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milkxmintsthetic · 4 years

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𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒐𝒚, 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒅 𝒉𝒊𝒍𝒍.

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"Hey! The sun has gone down!" The young boy shouted out across the closed wooden door. In less than a minute, rapid shuffling can be heard and the door slammed open. Behind revealed a girl who seemed about the same age with hopeful, glimmering eyes. Upon making eye contact, a wide grin appeared on both their faces simultaneously.

Something was up. Turning on their heels, they dashed off not too far into the distance, to the top of a hill. This was a normal occurrence for them. They would then pant for a few minutes after using most of their energy sprinting to the location. Next, they would lay down next to each other, feeling the grass softly poke on their skin. Looking up at the dark sky, small stars started to come into sight once they deliberately searched for them with much concentration and patience.

"Can we stay like this forever?"

"Of course we can," the young boy hummed, giving both parties a faint hope that this peaceful life of theirs would last. "We'll do this every single day, nothing will change," his words seemed to provide great reassurance as the rest of the night passed by in silence. They lied there, appreciating each other's company. Time always seemed to pass by quicker than they would prefer when they were with each other. Gradually, they gave in to the sweet temptation of slipping into a deep slumber as countless, tiny stars watched over them from a distance.

Little did they know, things were going to change once they grew up. Or perhaps they knew but they would hate to admit it. Perhaps they wanted to believe that things would go their way if they tried harder. Still, their faith and efforts were no match for the work of fate. They had different experiences and each had different tasks to complete. There was no longer any time for them to spend together and just like that, they drifted apart. They lost contact with each other. The boy no longer went to her house to look for her, the girl no longer sat by the doorstep every day, waiting for him to show up.

They lived each day monotonously, like a habit. Although once in a blue moon, one would be reminded of the other and the corner of their lips would turn up as they reminisced about those moments spent together. That pure friendship was nothing but a longing now.

Melancholy filled them as they wondered, 'Why did I let go of that so easily, so naturally?' With the life that they had so far, they were completely convinced that there was no longer a chance for them to find true friendship in the future.

They felt trapped in this world. Surrounded by people yet feeling like the only one on this earth. Nobody truly understood them no matter how hard they tried to get their voices heard. Before they even realised, they had already given up and became content with merely blending in with the crowd. No more did they try to accomplish their dreams, no more did they try to be uniquely them.

Today was another day of them thinking about how they were just another being on the planet. They were not special. They do their best and constantly lie to themselves, about how they are important, just like every other human. Despite that, beneath this facade, they were aware of how little impact they had, the importance they carried. It was close to nothing.

"I wonder how he's doing? Does he even remember me?"

"I wonder if she's handling life well? Maybe she's excelling at it, unlike me," Their thoughts clashed on this fateful day. Thinking back to their friend that they couldn't put a face on, they wondered if life was treating the other person better.

A spark ignited in them. A kind of pull that they couldn't explain. Acting on the sudden urge, they made their way to the hills of their childhood. Subconsciously, they hoped that going back there would provide them the warmth and comfort they longed for.

Just how steep was this hill? Climbing up there was now a struggle for both. They couldn't believe that they used to be able to sprint up there every day, as if it was a casual activity. After an excruciatingly long hour of taking breaks and making their way up, at last, they have reached the top.

"Reina?" The girl whipped her head back, startled to hear a male voice. Why is someone here? And more importantly, how did he know her name?

The boy had his hands on his knees, slightly panting. What in the world was he thinking, calling out to a random girl that he didn't even know if she was the one he's looking for. He mentally cursed himself but seeing how the girl responded to him, he held onto the faint hope remaining.

Minutes passed and the deafening silence persisted. What were the both of them thinking? How could she recognise who he was? She didn't even remember his name! It was as if they were having a staring contest, both parties eyes' never left the other's.

The longer her eyes lingered on his face, bits and pieces of her memory started to become less hazy. The boy's beautiful eye colour was something that has been etched deep into her mind, she was certain that if she were to see it again, she would definitely recognise it in an instant. It's a shame that it was too dark for her to see it clearly.

Memories of gazing up at the night sky replayed in her mind repeatedly. She remembered asking many naive questions yet when she asked him, she really meant them. She believed in him.

"A-"

"Adrian," It was him. The faceless boy in her memories. At long last, they have reunited. Placing her palms on the grass beneath her, she pushed herself up onto her feet and dashed towards him.

Coming face to face with each other, nostalgia overwhelmed them, causing their face to wear a bittersweet smile. All the words that they wanted to spit it out right then and there were somehow stuck in the back of their throats.

The wind blew passed them. The trees shook, their hair fluttered and the sudden coldness caused the hair on their skin to stand up. Courage washed over them It seemed like the perfect moment for a cinematic cliché.

"I missed you,"

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♡ 02.07.20 ♡

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milkxmintsthetic · 4 years

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Even when I knew there was no hope, I kept on chasing. I kept lying to myself and maybe, those lies would slowly turn to truth if I tried long enough. I disregarded the voice inside of me saying how foolish I was to keep trying even when you had no interest. When you slowly stopped responding, I wonder where it all went wrong. I wonder what was it that I did.

I thought for so long. Minutes, hours, days, months. I finally realised you just didn't care. You have never cared from the start and I was unable to see that. Or maybe I was able to but I kept trying to ignore the fact that was placed in front of me. Maybe I liked the fantasy in my head more than the reality.

The most selfish thing I ever did was falling in love with the image of you inside my head instead of the real you. You have told me how you were from the start yet I kept convincing myself that you were much better. When I finally couldn't keep lying to myself and helping you make up excuses for your actions, it was already too late. All your imperfections gave me immense pain but I knew you didn't care.

You were my source of happiness and sadness. The amount of joy I get from talking to you can never be replaced by anyone else but the amount of pain I get from knowing you is immeasurable. You were everything to me but I was nothing to you.

Sometimes I wish I never knew you but I know that if I had the choice to start everything again, I would still choose to have met you. With you, I experienced a whole new world. Even if it was all inside my head, it was so intoxicating I wouldn't choose anything over it.

You saw everyone else except for me. You saw everyone else except for you. Every day, I broke my own heart for you but you never saw it. Every day, I said I would move on but it was all in vain. In the end, I'm trapped inside the beautiful yet toxic world I've created of you and me.

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♡ 28.06.20 ♡

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milkxmintsthetic · 4 years

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Life is weird. One day, I wish it would continue forever. On another day, I wish it ended right then and there. Sometimes, I felt like everyone supported me, everyone wanted to see me succeed. Other times, I felt like the whole world was against me. They were waiting for me to fail, they were waiting to see the day I just fall to the ground and say "I give up,"

Life is full of ups and downs. I feel like I'm living the best of my life when I'm doing something I enjoy, when I'm discovering new possibilities and when I'm around you. I feel like I'm living through the torturous part of my life when I don't have the energy to do the simplest tasks, when all I can do is cry and when I think of nothing but the darkest thoughts.

Life is full of opportunities, whether I choose to pursue it all watch it go by, it's all my choice. Sometimes, I do my best, I take a risk and go after you when the chance is there. Sometimes, I take a step back and see you walk past me even though all I wanted to do was to call out to you.

Life is full of unexpected encounters. When I was living my normal every day life, you suddenly showed up and changed my world. Sometimes, you made it full of blooming flowers yet sometimes, you turned it upside down. My world was all in the clutch of your hands. When I wanted to meet you, when I searched desperately for you, you never showed up. When I gave up on pursuing you, you appeared again, like nothing ever happened and everything seemed to be in my head.

Life is weird like that but it's you who makes me want to love life and live it to the fullest.

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♡ 12.06.20 ♡

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milkxmintsthetic · 4 years

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In the midst of loving you, I wonder where it all went wrong. Was it something that I did? Why did you suddenly go without saying anything? Was there something I could have done to fix it? Should I have tried harder?

I tried my best. I kept on chasing after you, trying to fix any problems that we had. Nothing I said went through to you and after countless attempts, I finally realised. Finally realised how you didn't want to put in anymore effort. Finally realised that nothing else I did would have made a difference.

No matter how desperately I ran, I would never be able to catch up if you choose to turn your head and walk away from me.

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♡ 09.06.20 ♡

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milkxmintsthetic · 4 years

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My love for you is like the sun hanging in the sky, a burning passion. Everytime you look for me, I will be there, just like when you look up at the sky, the sun will be there.

While we know being in the sun is good for us, we sometimes avoid it because of its hotness. Similarly, you may shy away from my love because of its intensity. In spite of that, it will still be there, ready to once again, shine down on you when you're ready to take a step out.

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My love for you is like the clouds, providing you shade from the scorching sun that occasionally feels like it will burn you. It is also volatile, just like how the sky and the clouds can turn grey and gloomy.

My love is not always perfect, it will have its share of ups and downs . Still, just like the sky, it will, without a doubt, clear up one day.

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My love for you is like a star. What you see is a seemingly insignificant white speck in the dark, silent night. Unless you pay attention or deliberately search for it, you may never see it.

In reality, it is shining brightly in its own way, and it is larger than you could ever imagine. No matter what, like the star, my love will always be there, far away from you, silently hoping that maybe one day you would appreciate it, or even just notice it.

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My love for you is like a cup of coffee and tea. It comes in many forms. Your taste may change on some days but I was able to alter it to your liking, how much sugar I should add, how much milk I should pour in, the overall flavour.

The first time you tasted it, it was an otherworldly experience that you could not get enough of. One cup lead to the next, and the next, until it unconsciously became a daily habit. It has become so normal to you that you started to lose your appreciation for it. You consumed it without thinking. You started taking my love for granted yet I never complained.

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My love for you is like a piece of candy. Whenever you are feeling down and crave comfort, it will be there to remind you that there is still hope in a situation full of pain and darkness. You may only bring a small portion of it with you but I'm still grateful that it occasionally pops into your mind.

You only acknowledge its presence in times of difficulties, when no one is there for you. It's painful that I'm your last choice but nevertheless, it's better than not even being a choice.

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My love for you is like a random thought. There is no reason why it exists, but it does. It comes unexpectedly and you will spend some time on it, be it only a second, or countless, sleepless nights.

Sometimes, you may wish it didn't exist at all. Regardless of whether you like it, it is undeniable that it plays a part in shaping you into the person that you are today.

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My love for you is like a burning torch, it burns just for you. One day, it may die out but as long as it's still alive, it will willingly sacrifice itself for your sake. It may not be the only torch in your life but at least it was able to support you through a period of your life.

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You are my hope, my daydream, my escape from reality. You push me to do my best, to become a better version of myself. You are what motivates me. Before I even realised, you have become my addiction. You were the only thing I was constantly searching for. Without you, I feel lost.

In your eyes, my love may mean nothing. In my eyes, your love is an unattainable treasure that I can only wish to experience. To you, I may just be a passerby in your life but to me, you are my whole universe.

It doesn't matter whatever the ending of this love story may be. Because of you, I found purpose in my life. For this reason, my heart will continue to beat for you, and only you.

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♡ 07.06.20 ♡

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