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lilisette · 3 months

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i got zayne's card for this valentines event and suffice to say, i am taking canon into my own hands, smashing it to the wall, picking up the pieces i want, and rewriting it.

it's good don't get me wrong; it's very fitting of zayne as a doctor who wants to prioritize mc's health first over everything, and as a friend who doesn't want to take advantage of her when she's drunk (well he did hint that he was drunk on her but that's another thing) BUT i find myself wanting more tbh... especially when compared to rafayel and xavier's card.

i want my fade to black steamy smut times dammit :(

#love and deepspace #love and deep space #love and deepspace zayne #ive given up on getting the other two lol #my friend got them both and she showed me what happened in those two cards #and im like ok im happy im not gonna gamba anymore #time to save for caleb...

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lilisette · 3 months

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spoilers for chapter 7 i need to rant im about to burst-

goddamnit i shouldve known the girl that rafayel mentioned in Nightly Stroll is mc!!!

but this makes me wonder. are all love interests connected to mc's childhood/past somehow? like okay. zayne (and caleb) is mc's childhood friend. now it is said that rafayel met mc before but mc forgot. in before xavier met mc when she was young too but forgot as well. just watch lmao, xavier is one day gonna come up to mc and be like, hey! i met you before the disaster but you forgot because experimentation!

also rafayel being a merman... honestly not so surprising since there are hints everywhere.. but the childhood friend part? holy i did NOT see that coming. i thought he was just sharing an experience, NOT TRYING TO JOG HER MEMORY. oh my god now this changes so much like.

imagine. rafayel seeing her one day by pure chance and going up to her, wondering if she remembers him, only to be disappointed. because how could he be happy when the love of his life forgot him and their promise???? oh my god. maybe they met BEFORE the disaster, which could explain why she doesnt remember. and also explains why rafayel cannot find her again!!

FUCK "ive waited for you for 800 years" exaggeration but not a lie. he did wait for her for so, so long. god can you imagine the fear and pain he has when mc is suddenly gone without a trace when hes in the hospital?? its like deja vu, shes gone again, away from his grasp. explains why hes so mad when shes back.

ALSO. him dropping hints everywhere to their connection, hoping she would remember but she doesnt!!! hes trying to jog her memory!! i cannot imagine the pain hes going through holy...

holy fuck i need more. gdi game why you only let me earn xp through dailies???? i wouldve grinded the crap out of this game to progress 😭

#love and deepspace #love and deep space #MY FEELS??? HELLO???#honestly him being... yeah... is very obvious but goddamn #him too??????#not that im complaining the angst potential is insane #but i am LIVING FOR IT

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lilisette · 3 months

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Masks Under the Chandelier | Caleb/Reader

About: A fic idea wherein you and Caleb meet months later in a gala. To you, this person is a stranger you just met. But to this person, you were more than that...

Pairing: Caleb/Reader

Notes: Might actually write this tbh... Caleb is my favorite ngl hahaha...

Warnings: Spoilers for Chapter 4! Please do not read if you haven't read it yet!

Imagine there is a gala or some high class event where you have to attend, perhaps as part of the event's security detail. With all the Metafluxes and Wanderers going about, it's important that the organizers call a few hunters to protect them from harm. But them going in uniform will no doubt alert the guests so you have to go undercover and dress up in a formal party outfit, a gown or whatever you wish to wear.

And by chance, because of all the important people there, the organization that kidnapped Caleb (since he is not dead idc what the game says) is invited to attend too. So they send Caleb, undercover of course, to attend.

Caleb donned a new persona, dyed his hair, wear contacts and all to ensure no one would recognize him. He attends and lo and behold, he bumps into you while wandering the event hall.

While Caleb has a new persona, his voice is still unchanged and when Caleb, in shock, whispers your nickname, cause- wow you looks amazing-, you turn toward him in shock and-

"Pipsqueak?" "Caleb?" "I-" Caleb almost responded to your call, but quickly remembered that he isn't Caleb now... He could never be anymore. "Sorry miss...?" The hope that was evident in your eyes dimmed, and his heart broken all over again when your eyes softened, a sad smile gracing your face. "I'm sorry, I thought... I thought you were someone I knew for a moment." You said, the distance between you and him so close, yet so far. There was an invisible wall between you and him now, and he hated it.

You and him talk for a bit, about why you both were there. Caleb keeps getting distracted by you because he has never seen you like this before, dolled up and oh so beautiful under the crystal chandeliers. There were many times where he almost slipped up and mention something that only the both of you know, but he caught himself. And god does he hate it. He's your best friend from childhood dammit (yes zayne exists but he likes to think you prefer him over zayne), why can't he...

Why can't he be close to you anymore?

It's ironic, Caleb thought, that you were telling him, a stranger, things that he as Caleb never knew. He asked you about who you have mistaken him for, and the answer shook him to his core.

"My childhood friend. He is... well, was, my best friend." You say wistfully, staring off into the crowd and imagining what would it be like if he was still here with you. He was about to make another comment, but stopped when you opened you mouth to continue. "And perhaps... If he was still around... We would've been something much more than that." The guilt and sadness that pierced through him then was so overwhelming it almost made him kneel. And yet, like a glutton for punishment, he asked. "You think you two would've been lovers?" "Not without us being honest with each other for once. But eventually... Yes."

You two talk for a bit more until you both feel a spike in the air, your watch that was disguised as a bracelet alerting you to wanderers in the area. You tell him to not alert everywhere because it will incite panic, and made your exit.

Unbeknownst to you, he trails after you, just like the time before the whole explosion happened. He watches you take down the wanderers with ease but then he sees a wanderer spawning just behind you, and without second thought, he uses his own evol to fling the wanderer away.

But before you could turn to see who it was who saved you, he hides behind cover. And before you could approach the spot, the wanderer stands up again, giving him ample time to slip away.

He watches you return to your post afterwards, and when you spot him again, he asks you whether you're okay and-

"Yes I am, thank you for your concern. Though..." You trailed off, your mind still stuck on the mystery of who saved you back there. "Is there something wrong?" "No! No. I just... No, it's nothing, probably just my imagination." You said, looking away and into the crowd of guests who were unaware of the Wanderer sighting, missing the look of guilt that was plastered all over his face.

Caleb, even under a different persona, was constantly worried about you. He waited for you to report to captain Jenna and escorted you home after the whole event. Before opening the door to your apartment however, you turned towards him.

"You don't have to do this, you know." "I insist." He expected you to open the door and leave, and you two will never see each other again, but instead, you looked towards him and smiled. "I thought about what you said. I think... I think you're right. I should start moving on." You said, and before he could ask why you were telling him this, you handed him your phone. "If it's alright, can we exchange numbers?"

Caleb knew he shouldn't do this. The organization specifically said that he was not to contact you at all costs. But well, Caleb reasoned with himself, they didn't say he cannot contact you while under a new persona. So he gave you his number as well.

The moment you entered your apartment and him in the elevator, he leaned against the wall and sighed.

What the fuck did he just get himself into?

#love and deepspace #love and deep space #love and deepspace caleb x reader #love and deep space caleb x reader #weeeee he gives me so much feels my god #and identity p*rn is one of my favorite tropes so here we are

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lilisette · 3 months

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Finally, another lost Ark enjoyer on Tumblr!

yeah! hi anon!! the loa fandom is incredibly small on here so its nice to meet someone whos also a loa player too! im on euc if you wanna play together :)

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lilisette · 3 months

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hhhhhh my HEART 😭 theyre so cute

tbh i didnt expect zayne to actually comply with mc's wishes, so it was a major surprise when he not only followed along, he actually grabbed her hand and make sure she does it properly 😭 im sorry for being down bad on main but this is giving me "mc fooling around and teasing zayne, only to be trapped when zayne gets serious and tells her to follow through on her teasing" vibes!!

rafayel's reaction was also a little unexpected for me as well. i thought he would be go along and grin about it but to see him blush!! AIDJJSSNX his reaction when you listen to his heartbeat too!! more ideas about rafayel getting embarrassed when mc is forward and sits on his lap, giving him special attention. can totally see him pout and whine about mc's job but melting into her touch afterwards.

and xavier. oh xavier. he's so adorable i want to squish him all the goddamn time 😭 he looks so cute that im ngl i feel a little guilty thirsting over... but i have a feeling with time and experience, he will initiate more and maybe pin mc to some flat surface more

i am so screwed i still havent and cannot make up my mind on who to main... itll be even more difficult when caleb comes back 😭 send help

also is there some discord for this game... i am so down to scream about this game with you guys...

#love and deepspace #love and deep space #i am losing my mind over these three #ive never been so productive writing wise until this game appeared #maybe because theres so much interaction and ideas that spawn from them #unlike certain games i write for as well..........

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lilisette · 3 months

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Late Night Introspection | Zayne/Reader

About: A drabble on Zayne's reasons for becoming a doctor. Was it for himself? Or was it.... for you?

Pairing: Zayne/Reader

Notes: Might be invalidated as the story goes on though haha... But I like the idea of Zayne deciding to be a doctor in order to protect you in ways you cannot.

“By helping her, Zayne… You help yourself.”

The words Grandma Josephine uttered on that fateful day still lingered in his mind, even hours after you’ve left the hospital. She made him promise to take care of you on her behalf, to be with you every step of the way as you lived your life.

Like a parent giving their blessing to a potential spouse.

Zayne ran his fingers through his tousled hair, mentally waving that stray thought away. Perhaps in a perfect world where tragedies such as these didn’t happen, she would’ve given him her blessing but… That was not the case now. And in a twisted way, if the disaster 14 years ago didn’t happen, he wouldn’t have met you.

14 years ago he made a decision, a decision that was made because of you.

He still remembered the day when you proclaimed to everyone that you will become strong and become a hunter so you won’t have to rely on someone and be afraid when another disaster strikes, that you will be someone who would protect everyone around them.

“I will be your protector one day! Just you guys watch!”

And in that moment, a thought appeared in the forefront of his mind–

“Then who protects the protector?”

He wasn’t the only one who had the same thought however. Caleb immediately interjected, snorting at your antics.

“Then who will protect you, dummy? What if you get injured?”

“I won’t! Because you two will have my back, right?”

“That’s not how it works–”

Indeed, that was not how the world worked. Even the mightiest hunter will fall, despite all the challenges they faced and overcame. And so when you turned to Zayne and asked him what he would be in the future, he simply said–

“A doctor.”

“Why?”

“Someone has to take care of you when you’re hurt.”

“I won’t get hurt!”

“Sure.”

So he did. The decision was made. He began his journey into the field of medicine and worked tirelessly to get here. Even though contact between you and him lessened over the years, he had never forgotten his decision, his promise to be by your side when you needed him the most.

As Zayne gained renown and respect within the field over the years, many research facilities and academic institutions had tried to lure him to have him work for them. He refused them all, however. He joined the field not for money, nor for fame and respect.

But for you.

“You’re good at not giving into temptation.” You jokingly said then. He had no intentions from straying from his path, especially not when you became a hunter despite all the heart conditions you had. He had specifically chosen to study cardiology because he was aware of the problems you had since the disaster. And while there are many capable doctors in said field, he just couldn’t rest easy.

The thought of you being transferred to someone else’s care made him apprehensive. Why should you rely on another’s care when he could do it instead?

When he knows you and your heart better than the others ever will?

The sudden ‘ping!’ resounded throughout his office, bringing him out of the recess of his thoughts. He picked up his phone and the corners of his mouth lifted when he saw who it was, contacting him this late at night.

“Sorry for calling so late earlier. I just needed to know the truth… I’m still reading through them.”

“Go to sleep, it’s late. The documents will still be there when you wake up.”

Just like he will when you wake up.

He will always be here, as long as you need him.

#love and deep space #love and deepspace #love and deep space zayne x reader #love and deepspace zayne x reader #i feel like this hc will be invalidated later on but welp #it is what it is #would anyone be interested in smut about these guys #cause man the art where theyre only in a towel like my god #i saw it and i was like ok i need them

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lilisette · 3 months

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An Astute Observation | Caleb/Reader

About: A short what if scenario wherein you noticed Caleb didn't get any snacks at all. Who could've thought you catching eye of that would change the outcome of the story?

Pairing: Caleb/Reader

“We’ve been outside for too long. Gran’s going to be worried.”

“You’re doing it again. Go inside by yourself. I’m not your sidekick.” You huffed at Caleb, watching him approach the front door of Grandma’s home. But instead of following him, you paused. “Wait. Did you even get the snacks I asked for?”

“I thought you said you’re grown up now? Get it yourself.”

You pouted. The gall of this man you have as a childhood friend. You were about to retort, the words forming on your tongue like old times, until realization hit you.

“So you were following me this whole time!” You accused him, and he had the guts to look unfazed, merely blinking at your words. You’ve expected him to trail after you, as he has always been protective of you since childhood. But somehow it… hurt, like he didn’t trust that you would be fine on your own.

Not wanting him to pick up on the conflicting feelings within you, just as he always did with one glance at you, you turned away to hide your face from him, and began to make your trip to the store.

“Hmfph fine! I’ll go get them myself, I don’t need you to help me anyway.”

And just as expected, Caleb grabbed your wrist before you could take another step.

“...Are you really going to walk around with a wound like that? You’re going to hurt yourself like that.”

“Didn’t you say I was a grown up? I can take care of myself–”

The odd tension that hung in the air this entire time suddenly snapped, and instinctively you yanked Caleb backward, shielding him from–

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“Hey! Hey pipsqueak! Help is on the way, don’t fall asleep–” “Dammit– Focus on me–”

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“She will wake up soon, go and get some rest first.”

“Thank you Zayne.”

Caleb sighed the moment Zayne, or Dr. Zayne now, stepped out of the room. It’s been hours since the blast and while he and you were fortunate enough to have survived the disaster, Grandma… wasn’t.

He pulled a chair to the side of your bed and sat, observing your sleeping face as he grasped your hand tightly, as if scared you would be out of reach if he were to let go.

You shielded him from the blast with your own body, thus protecting him from the shockwave and debris that flew out. He remembered cradling you afterwards, trying to keep you conscious to no avail. The emergency response team tried to convince him to get himself checked for injuries while they treated you but he refused, citing that he was fine and he never let you out of his sight until Zayne appeared.

He was forced to get himself looked over after Zayne took her into the emergency ward. And during the medical examination, a question came to the forefront of his mind and stayed there.

If he had went in as planned, would the little argument he and you had beforehand be the last conversation before he…

And if he did go in… That meant you would be alone. Alone against this world that he was desperately trying to shield you from.

He lowered his head at that thought, bringing your hand to his lips and murmured.

“You still have me… I will protect you to my dying breath, I swear to it.”

#love and deep space #love and deepspace #love and deep space caleb x reader #love and deepspace caleb x reader #yeah its been like 6 hours since ive seen that cutscene and i am coping HARD already #canon is just suggestion to me i refuse to believe hes dead NOPE

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lilisette · 3 months

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this game- you cant just put my type in front of me and then take him away!!!!!!

heres to hoping that his corpse is not found and the game is like "haha hes actually not dead!! he was just severely wounded and was kidnapped by the sus group that mc encountered beforehand! and now that group is holding him against his will and you have to save him!!!"

no for real i hope that happens because my god. that childhood friends trope is really hitting now. (i know we have zayne but caleb??? the banter??? the potential for a love triangle?? HELLO???) it would make sense right? no way the game is just gonna spring a death this early on us for no reason right??? plus hes in deepsace aviation, a top secret supee dangerous organization, it would make sense for that sus group, whatever their intentions are, to kidnap a member of that group to extract info and make him work for them...

also!!! maybe i am hallucinating and reading too much but did anyone else think that caleb has somewhat of a crush on mc because that line... "you wouldnt understand even if i told you" and his sadness when mc wont trust him and wont let him protect her... gdi game.

yes i am coping hard. please game dont do this....

#love and deep space #love and deepspace #i am coping so hard atm #cmon look at him hes sooooo jekejndkwd #tinfoil hat theory but ive seen this trope happen before i will stand by this #if not this is my hc game you cannot take this away from me

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lilisette · 3 months

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god they're so...... i cant choose....

xavier has my heart but rafayel is getting to me... zayne is hmm... hes nice but yeah. i got distracted by the other two.

i'm always a sucker for xavier's type, aloof, seemingly emotionless at first but once you get to know him, hes this cute awkward guy and its FNQFGQGQG

cute/innocent looking guys aren't usually my type but when i realized hes basically a wolf in sheep clothing type i just. i'm sold. the way he lures mc in and teases her MAN.

zayne is... i'm still not sure about him actually, i like the back and forth mc and him has though! its cute and mc mistaking his ice seals for snowballs is LMAO. poor guy is hurt hahaha

anyway yeah. new hyperfixation acquired and i KNOW i am done for.

#love and deep space #yeah my newest hyperfixation #ngl im playing this game while raiding #and its been veeeery distracting #thank GOD theres an english option on the chinese app or im gonna struggle understanding wtf is going on hahhaha

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lilisette · 3 months

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Being a Delain and an adventurer who could never stay in one place for long, she knew she was the worst possible match for Thirain, especially after the whole mess with Sacria. Before she left the ballroom to find her king, she swore to herself that after this, she will do everything in her power to get over these feelings she held for him; for the sake of Luterra, for her king, and for her own sanity.

And yet, as she approached him on the balcony, she couldn't help hope...

A retelling of the balcony scene in Thirain's affection rank.

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been meaning to do a fic or two on thirain’s affection rank but never got around to doing it... until now 🫠 mc is delain but her name is not mentioned. does this count as x reader fic? idk anymore...

#lost ark #lostark #lost ark thirain #in a writing mood recently thank GOD #theres no smut in this one... YET #its cooking pls give it some time #also mariu my beloved im sorry but i need to get these affection rank fics out of my system first

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lilisette · 4 months

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Modifying a homunculus' core requires way more life energy and effort than creating or repairing one. Mariu lacked the required life energy output for the process, whereas she had it in spades, but was not allowed to brute force it. And with them having to modify Zeherade's core without any outside help, it sounded like this was an impossible endeavor.

They came across a method that allowed transference while searching for methods around the process, but for Mariu to obtain the needed energy, they needed to... Well...

Or

Fate/Stay Night's mana transfer ritual but make it Lost Ark.

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this is what 5 runs of voldis does to a mf. (and more actually...)

#lost ark #lostark #its smut theres no ifs or buts about it #honestly all i write is smut at this point i need help #actually planning a voldis retelling after this #i love him so much i need him

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lilisette · 4 months

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bit of a roster update since its almost the end of the year! my roster has changed a lot since and many characters have come and gone. hopefully next year i will actually make up my mind and really finalize my main 6 🫠

from top to bottom, left to right:

Aurelian (Paladin) | Selaena (Souleater)

Endymion (Berserker) | Inaenna (Slayer)

Calibourne (Paladin) | Celestina (Bard)

rip arcana, summoner, artist, destroyer, sorceress and so many other classes i deleted/benched... i will come back to you one day...

also main 6 roster evolution for this year, watch me change again with breaker under the cut 👀

i wanted to do a 5 support 1 dps gold roster at the start of the year but yeah. artist came and nuked that idea to the ground lmao. those few months were truly hell to pug on a support

this was i think a few weeks before elgacia? i had an artist prior to this screenshot actually, but she never made it to the main 6 because i didn't like her sprinkle skill and no space to take DR skill. but with the new changes coming on january i might give artist a shot again.

oh destroyer. hes so much fun to play but way too slow for me. i still do guardians on him though and hitting perfect swing is truly chefs kiss

theres a 5 month gap between this screenshot and the second one. summoner on paper is great but playing her was pure SUFFERING. idk not even the massive january buff + season 3 bozos jar can change my mind now, she felt way waaaaay too slow on MS and i dont like CO so... rip 1540 summoner i might come back to you if smilegate reworks the class again..

ngl i made a random dps just to do t3 tower cause there was nooooo way i was gonna do it on a support. originally i wanted to make a pistoleer but then i saw i need to use cursed doll and i HATE cursed doll, so i picked berserker instead. mayehm zerk is pretty fun actually and very consistent despite the negative sentiment around him.

ooh boy souleater. i dropped my first ever character (sorceress) for her and she did NOT disappoint! they were not joking when they said souleater is just a better igniter. sorceress is still nice to play dont get me wrong but souleater numbers man... its getting to me...

and heres the most recent one. rip arcana and my MC for so many of my fics... arcana is also amazing and i pull my own weight on raids dont get me wrong, its just that i have no hands to play her to the best of her ability lmao. plus the damage numbers on souleater is really getting to me, hence slayer. still not sure which engraving i want to do on her, i might actually buy 2 sets of accessories for her so i can switch whenever.

this will be my main 6 roster until maybe breaker? also not sure if want to make him yet. but definitely until smilegate announces a male mage/male delain/female paladin. also a sage class would be cool, be it dps or support. the voldis sages are great and i hope theres more lore/content about them yes i want to see mariu again dont judge me

#lost ark #lostark #man looking back at these screenshots made me realize how much of a hold this game has on me #we dont talk about the second and third roster page #its a mess there #oh and! if anyone here wants to do raids together im on EUC Ealyn #shoot me a dm if you wanna be friends in game :)

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lilisette · 4 months

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please tell me im not the only one absolutely OBSESSED with him. hes so cute i just. i need him in my life.

spoiler for voldis main quest + rapport

GOD HE. the way he acts around mc is just mwgrnbnb im 100% headcanoning that he has a massive crush on mc LIKE

HELLO??? SMILEGATE??? im not complaining but god. why you have to make him so cute (along with the homunculus and baby zeherade but thats a given)

theres also the fact you created the homunculus AND restored zeherade with him and with the msq saying that homunculi see their creators as their entire world + the only way homunculi could feel happiness is interactions with their creator.... im not saying that the homunculus and baby zeherade see mc and him as their parents BUT CONSIDER-

also the last zeherade rapport quest where mc, baby zeherade and him go to punika. that is a family outing angle and i am FOAMING AT THE MOUTH

anyway. new hyperfixation acquired. please scream at me if you want to talk about him i am so FULL OF WORMS ABOUT HIM.

#lost ark #lostark #lost ark mariu #the moment i saw him i knew i was a goner #i still have at least 2 voldis runs to do i am so doomed #the brainrot is very real and very strong #so much so that im already writing something about him #please send help i am so gone for him

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lilisette · 5 months

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What is Happening in KR LOA and beyond

Sorry for the long post, but it is important. Today, Smilegate released a formal letter, which can be found here

here is the first half of the letter that is relevant to the situation, translated.

It might seem a bit confusing at first to global users out of the loop, here is some context from a twt mutual from KR

There has been multiple doxxing attempts targeted towards female LOA twitter users as well.

This situation is unacceptable and shouldn't be happening at all. All because some sensitive men. And game devs are even listening to them.

What you do with this information is what you wish. I just had to make sure the Global side of the community knows this as well.

#lost ark #lostark #of all the things they can complain about #like idk too much homework broken classes new player exp for example #they complain about this #and devs actually focusing on this instead of the core issue the game has #bro...#really hope those targeted are safe #bc some ppl really do attack others who are feminists in sk

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lilisette · 6 months

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bit obsessed with him lately. the new face preset for warriors + new hair is sooooo *chefs kiss* he looks so soft and sweet 😭 so tempted to develop his character further even though i have no time to...

#lost ark #lostark #lost ark oc #i say that but i know im gonna end up having an entire backstory about him by the end of the week lol #he looks so soft but tbh hes giving off that wolf wearing sheep skin vibe #just biding his time until its time to strike #well shit here comes all the brainrot and thirst thoughts i have about him now...

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lilisette · 9 months

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ain't noooo way AFTER GOD KNOWS HOW LONG??

PSA: YOU CAN RAPPORT THIS GUY NOW JUST SAYING.

#lost ark #lostark #i mean....#at least that means he wont die...right?#RIGHT?????#i have a tinfoil hat theory wherein rapportable chars wont die in story #pls let me be right smilegate im scared #he has too many death flags

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lilisette · 9 months

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my god after idk how long 😭 THIRAIN WILL FINALLY OVERCOME IS 4 LETTER WORD ALLERGY 😭😭

also nineveh but girl... i love you but i wanna see you with kadan or azakiel more LMAO

road map here

#lost ark #lostark #ITS REAL #time to get your ball outfits ready #cant wait to rapport bomb him in one go 💀#same for nineveh #update coming in september btw!!

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