a child with a very limited understanding of teaching. What he does know, through Mori as his teacher, is that cruelty and abuse are effective teaching methods that work faster than proving patience and taking things slow.
(am I saying that Mori physically abused Dazai? No. But he, as shown in Beast and Fifteen, honestly answers to the questions his students ask him. It is entirely possible that he simply told Dazai different teaching methods and Dazai decided on the fastest one instead of the best and most effective.)
To summarize: The scene is a punishment for direct insubordination and shows us, the viewer, a deeper look into the relationship between Akutagawa and Dazai.
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 3 months
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Definitely choices
But I knew that mf was jesus
spoilers for the new chapter
yeah ok Asagiri sure is making choices here. Choices that I personally donā€™t understand.
but. I do wanna see what will happen to a bunch of ships in this fandom given the current age gap reveal
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 3 months
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And what a ginger dog it is
Just a boy looking at his dog
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 4 months
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I actually hate this game sm, like, why are the drop rates so bad whenever you want a character????
bsd mayoi posting again
why would you give me three of the same card when you coulda given me three brand new ssrs. this is much more disappointing than getting only 1 ssr.
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 4 months
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Wara by Krzysztof Powałka ā€  Iā€™m Your Man by Mitski ā€  The Aggression Sessions by Eliran Kantor
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 4 months
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Can u give me some examples of chuuya and Dazai like, helping make each other better?
Glad you asked this question, anon!
Some examples include the scene in fifteen where Dazai goes from the beginning of fifteen, being all apathetic and not cryng about life. Mori trying hard to motivate him, to suddenly wanting live after meeting chuuya. Quite literally saying: "chuuya convinced me to live" and along with here, saying that he's got a new dog so he has to live now.
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The gun shooting scene also served helpful for Dazai, he was spiraling and Chuuya, a gangster knocked the gun out of his hand saying "you shouldn't be shooting dead bodies". For a member of a gang to say this, it served as very contridcting to dazai but revealed more about chuuya's character and how what he did was (shooting the dead body) was wrong.
Another example includes in stormbringer, when chuuya is hallicunating dazai and the flags when he's tortured. The hallucination of dazai motivates him to not give up (bc he claims he isn't like him) and pushes him through the experience.
From Dazai's side in stormbringer, his capability to change that has always been there prior to oda is shown when he gives Chuuya a choice. This is a big deal which I see the fandom ignore a lot, but Dazai at this point struggled immensely with empathy, so for him to put himself in Chuuya's shows and give him a choice with the entire city was at risk showed how much he cared about chuuya's feelings, thinking about his humanity before the entire city.
Another instance includes the scene in which Mori says that he would die with Chuuya with the Guivre situation in stormbringer. Dazai goes from being okay with dying/apathetic about the situation to suddenly caring with the idea of dying with Chuuya is brought up. Chuuya constantly is seen to motivate and push Dazai to do things in the mafia at the time.
The Dragon Head Conflict in Dead Apple is a major example. Chuuya once again pushes him to get involved in major conflicts, Dazai is louching around not wanting to get involved until Chuuya says something to him about the situation.
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Dazai is acting inhumane by disrespecting someone who died and in anger chuuya punches his face. dazai says "i'm human too" and chuuya says "no one would believe that shit" people misinterpet this scene badly as dehumanization but it's not. it's basically Chuuya giving Dazai a reality check and telling him to stop acting inhumane since he knows he is a human and is capable of acting humane. Stormbringer shows this, he sees dazai giving him a choice, him acting human. So since this is after that, it's basically him telling him no one will believe you're human if you act like this, so start acting like you're a human. Because of Chuuya's words, it motivates him to stop a turf war because of how mad he is.
In mayoi this is seen, with him telling Shibusawa how he was wrong for killing the colonel.
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This exchange also shows the extent of their partnership, how despite the words Chuuya says to Dazai prior, he just knows him; by the mention of the microscope earlier he's able to decipher the intention of dazai. Their reading of each other can be shown to be "making each other better" as their trust in e/o as kids raised an abusive enviorment is definetaly interesting.
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Chuuya is actively seen steering him to be motivated him who once lacked a clear meaning of life itself was.
-A (hi guys i'm back)
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 4 months
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Please take good care of them!
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 5 months
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DAZAI SHEEP AU GRAAHHH
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Basically... It's an au i made up from my head about The sheep picking up Dazai when he was 12 yrs old (Which, of course, changed how he acts around others and stuff) he was mostly close with Chuuya.
But when things got a bit too dark for him when he was 14, he tried to commit suicide, which lead to Mori taking him away from the Sheep.
Chuuya thinks that he failed Dazai (the sheep and Chuuya thinks he's dead) so he tried to be a more serious in his leader role, so he's exhausted all the time.
When 15 happened, Chuuya was determined to get Dazai back in the Sheep and away from the PM
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 5 months
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Both the real life Osamu Dazai and Fyodor Dostoevsky drew.
Fyodor Dostoevsky was known to sketch in his manuscripts. Osamu Dazai painted with oils and was very interested in fine arts. Fun fact the main character in No Longer Human also wanted to go to art school and become an artist. There's actually a lot of mention of yozo liking making art in no longer human.
So of course i had to draw their twink versions painting together. <3
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 5 months
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Fine wine oml
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like wine.
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 5 months
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Is it just me or is chuuglyā€™s account not accessible?
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 5 months
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Just my cat letting you know that you are so very loved! She is very proud of you <3!
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 5 months
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I thought I may as well share some of my recent digital art because I totally didnā€™t lose my stylus and my ability to draw with the medium-
Any tips are always appreciated
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nekoarcdesu Ā· 5 months
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If I had the time I would totally rewrite bsd from Dazaiā€™s perspective, I have no idea why heā€™s mischaracterised so often, and I donā€™t mean to hate on anyone but omg in my mind some of the things Iā€™ve heard are so horrendously wrong I want to scream.
Maybe Iā€™m the one mischaracterising him but I think Iā€™ve spent way too long reading his base material and all the bungo things to do with him.
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