it's crazy how the more years pass I impossibly somehow keep finding more and more beautiful things about my relationship with my best friend. i just keep finding new layers to how magical it is and how lucky i am to have her. like how we grew up together and influenced everything about each other so much and how we both tried so hard to become better people for each other. and how we both ARE better people because of each other. there's no one single person who helped me improve as much and I'm pretty sure it's the same for her. we can read each other better than anyone can, better than we can understand our own needs sometimes. I caught onto the fact that she wasn't fine before anyone else did and it used to frustrate me so much that no one else could see but what I didn't realize was that she was the only one who realized I was a danger to myself too. even when I myself didn't. and when I was convinced nothing and nobody could get through to me, she figured out how to. even if it was painful as fuck. we both did everything to make sure the other person got better, even when it almost cost us our friendship. I genuinely thought she was out of my life for so long, but hey, we did it. we still have each other and are much better for it. she saved me. and I'll never stop being grateful for the fact that I have her in my life I'll never take it for granted I love her so much it hurts sometimes but it's so worth it. we taught each other how to have healthy, meaningful relationships and man we caused each other so much grief but it was all for the better. I love who I am because of her. I wouldn't be myself without her. she's probably the single biggest influence on the person I am today and god I love her so much

Remember the five minutes in Oleander Sword where everything was fine, and then nothing devastating ever happened to these characters 🙃

sometimes siblings fight over their diametrically opposed theories of change

FINALLY finished one of my dozen drafts for The Jasmine Throne and yes it was while rewatching legend of korra on a bus

priya in the oleander sword ✨🌿

unleashing all the Jasmine Throne drawings that have sat 95% finished for months

really humbling to come back to my roots in posting on this blog and making zero note flop post after zero note flop post years after switching to main and being corrupted by fame. like no hell yeah this is what tumblr is supposed to be about. THIS is the crusty old pseudoblogging I fell in love with in high school <3

chronic physical illness x chronic mental illness codependent gfs <3

i care them

a commission I had the pleasure of doing for my friend and their partner <3 my new year's resolution is to commit to drawing backgrounds even if they terrify me

commissions | print store ✩

me: omg i should add lose to ashra's playlist it's so them

ashra's playlist:

it's missing ashi and hira hours

I’m bored and nosy. Please reblog this with the book you’re currently reading.

I love the fwb trope but I legit find smut itself soooooooo boring so I keep doing this thing where I'll pull up a fwb fic and skip 70% of it because it's smut like CAN'T YOU JUST FADE TO BLACK RIP

do you ever talk to your best friend for twenty minutes and remember everything you love about life

started crying in the middle of class because for SOME reason i thought it was a good idea to read a book i knew would remind me of my grandfather while my prof is droning on about hashing in class. literally fuck me

The Fallen Angel of Babel 📜✒️🪽

LOVE BABEL BY RF KUANG!! I drew Robin Swift as the fallen angel painting!!