mmm me making nat an oathbreaker pally durge.....
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On top of everything else I broke out in hives this morning 🫠
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me watching mean girls bc renee even tho regina and nat could not be less alike? you bet LOL
in other news i am really vibing with it bc its actually feeling like the stage musical put on the screen and i love that
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one day i'm gonna be able to sit up long enough to write replies and it's all over for all of you i have so much nat muse
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Made a wire come bother us uwu
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Cannibalism as a metaphor for love sure has me in a chokehold rn huh
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natalie in every episode: 1x09
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one of the elements of nat that i find so fascinating is that she is first and foremost a team player. we see it with the allie debate. we see it in her picking up the gun (despite her traumas). yes she shoots because of trav but she also knows she's the best shot in the group. we see it in her continuing to do her hunting thing despite not buying into anything that lottie is doing. and eventually we see it in her taking up the mantle because she knows its what's best for the team.
natalie is not meant as the individual. when i say that i mean that she THRIVES in a group. but by herself? that's where her burnout comes in. if she had been able to get scouted at nationals and go on to play soccer somewhere, her trajectory would have been at least slightly different. she would have gotten out of jersey, let go of being a yellowjacket, etc.
instead she came back from the wilderness and had just herself to depend on. so.... she lost the battle.
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i can feel it. . . the come down that makes it all fucking suck. we haven't taken a hit since we started driving because patrick "needs to keep his wits when he's driving" as if he hasn't driven us coked out before. he's such a dick: convincing me to get in the car for a four hour drive to WHEREEVERSVILLE, USA for another tournament he's going to lose ( but gods forbid i remind him that maybe if he actually put hours in at the court he'd do better in the games he actually plays ) and not letting me take a hit off the dash.
as i roll my neck, each of the bones cracks in time before finally i land my glazed over eyes on him. patrick fucking zweig. why the fuck am i in this car if i'm not having a good time? isn't that what we're supposed to be? if i didn't want to feel good i'd call paul's sober ass. or finally reach out to lottie. or answer tai's phone calls. or -- or -- or --
" pull the car over. " the words are out of my lips before my brain can catch up. not for the first time the thought of would he really listen to my impulses? lingers in the back of my mind. " patrick -- pull the fucking car over. " i'm already reaching behind me, grabbing for the backpack that contains everything i took with me the night i slipped out of paul's bed. maybe i want this, maybe i don't, but the words are out so now the ball is in patrick's court.
literally.
˚ ᵗʰᵉ ʳᵘˡᵉˢ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰᵉ ᵍᵃᵐᵉ ˢᵗᵃᵗᵉˢ : " 𝚒 𝚍𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚑𝚢 𝚠𝚎 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚏𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐, "
[ ... ] 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄'𝐒 𝐀𝐍 𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓 to relationships ( or, whatever the fuck this is ), and all the toxicity of tying himself to URL, that he hasn't quite mastered. he knows that makes @natal7e tick, and how to fan the fuel of her fire, but not quite how to extinguish the flames. there's a gap between them that will always go unmentioned, of a past hiding behind her that he can never quite poke and prod at. far too heavy, holding a mysticism that he's not even close to being mature enough to handle. they'll always be just that : almost what the other needs, but never quite enough. " i don't know, nat ... you tell me. it's fucking tiring being the villain of your life all the time. give me a break, yeah ? " worst part of all of this : it was probably his fault, too. but when both of them have wilingly tied blindfolds around each other's eyes, and agreed that they will only talk about the stuff that don't matter ... reality's sharp hit stings eternal. " ... you think i like fighting with you ? i'm fucking tired too, "
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I still have zero brain space bc of my ankle but I’m also still always around!!
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God my mental health is in the garbage right now.
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Made a wire come bother us uwu
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𝙋𝙪𝙧𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙚. 𝙁𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙖 𝙥𝙪𝙧𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙚. 𝙄 𝙪𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙧𝙪𝙜𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙙𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜, 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨е𝙭, 𝙄 𝙪𝙨𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙠 𝙄 𝙙𝙞𝙙 𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙨𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙗𝙚𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚. 𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙄 𝙨𝙖𝙬. 𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙄 𝙙𝙞𝙙. 𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙡 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙤𝙣 𝙞𝙨 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙨𝙞𝙢𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙧. 𝘼𝙛𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙘𝙪𝙚𝙙 𝙪𝙨, 𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙢𝙮 𝙥𝙪𝙧𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙚.
studying the themes of: leadership in hard times, shared trauma, best of the worst, drink the pain away, eat your young, supernatural psychosis, trauma love, bringing the darkness back, forever seventeen but never seventeen, star athlete, survival above all else, i'm worse, the wilderness chose, live by your guilt and die with it, all for one and one for none, the emperor, bloody queen
private, mutually exclusive rp blog for natalie scatorccio of showtime's yellowjackets. triggering topics heavily present including but not limited to ritual cannibalism and addiction. MDNI. sacrificed by bee ( she/her, thirty two )
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hi yall -- im still deeply around i just also am healing from ankle surgery and cant do much right now so feel free to hit me up on disco or now wire for gentle things <3
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Made a wire come bother us uwu
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