It’s crazy how things can change. How one day you wake up and your world is completely upside down. Your daily routines are no more. The man you love is gone and he took away every ounce of happiness you had with him. It’s truly baffling how codependent you can become on someone, and when they walk away you’re left lost. You’re left to figure out the mess on your own. You have to reconfigure the life you once knew. There are no more goodmornings or goodnights. There are no more late night trips or Saturday breakfasts. There you are left to collect the pieces to your own broken heart. It’s crazy that people whom you promised to spend forever with are now probably going to spend forever with someone else. Someone who doesn’t know how you like your eggs, someone who doesn’t know that you love your laundry done with fabric softener. But I’m sure they will get to know all your quirks just as I did. I’m sure they fell for the same man that I once did. Everyone says that “time heals all wounds”. And that might be true but maybe not for me. I have had more suicidal days then not. I have thought about what this world would be like without me. I have not been able to come to terms with how you could “fall out of love” with someone who wanted to build a life with you. It’s crazy how one day I woke up and you were just someone I once knew and nothing more. I’ve learned over the past 7 months that nothing and I mean nothing is permanent. There isn’t a soul that owes you anything and life...especially life owes you nothing. I am coping and learning to be happy again. I have not tried to harm myself and I am thinking positively. I hope there is someone magical out there waiting for me...because I have magic inside of me. - January 19th 2020

The photo is of me when I went out with my friends to Hoboken.

To the love of my life, who will also never get to read this lol. Love has never came easy to me. I lost the two most important people in my life when I was 14 years old and since then I have no been who I once was. My good spirit, my happiness, and my laughter vanished. I have never met anyone who has compared to them. No one has ever genuinely loved me or cared about me like they did. Losing them was like losing a piece of myself that's why I find it so hard to love.. especially myself. Love isn't as easy for me as it is for others. I need time, patience, and a partner who understands me. I've been abused and walked all over my entire life and I have stopped taking that shit lately. I'm very hard to love because I push people away when they become to close. I have not pushed you away because you are one of a kind. You accepted me for exactly who I am. You have made me feel like I am enough. I love you endlessly. I'm beginning to experience love once again and I'm so happy it's with you hunny. Loving me will never be easy but I appreciate you taking the time to figure me out. Because of you I am learning to love myself once again. My heart and soul belong to you ❤️

To the one who loves her next, She’s terrified of spiders. So when you’re out late with friends and she texts you freaking out because there’s one on her window, please go kill it. She won’t sleep otherwise. She is a total textbook introvert. She won’t reply for hours and sometimes you won’t see her for a week. You will take this personally. Don’t. She’s simply taking care of herself and she’ll tell you how much she missed you while she was away. She’ll get very jealous. My god, she gets so jealous. Those brown eyes will turn a deep green. She hates that about herself, and she doesn’t mean to do it. Remember, she loves you. Reassure her that you love her too. On that topic, she needs constant reassurance. Tell her you love her and mean it. If you can’t do that, leave. She deserves more than that. There will be nights when she goes out and drinks a little too much. She’ll call you to bring her home. When you do, she’ll try to keep you up all night by tickling you and repeating “I love you and I’m sorry I’m annoying.” She’s not annoying. But make sure she has plenty of water and don’t let her pass out until she drinks it, or she will be miserable in the morning. She is the most independent woman I know. But she’s so insecure, it still breaks my heart. So when she starts an argument with “you don’t love me.” Do not get upset. Remind her you do and the reasons why. She’ll come around. The cat comes first. Always. Don’t ever think otherwise. Make her tea and remember the way she takes her coffee. She will notice. When she’s having an anxiety attack, wrap her up in your arms and rub her back. Tell her she’s safe and remind her that she has medication if she needs it. If you cannot treat her like royalty, let someone else. That girl deserves the world. Losing her is a pain you will never shake. Your world will come crashing down on you and those pieces won’t ever fit the way they used to. Don’t let her go. She will love you with all she’s got. Please give her the same. I am begging you to not hurt her. She is golden. Don’t let that shine die out. Give her your all and she’ll return the favor. You will never have to ask the universe for anything ever again.

Sincerely, a name you’ll hear in passing. (via bl-ossomed)

this destroyed me

(via pugs--drugs)

Far too many people are looking for the right person, instead of trying to be the right person.

Gloria Steinem (via perrfectly)

I hope you find someone you can’t live without. I really do. And I hope you never have to know what it’s like to have to try and live without them.

Kiera Cass (via quotemadness)

I Can’t Believe We Use To Do This 😂😂

Sometimes you grow to hate somebody, and sometimes you don’t really hate them at all. Sometimes it’s just a matter of trying not to fall in love with them.

E. Grin (via written-in-pen)

After it happens to you again and again and again, you get used to it. Your heart sinks and you say goodbye on the phone in that small voice when he says he doesn’t want to talk to you, when something bad happens and he doesn’t let you make him feel better. You always used to call back just to try once more, even though he was so adamant. You thought maybe he’d melt for your voice. But now you know better; you know he’s only gonna hurt you more if you called back and it would end in screams and tears. Tomorrow will be a new day. A day of apologies and making up, sweet words and silky voices. Tears will be left behind and the butterflies will be back. Both of you will mix with smiles and drown in the moonlight of love and the hostility will be forgotten. But don’t you forget that it’s bound to happen again. Remember that after it happens to you about fifty times, you get used to it. You don’t call back.

Lakshmi Nagaraj

Voices don’t melt people, Love doesn’t heal people.

(via theprocast)

In order to move on, you must understand why you felt what you did and why you no longer need to feel it.

Mitch Albom,

Five People You Meet In Heaven

(via terrible)

Your phone rings. The number looks familiar. You pick up to hear your own voice asking you for help.

I don’t know Gods reasoning for a lot, but I try not to put a question mark where he’s put a period.

A love like that starts with a simple hello, it always does. You’ve never seen this person before, but before you’ve realized anything– you two are already a thing. Maybe she laughs too loud, maybe he’s got a potty mouth– but beneath the loud laughter, she’s a calm and gentle person, she loves to hug people, she loves to hug you. Under all of his vulgarities, he had the sweetest pair of lips, he knew the right words to say, he always made you feel safe. Maybe you’re into writing love letters, maybe you’re into love making– whatever it is, with whoever it is, it’s always sweet, there’s a hint of roughness, but it’s only ever to spice things up. Kissing means you’ve been at it for hours, you never want it to end at that point. Saying goodbye is the hardest, when’s the next time I’ll see you? I can’t get enough of you. You wanna know the saddest thing about a love like that? It always ends with a goodbye, I can only pray that the movies and books were right, this time… I will only have hello to say to you. I never want to say goodbye.

The hello (via everylittlepieceofyou)