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ladyseidr · 6 days

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okay i'm going to be doing something far fancier for my si.ms blog (with this render, i mean), so like. take this. also it's on his bio page now!! tw for visible scars

#☽—— ⸢ ooc ⸥#f n a f /#.tbd.#self harm mention tw #scars tw #i never know whether to actually tw SCARS because on one hand #while i don't have visible scars i know that many ppl do and ppl should be allowed to exist with their scars #w/o being tw'd as a person you know?? but also michael is a character not a real person obv #on the other hand: i know for a fact scars did used to trigger me so. it's complicated #any posts will be tagged regardless just in case #but i'll probably be just tagging them as scars tw because uh. i'm scared of tumblr murdering me. just uh.#you either know why or you don't. but y'know #i don't want my blog being rocketed into space over a fictional character's model having visible scars in some images #in all fairness to me i was not thinking when i combined this pose with that shirt but also once again: real ppl exist with scars every day #edit: to be clear i added a tw on the muse page as well before you click onto his profile lmao

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ladyseidr · 7 days

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been thinking abt how funny michael's first kiss was. like, even he thinks it's funny once he's older. it's like:

he was literally like 13 and it was absolutely one of the guys in his little bully group ( def the one he was closest to. . . before the kiss Made It Weird )

( this is pre-Bite to be clear the group literally abandoned him after That went down )

happened just during a random quiet, private moment with said friend. like, it wasn't a special moment or anything, it just happened

no, michael obviously didn't make the first move. he is literally allergic to making the first move ever, even prior to the bite

literally just like. very intentional hand brushes -> friend gives him an incredibly awkward, short kiss -> they both stare at each other stupidly for a moment -> friend panics, apologizes, and literally Fucking Leaves

( was michael's reputation a part of that? yeah, obviously. would said friend have panicked regardless? oh yeah )

no, michael was not aware that he was gay prior to this. he like. . . questioned his disinterest in girls a bit, but he was vaguely in denial

yes he feels ~Sparks~ and yes he immediately realized he had a crush on said friend and YES it literally destroyed him for his friend to just run out

it did make things weird between them and they never talked about it. no, the weirdness never improved, mostly because of the group abandoning michael in an attempt to distance themselves from evan's death

michael cried over the whole kiss thing for like a week straight in his bedroom but he will NEVER tell anyone this. like i don't care if it's fn.af 6 era, you will never pry that information from him

i want to be clear that we're talking full-blown teenage melodrama here. like, you know when you were a teenager crying in your bedroom to sad music? LITERALLY michael. it literally wasn't even that big of a deal. but he was 13 and everything is life or death when you're 13.

yes the other af.tons know abt the crying in the bedroom thing. by default they know better than to breathe a word ( except elizabeth lmao ), but by all means write your af.tons doing otherwise FDSKHFSH

very My William-specific but: one of the last major bonding moments between him and william happened regarding this. michael actually managed to open up some about this and william like. actually? handled it pretty well?? which is rare because he is NOT good at comforting, but he had a point of reference as a queer man who remembering his first recognizable crush on a boy. mind you, don't think michael just outright announced what was fully going on lmao. there's a ton more context to how this went down, but i'd have to write out the full ass scene to show that.

anyway if you're wondering when his first actual relationship was, that's er. dependent. i'm still wishy-washy abt default shipping him with jeremy. like, in my heart i find that relationship important to michael but also i'm so wary of default shipping non-canon ships on here. but i did it with will.ry, so who's stopping me LMAO. anyway yeah but that would be when he was 18-19. if we're not including jeremy tho, it's literally no one unless we're shipping in a thread

#˖ ♡ 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝒹𝒸𝒶𝓃𝑜𝓃. » modern tragedy ( michael afton )#f n a f /#i probably will establish who the friend of his was more at some point #i have Concepts in my head but not like. a name LMAO #anyway if u write liz tell me right now: did she pretend to not know abt the crying?#did she acknowledge it but try to be nice? did she pretend to not know but act /suspiciously/ nice?#did she make fun of him? it's okay i guarantee he's done something just as mean to her before HFKJSDHA #honestly my liz like. lowkey made fun of him but while actively bringing him like. his favorite snack or something.#she has a reputation to uphold she can't be too nice to him <- i'm kidding fjdsfhdsklfhsajkfl

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ladyseidr · 7 days

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JUST A LITTLE PSA FOR YOU

I don’t care when or if you reply to me. I write to develop a character that I adore. I write for ideas. I write for a lot of reasons but none of those are to do with you. I write for myself.

I care about you as a person not as a character. Sure, there is a moment when we first start writing where that line blurs and you are your character for a hot second. But that’s more fun and less bothersome- plus it only lasts until we start talking out of character or in the tags.

I don’t care about what we do on Tumblr NEARLY AS MUCH as I care about YOU so if you’re not feeling a reply? Fuck it. Don’t reply to it. Ever. We can always do another one, it’s fine. I’m gonna save my reply cause I worked on that and am proud of it but- whether or not you reply is not my concern. Because you have things going on that need taking care of. Because you have a life and health concerns and fucking crazy world issues that are going on, I get it.

I adore you, my friend. And friendship, to me, is not letting petty issues or feelings get in the way of the big picture.

#☽—— ⸢ psa ⸥#☽—— ⸢ reblog ⸥#love seeing stuff like this on my dash!!#like literally and if you decide you need to drop all threads / asks / etc and start fresh because it's what YOU need?#i love you and i'm proud of you for prioritizing what you need <3 #anyway kissing every mutual who i see reblog this on the mouth unless you're not into that fdshfkhjdshlsa #☽—— ⸢ queue ⸥

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ladyseidr · 8 days

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sentence starters from my wip fics, pt. II

please do not add to this list nor repost the list as your own. tw: mentions of murder, violence, manipulation

What do you even want with [ name ]?

It's been a year.

I'm afraid I couldn't tell you.

Don't take anything anyone asks you to do at face value.

You need to be careful, [ name ].

This is strictly professional.

I was told I would have a visitor today.

May I see your credentials?

But you're not here to discuss times long past, are you?

Memory is all I have.

Is this about the recent string of serial killings?

I was sent to learn from you.

We both have plenty of time.

To receive, you must also give.

I'll tell you about me, if you'll tell me about you.

Do you believe in fate?

You have a brilliant mind.

I studied psychology extensively.

Do you enjoy tormenting people?

I would not torment you.

Whoa, you sound stressed.

You know working into the night won't do you any good.

Shouldn't you be focused on your classes?

You'll be graduating soon.

[ They're / she's / he's ] a master manipulator.

You're realizing something, aren't you?

Multiple people are going missing.

So, [ she's / he's / they're ] escalating. Why?

I don't decide who lives or dies.

I'm not taking interviews.

Maybe we shouldn't talk about this right now.

You're staring.

I needed to stock up while I stay nearby for a few days.

Do you have dogs?

I can't help if I don't have the full picture.

I could give you the recipe for the sauce for the ribs. It really boosts the flavor.

Can't this wait until after dinner?

What's so funny?

I'm not here to discuss my mental state.

I'm afraid I've been too busy to catch up on news.

You're not what I expected.

Did you call only to accuse me of being manipulative?

You think I'm being paranoid.

It was a calculated risk, believe me.

I'm surprised you read the tabloids.

Being kind isn't always manipulation.

You're looking kinda queasy.

You didn't do anything wrong.

We both could be in danger.

Do you fear death?

That's what you want, isn't it? To be in control?

What do you gain by being here?

[ He's / they're / she's ] toying with you.

You're quite feisty.

Was it difficult to slip back into a fantasy? To return to playing a part?

To you, everyone is either a lamb doomed for slaughter or a play thing.

I'm going to get you out of here, okay?

You're tough as nails. You're going to be fine.

I told you not to do this alone.

Don't you think the hospital makes enough money without you buying their mediocre bouquets?

You saved my life.

I think we can be useful to each other.

You'll get a shiny new placard on your door to say that you faced down two serial killers and survived.

We're both haunted. I saw it the first time we met.

I'm not much the artistic type.

Every kill will cling to your mind. You just grow. . . accustomed.

Are you always this vague?

What's in it for you?

'Slaughter' is a strong word.

You're using yourself as bait.

It really claws its way into your brain.

You talk like I'm a burden.

My personal life isn't a story to be told.

I can have you out of here in minutes.

I can let you sink or swim.

You're not capable of that.

I can portray you as mysterious and intimidating or as charming and disarming.

That almost sounded like a compliment.

I haven't been getting much sleep.

Something's wrong here. This doesn't make sense.

You look like hell. What happened back there?

Some might say this is a conflict of interest.

I've been waiting so long.

How would you feel if I said your [ spouse / partner ] would be better off without you?

This is a trap.

What's the fun in that?

I've lived somewhere like this once.

How did you know that?

Your sense of justice has been warped.

It changed you, but you can still come back.

You're to be my masterpiece.

They don't understand me like you do.

I will be the perfect Psyche to your Cupid.

I can make it quick and painless.

Are you any good with stitches?

In this day and age, it's impossible to escape that kind of scrutiny.

I want to be witness to what comes from this.

How would your [ spouse ] feel about you feigning a marriage with someone else?

I can't tell in what way you're being rude, but I know it's rude.

I thought you of all people would be capable of improvising, [ name ].

You don't want to see me improvise, [ name ].

It seems you've been abandoned.

I would suggest keeping yours wits about you.

I let emotion get the better of me.

I can't just let you leave here.

I'm not easy to persuade. Apparently I'm stubborn.

I've never seen you bite your tongue before.

I always wanted to visit Berlin.

It's a lovely morning, isn't it?

Survival isn't what it's all cracked up to be.

#☽—— ⸢ meme ⸥#murder tw #violence tw #ask to tag /

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ladyseidr · 8 days

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fn.af thread types i need more of:

how have i never written anything along the lines of "muse a and muse b are trapped in fre.ddy's together at night" like ?????

y'all's anim.atronics bullying michael or jeremy during the night shift

my animatroni.cs ( esp bon.nie, toy bon.nie, or chi.ca ) bullying y'all's night guards ( or similar )

more golden fre.ddy GODS i love writing golden fre.ddy

just more spoopy horror threads in general!!

#☽—— ⸢ ooc ⸥#f n a f /#.tbd.

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ladyseidr · 8 days

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reblog if it's okay for mutuals to just tag you in random meme replies. this means you might not have sent one in but your mutual could see a prompt from a meme, think of your muses together, and write a response to the meme for you as though you did you send it in. "@[user] did not send "[meme]" from [link to meme] but here is a reply anyway" style.

this does mean you need to be ok with a little bit of godmodding in this context as the other mun has to choose what your character says/does to be able to write the response!

#☽—— ⸢ reblog ⸥#☽—— ⸢ psa ⸥#oh i love this!! anybody is def free to do this!!

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ladyseidr · 9 days

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send in " brushing of hands " to see the receiver's reaction to the sender gently and purposefully brushing their hand against the receiver's (not actually holding it, but sending clear signals that they would like to!)

#☽—— ⸢ meme ⸥

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ladyseidr · 9 days

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every time i think abt william being a sort-of decent father when the kids were younger i take -50 damage

#☽—— ⸢ ooc ⸥#f n a f /#.tbd.#was gonna post this on will's blog but i'm thinking abt the kids sm rn #like he has really REALLY genuinely good memories with his father. that's the shitty part.#and gods if elizabeth survives in an AU she has to come to the slow realization that her father is full of shit (at best)#and poor evan. tbh i think he's distinctly aware of william's flaws from a younger age #HOWEVER that's mostly a consequence of MY portrayal and prob wouldn't track when writing with other williams #(my william's favorite is michael before The Bite. yes i know.)#also once again adding that i'm not suggesting my william was ever a TRULY good father. it's never that simple with him lmao #anyway shakes my af.ton kids at ppl. who wants to write with them fdkfhskfdahf

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ladyseidr · 9 days

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realized i don't have any fake dating ( or similar vibe ) dynamics and like?? i need to change that immediately fdkshfkahsdaj

#☽—— ⸢ ooc ⸥#.tbd.

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ladyseidr · 12 days

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desperate need to write completely-in-denial-about-his-bisexuality college-aged henry. like no his relationship with his best friend is completely platonic <- they've made out 5 times and fooled around at least once.

#☽—— ⸢ ooc ⸥#f n a f /#suggestive #internalized homophobia tw #.tbd.#the morning after they fooled around he absolutely turned full asshole as a coping mechanism #and pulled a 'this never happened we are never mentioning this again i don't even like men'#and then spent the next 30 years pretending he didn't want to rail william senseless #mind you he accepts his bisexuality in his late 20s but by then he's already like. with anna / mrs. em.ily #anyway for the love of the gods somebody help this man (or don't LMAO)

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ladyseidr · 14 days

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@florietiae asked: ❝ screw it. i'm going to class in my pajamas. / from rae, for henry! bc we need more college au stuff. ❞

The comment brought Henry clear pause, a flicker of surprise passing over his face. "Wait, can we do that?" It wasn't something he could see himself doing—too concerned about misstepping and drawing undue attention to himself. Still: "Guess I always thought that was a joke." A pause. Then, the hint of a smile. "You should do it."

"I'd prefer just not going at all." He still would, but he could complain nonetheless. "I think I could use the day off. Or the week."

#☽—— ⸢ ask ⸥#f n a f /#˖ ☼ 𝒸𝒽. » ( henry emily )#☆ —— verse ↳ b e f o r e t h e f a l l.#((me? writing? fdjfkhjasdlfh sorry no but i LOVE them already))#☽—— ⸢ queue ⸥

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ladyseidr · 16 days

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#☽—— ⸢ reblog ⸥#☽—— ⸢ psa ⸥#i know this was for writblr but i feel like a ton of ppl need to hear this here too <3 #( myself included )#btw this includes ppl i don't talk to ooc like this includes everybody!!#☽—— ⸢ queue ⸥

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ladyseidr · 16 days

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oh my gods i was working on said render ( or, er, step 1 of 200 ) and trying to decide on The Look or whatever and i'm going through potential logos for michael's top and literally laughed out loud when this was like option 12 on an otherwise Not Suited To Him piece

#☽—— ⸢ ooc ⸥#f n a f /#.tbd.#PLEASEEEE #''he would own this hoodie'' bitch he would HAND-MAKE this hoodie #this is not going to be the render outfit but rest assured it will be used somehow fkdshfhdksj

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ladyseidr · 17 days

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putting "jayne writes articles, poetry, and makes art for a lesbian zi.ne" under my completely-irrelevant-to-anything headcanon list

#☽—— ⸢ ooc ⸥#f n a f /#.tbd.#and she definitely was involved with the initial creation of that specific zi.ne #vaguely related but i think jayne and michael (if your mike is artistic since that tends to be common due to the logbo.ok)#should bond over art. i think she saved up to buy him a really nice set of [insert his favorite medium here] for his birthday #i think she should teach him techniques and be this really amazing connection not just to art but queer art in particular for him #like i said. jayne on the mind. fdsjdshsajksl

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ladyseidr · 17 days

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au where elise actually does fight for custody and gets the kids instead of william. "oh, so they don't get traumatized?" oh good hel no, they just get less traumatized by their less shitty parent

#☽—— ⸢ ooc ⸥#f n a f /#.tbd.#(yeah i did start to write 'good heavens' and changed it to hel FKHDFKLSD)#tbh this would not be a happy au but it is interesting!#elise is not suited to raising 3 kids on her own like i'm sorry she would parentify michael EVEN MORE than william #like is she more loving and will they all survive with her as their primary guardian? yes. will it be good? absolutely not.#also tbh this is the one scenario where my william would consider killing her so like. yikes.#his wife taking full custody of the kids is his limit. for my william at least #anyway sorry again to the af.ton children for ensuring both their parents suck to various degrees

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ladyseidr · 18 days

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Back at it again.

Togami realizing, to his horror, he's made friends

#˖ ♡ 𝓈𝓉𝓊𝒹𝓎. » unrealized heir ( byakuya togami )#d r /#crazy over this btw fkdshahfdks #☽—— ⸢ queue ⸥

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ladyseidr · 19 days

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standing in the open doorway of my blog. the fn.af hyperfixation is creeping back in ( not that it ever fully left ).

#☽—— ⸢ ooc ⸥#f n a f /#.tbd.#listen i've been taking a much-needed break from the rp side of tumblr #(usually my breaks consist of lurking and stressing out abt getting back. so like. not breaks.)#so yeah i haven't even been lurking BUT i miss y'all #i do wanna get back here but it's gotta be on my brain's terms #like. i NEED to focus on rping because i genuinely love it and not because Somebody Might Hate Me For Being Slow / Inactive #but yeah expect me lurking more again + maybe posting ooc / hc stuff #as for actual writing: we'll see!! hopefully soon because i miss it but i'm not gonna make promises #esp because i've been busy lately too #in the meantime i'm active on my personal and si.ms blog if anybody wants to urls #+ feel free to message me on dis.cord

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