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Neglected Memories

(A/N- I’ve been wanting to write this for a while now so here it is. Also special thanks to @banananutmuffin28 for helping me out with this)

RL! Bela Dimitrescu x GN! Reader

(Warning: Angst with comfort, swearing, the Dimitrescu sisters are 2 years apart in this)

Now playing: “Family Line” by Conan Gray

Bela Dimitrescu has always been hardworking, intelligent, diligent, and so much more. She always appears as if nothing fazes her mentally and that she’s perfectly okay. Though unbeknownst to everyone else, deep down she’s hurting and struggling with the heavy burdens of her past each and every day.

It was a normal day for Bela; doing student council duties, studying for any upcoming exams in her classes, and, of course, talking to you. Though the day went by in seconds, Bela still had a lot of paperwork to do for the student council, and so she decided to bring it to her room and do it there. Of course it’s not like she minded at all since this was a normal occurrence, she is the resident workaholic for a reason.

But tonight, while she was working at her desk, her mind cruelly decided to play with her. To torment her. To make her remember and relive those memories.

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“Mother mother! Look at what I drew for you!” A young Bela says with great enthusiasm, so excited to show her mother her creation.

Alcina, holding a very small Cassandra in her arms, gives Bela’s drawing a small glance. “That’s nice Bela.” She says, her voice just above a whisper before turning her attention back towards the almost fully asleep Cassandra.

“That’s it? You didn’t even look at it fully.” Bela whines, hoping for more praise from her mother.

“Maybe later, I’m trying to put Cassandra to sleep right now. Speaking of that, you should be getting ready for bed now.”

“Mother pleaseee look at it, I worked really hard on it. I’ll go to bed right after I promise.” Bela begs and pouts. Alcina sighs and wonders where she got the stubbornness from before taking a longer glance at the drawing.

She squinted slightly as she looked at the artwork, looking away before saying, “Hm it could be better, but good try though.” Alcina vaguely critiqued in a calm and blunt manner.

Bela’s eyes widened at the words spoken as she felt her heart ache and twist with pure sadness and disappointment. The impact of her mother’s words weighed heavy on her mind as troubling thoughts raced through her head. She wants to make her mother proud, she craves to make the person she looks up to the most proud.

Was she not good enough?

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Bela’s shaky hand drops the pen onto the desk as she gets out of the memory. She’s in shock for a moment before she gets herself together and huffs in annoyance at the burden as she gets back to work. This is not the first time that this has happened, but she still hasn’t gotten used to it.

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“Okay Bela, we will be back in a few hours. Watch Daniela, don’t let her out of your sight.” Alcina tells the eldest, already halfway out the door as Cassandra is practically shaking behind her with excitement to see her second play.

“Understood mother. I’ll take good care of her.” Bela says with certainty.

“Very well.” Alcina smiled in approval and nodded, turning around with her hand on the door handle to shut it.

As soon as the door closed, Bela turns around to go to her sister’s room, hoping that the sound of the door opening wouldn’t disturb her sleep and wake up the little energy-filled gremlin. When she entered the room and closed the wooden door, she sat on a small chair near the bed and kept a close eye on the young Daniela. A half hour passed and she heard the quiet sound of thunder rumbling for a few seconds. She hopes that it won’t get any louder and wake her younger sister.

Though unfortunately it started pouring down rain, resulting in loud thunder to shake the house. Bela notices Daniela starting to stir and slowly open her eyes, looking confused at the sight of her older sister in her room.

“Bela?” Daniela quietly asked, even though she already knew the answer. The auburn-haired girl sat up and rubbed the sleepiness out of her multicolored eyes.

“Yes it’s me, I’m here to keep an eye on you because mother is taking Cass out to a play.” Bela explains, voice evident with exhaustion from the amount of work that’s been put on her for the past few days.

“Aww really, again? Why does she only brings Cass and not us?” Daniela whines, hitting the blankets with her fists. She’s upset and a bit frustrated and Bela can’t blame her at all. To be entirely honest she also feels the same way, though the blonde hides those damping emotions and puts on a facade in front of her younger sister and makes it her primary goal to pay attention to Dani when her mother won’t.

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*BANG* Bela’s hands hit the desk, leaving a small red mark behind, “Dammit, again? Another fucking flashback.” She whispers under her breath, her voice shaky. Suddenly in the midst of her frustration she remembers you, the peaceful sound of your voice, those eyes that hold so much love and passion in them. She debates whether to head to your dorm room or not, it is rather late and she doesn’t want to wake you but at the same time she needs you right now. She can’t wait until morning.

So here she is, at your doorstep, mustering up the courage to knock on the door. Taking a long deep breath and pushing the thoughts telling her that she’s a burden aside for now.

*Knock knock knock* “Hold on!” The sound of your muffled voice through the door offered solace to Bela’s heartbeat.

“May I help yo- oh Bela, come in.” You spoke, opening the door wider for the tall blonde to walk inside. You knew something was wrong, her muscles looked tense and her eyes held a desperate need of comfort and affection. You don’t know what happened but nonetheless you were determined to make your girlfriend feel better.

You shut the door and went over to Bela, who sat herself down on the sofa, looking straight through the coffee table as if it wasn’t even there. It’s obvious that whatever’s troubling her is still plaguing her mind. You place your hand on her shoulder, sitting down next to her, “Darling, what’s bothering you? Lay it all on me.” You assured, waiting patiently for her response.

“I just had some flashbacks, surprisingly I’m not used to it by now but here we are. Though today was the worst it’s ever gotten.” Bela paused before continuing, “..and I guess..I’ve reached my breaking point.” She hesitantly confessed.

You nod your head in acknowledgement, “I understand and I’m here to help get you through every single one you experience for now on.” Bela’s body tensed up a little, seemingly doubting the statement that left your lips.

Knowing that it’ll take more than that to convince her, you decided to take things a bit further to instill in her mind that you are never going to leave her side no matter what. You scoot closer to her and pull her into a firm embrace, the action made Bela freeze though it only took a couple seconds for her to melt into your touch. This feeling of warmth and comfort when she’s upset is unfamiliar but certainly not unwelcomed. She sinks into your body and wraps her arms around you tightly, her face digging into the crook of your neck.

You let her rest there for a moment, rubbing her back with one hand and the other loosely playing with her hair. After a few silent minutes you slowly pull Bela to look you in the eyes, “I’m here Bela, always, even through your darkest days I’ll still be here and I ain’t never leaving. I promise you love.” You reassured, your voice gentle but firm, firm enough to fend off Bela’s doubts.

Silence filled the room while the weight of your words settled into her mind. The warm emotions Bela was feeling were almost overwhelming, she whispered a small ‘thank you’ as she continued to hold onto you. You could sit here for hours, holding your hard working girlfriend and reassuring her as many times as she needs. As time slowly went on, the both of you relished in this comforting moment, letting the nighttime tiredness consume the both of you. She is your shield, protecting you from anything that crosses your path and you are her sword, fending off any potential threats, even if it’s her own thoughts. The both of you wouldn’t have it any other way.

Masterlist

#finally I’ve finished this-#this has been in my drafts for a while #resident lover #resident lover bela #bela dimitrescu #bela dimitrescu x reader #bela dimitrescu x y/n #bela x reader #bela x y/n #resident evil fanfiction

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 5 days

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Hi Mika. I am just checking in to see how you’re doing and I’m so sorry to hear about your girlfriend cheating on you for one of your friends and betrayed you. That’s very unforgivable what she did and my advice to you is to forget about her because she wrecked your trust and the relationship and she’s not worth your time. Hopefully you find someone who’s right for you and treats you better at some point. Stay strong and don’t give up! - 🧁

Hello 🧁 Anon, your kind words really mean a lot to me. I hope that you’ve been doing well. Good news is that I’m not mad or sad about the breakup anymore. Sure I have those days where I miss the things we would do together but I’ll eventually stop feeling that way. Though unfortunately even tho I’m almost fully recovered from the breakup my mental health is still really shitty, hence the lack of posts. Also I would like to thank y’all though, for being patient with me throughout everything.

#Ms Biscults speaks #Mika speaks

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 6 days

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Hange Zoë SFW & NSFW Headcannons

(A/N- I’ve emerged from my mentally exhausted state to just say happy birthday to my dear best friend @abbyslev. I hope you enjoy this and you get better soon my friend!)

(Warning: NSFW content in the second part of this and some of these hcs take place in a modern AU)

SFW

- Whenever it’s your birthday, they make it an all about you day, doing whatever you want. They always try to make you a homemade cake (the first time they messed it up BUT the second time they made it right)

- They’re the type to take off their jacket whenever it’s cold and give it to you, then they’ll hold your hand.

- Hange LOVES to call you pet names like darling, my love, baby, babe and sweetheart. Those are just only a few examples though. Also they sometimes make up some crazy pet names too.

- If they wake up before you they’ll stare at your sleeping face with a soft smile, sometimes even bushing a piece of hair out of your face and kissing your forehead. (And just imagine their morning voice-)

- If you’re ever tense from stress and/or anxiety they’ll be there to give you a massage. Those hands can do wonders- (in more ways than one)

- Whenever they text you they send a million messages, ESPECIALLY when they are excited.

- Sometimes when they go to the store and walk past something they think you’ll enjoy they’ll of course buy it for you. (Because they love to just spoil you)

NSFW

- Hange gives off strong switch vibes. When they’re being dominant, often times they’re a pleasure dom, giving you exactly what you want (need). When they’re a sub they tend to be unpredictable. Sometimes they’ll be a brat to get a rise out of you and other times they’ll be a good and obedient sub just for you.

- Some days they like to have slow and passionate sex and other times they like it fast and rough. They usually go the more romantic and passionate route though.

- Hange trusts you enough to take off their eyepatch in front of you during the deed. Their heart will melt if you kiss on their eye or if you tell them how beautiful it looks.

- Definitely the type to praise you for everything you do (and will say it with a big smirk on their face)

- They take a mental note of what gets you turned on and what makes you squirming and moaning the most. They have a good memory so they’ll for sure remember every little thing.

- Always keeps their glasses on because they want to see all of your different facial expressions and movements clearly.

Masterlist

#aot x reader #aot x y/n #aot headcanons #aot hcs #aot hange #hange zoe #hange smut #hange x reader #hange x y/n #hanji zoe #hanji x reader

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 6 days

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MIKA OMG IM SO LATEEEEE TO THIS 😭

But I'm sad to hear about that whole situation with your (now ex) gf :(

Hoping you'll get someone wayyy better! You deserve it 💗

Hey hey Char! My apologies for responding to this late. Yeah it is unfortunate that I got cheated on but I was more mad than sad y’know? But hey there’s a silver lining to this; I can now platonically flirt with my friends again >:) and I can relate to breakup songs now- Anyways thank you for sending this ask, it means a lot really.

#Ms Biscults speaks #Mika speaks #I might sound a bit off-#so sorry about that #I’ve been going through it these past weeks

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 19 days

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I got another request recently so I feel the need to tell everyone that made a request that I’ll get to it eventually though it’ll be awhile honestly. My mental health has been terrible recently and I’m trying to finish up some things I’ve been working on for a while now. So please be patient with me my friends and thank you for understanding.

#Ms Biscults speaks #Mika speaks #so if you see the lack of posts this is why

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 22 days

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Fucking shit y’all this week has been terrible. I just found out that my girlfriend cheated on me with one of my friends. So yeah we’ve officially broken up. I wish I got some closure but oh well, I’ll find someone WAY better and loyal than her.

#Ms Biscults speaks #Mika speaks #first I had to deal with Red Flag Bitch’s shit and now thus #*this #can i catch a break #*sigh*#at least I can go back to platonically flirting with my friends >:)

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 23 days

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#LMFAO #FOR REAL #SHE BE RUINING THE MOMENT #LIKE IM TRYIN TO FUCK DONNA HERE

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 23 days

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Hope you're doing okay Mika!! I know dealing with coworkers like that isn't fun :(

Hoping that girl gets what comes to her, tho <3

Thank you Char! Yeah I hope they’re done with their bullshit now. Too bad the stuff Red Flag Bitch did didn’t get caught on camera but oh well I’m pretty sure the bosses are on my side about what happened. But girllll those bitches are crazy, like damn I know I look fine but stop obsessing over me LMFAO. Jokes aside, I really appreciate the kind words :)

#Ms Biscults speaks #Mika speaks

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 24 days

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Update on this post.

I walk into work and Red Flag Bitch and her sister was nearby the entrance (the sister is also one of my coworkers) The sister stormed up to me and started shouting at me saying a bunch of bullshit and that I’m a liar. I ignored the bitch and she followed me, yelling to turn around and face her. She was crazy like damn she was hostile af. I went to one of my bosses office and told him about it and he reviewed the cam footage and the incident was caught on camera and the boss told me to go back to work and he’ll bring her to his office. And y’all you could hear him yelling at her, like he was going off on her. Anyways after my shift ended my boss told me that he told her if she did something like that again the cops will be called and she’ll get arrested. So yeah today’s been rough, hopefully tomorrow nothing happens but y’know still afraid.

#Ms Biscults speaks #Mika speaks

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 24 days

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A old friend once said to me “You know what’s harder than seeing what you did wrong? Seeing what you did right.” After remembering this, I thought I’d pass that down to anyone that needed to hear that.

#a reminder to everyone

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 25 days

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STROKES WITH STRASH LMFAAOOO that's actually so funny tho XDDD I didn't expect that

HAHA HAPPY TO MAKE YA LAUGH MY FRIEND! Get used to it cause I have a habit of making people laugh >:)

Yeah it’s my thing to make random nicknames for people. For example Tar, Crisp, Muff, AK, Sod, etc etc. It’s funny when others go along with it too.

#Ms Biscults speaks #Mika speaks

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 25 days

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Guys guess what I’ve finally reported that Red Flag Bitch (my obsessed coworker) I finally got the courage to report her and it went well, I’m just a little afraid that it’ll continue but so far she hasn’t said anything to me.

#Ms Biscults speaks #Mika speaks #have I told y’all about her?#I thinkkkkkkk

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 25 days

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LOLOL OK strash it is 🫡

Also I came up with a name for our conversations.. “Strokes with Strash” (every time I type Strash my phone keeps on wanting to autocorrect it to all caps lmao)

#Ms Biscults speaks #Mika speaks

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 25 days

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ACK, gg master booper 😔

*boop* Yes. Hrm your nickname from me shall be STRASH! (And Kai)

#Ms Biscults speaks #Mika speaks

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 25 days

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IT IS TOO LATE, I’VE ALREADY WON. BOTH WARS! >:)

@kaistrashbin YO! WANNA TEAM UP AND DEMOLISH MIKA??

#booping each other has brought us together #>:)

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 26 days

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Get the popcorn ready cause it’s gonna be awhile lmfao.

This is now war, a booping war..

Bring it on >:) I'm at max boops given, and almost at max boops received, I have no fear

#*boop* *boop* *boop*

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mikasa-imadebiscults · 26 days

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I’m gonna get your meter to “Why” >:)

This is now war, a booping war..

Bring it on >:) I'm at max boops given, and almost at max boops received, I have no fear

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