“You are, and always have been, my dream”

— Nicholas Sparks via - (hatin)

What if my narrative would bring us to the end? Will I ever be the one that you see?

The Author // Luz

I miss talking to you everyday

“We used to talk everyday. Now the only conversation I have with you, is inside my head.”

— and that’s so sad

Happy Valentine's Day! I hope you love yourself just as much as I do 💓

a. j. lim

i’ve never been in a romantic relationship, never has any sort of romantic experience in my life and at this point i feel like maybe theres something about me that people don’t want to be around. im always told “it’ll happen when you least expect it” and even “you won’t find love until you love yourself” and that particular statement, however amount of truth it holds, makes me feel bad. am i not lovable just bc i don’t love myself at my fullest capacity? i also don’t have many friends and the ones i have, i always initiate conversations and eventually the conversations die out until i start them up again. it becomes tiring and emotionally overwhelming to be the one who always starts the conversations. sometimes i wish i’d be on the receiving end of friendship. i fear loneliness will be something i’ll be living with and i hate that.

Just because you don't love yourself at a full capacity, doesn't mean you are unlovable. You deserve love just as much as everyone else, okay? It just means that the person for you hasn't found you yet. Or, maybe they are already in your life and it just hasn't clicked yet. Still, there's nothing wrong in fully loving and embracing our own selves so when the time comes that the person for us arrives, we can give them our all.

I also quite relate to half of what you're feeling, especially with wishing to be the one on the receiving end of friendship. But as time went by, I did learn to appreciate my own company and by extension, loving myself. Because at the end of the day, we only have ourselves.

The road ahead is winding, and I hate myself for trying.. trying to be more than what we are.

More Than What We Are // Juan Miguel Severo

I keep dreaming about us like we had a chance.

It's 2022 and I still fucking like you.

a. j. lim

“Remember the day I told you what I really felt for you? I actually meant what I said. And those feelings carried on, carried on for only you.”

— k.b. // until i finally gave up

x

I have some friends, like people I used to call close friends. And I can't talk to any of them. Every time I think of sending them a text it feels like I'm being pushy, and needy. I was so happy thinking that they're all I'll ever need, that I have basically no idea how to communicate with new people, make new friends. They have other people to talk to, they're way more confident than I am, and I'm a really minor, irrelevant part of their lives now. So now I'm stuck feeling lonely all the time with no way to fix the situation. What should I do?

Sorry I took so long to respond. But anyway, I can quite relate to what you are saying. I'm too afraid to approach people (friends) often because they might think I'm too much, and I'm scared that that would be why they're going to leave me alone. But along the way, I got tired of the cycle, of always thinking I'm irrelevant, because I taught myself that I could be important too.

For me, you could try saying uplifting words and compliments to yourself as a starting point in building your confidence. Try starting your days by reading good news or inspirational quotes :) When the time comes that you no longer see yourself as a minor and irrelevant person, you can move on to trying to make new friends. Or, you can also send your friends a text, to start the conversation. If you ever feel the hesitation, just breathe and count to ten before hitting send. I believe in you! 😊