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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 3 hours

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she has utterly bewitched me

#bobot #ur doing sooooo good #shaped beast #rlly 3d #Promo #ultrakill

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 3 hours

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Four slots though as of now there's only three left!! Get one at my Kofi riight here!! > [x]

#KIKI COMMS #GO GET THEMMMMM THEIR ART IS PHENOMENAL #promo #commissions

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 3 hours

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Hmmmm

Art req: make sunny n butter meet a rw character of your choice! Or slugify them?

WOAH i didnt expect a req involving my ocs... im so happy....

thank you for the req!!!

#cutiesssss #promo

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 3 hours

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Even if I didn’t have a solid plan, in the back of my head, I always assumed I’d kill myself.

Now I’m an adult and people my age have their lives in order and I’m stuck here, confused, because I never planned to be alive and I’m so far behind.

I feel like I’ll never catch up.

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 3 hours

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Powerful anti-procrastination spell

#prev: ksenya #MEEEEEEEEE?????#ig we shall throw this at each other

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 6 hours

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What I Want You To Know About Long COVID

Well lads, I've been suffering from Long COVID for over a year now. My life is at a complete standstill. I'm 25 years old and I'm too sick to go back to school, I can't work, I had to move back in with my parents and I'm still stuck here.

Here are just a few things I wish people knew about Long COVID, including things I didn't know myself until I got it.

COVID destroys your immune system. Yes, even if you don't have Long COVID. Are you getting sick more often now? When you get sick, does it last longer? There are many studies showing that COVID causes t cell depletion, even in mild COVID cases! T cells are how your body remembers how to fight off infections you've had before so losing those cells? Bad news.

Your initial infection can be mild and you can still get Long COVID. Right from Yale Medicine, "Most people with Long COVID had mild acute COVID." (This is also a good link for a basic Long COVID overview).

There can be a gap of time between when you "get better" from the initial COVID infection to the onset of Long COVID symptoms. Some people get sick with an initial COVID infection and never get better. Some get better and then weeks or months later start developing Long COVID symptoms. Long COVID symptoms can even fluctuate over time, can go away for months and then suddenly come back.

So many people have Long COVID and don't realize it. Do you feel more tired lately but no matter how much you sleep, nothing helps? Is it harder to concentrate at work or school? Can you just not think like you used to? You could have Long COVID and not even know it. Even mild post-COVID symptoms are still Long COVID.

COVID can do anything to your body. Long COVID has over 200 recognized symptoms and can affect basically any part or system of your body. There is no one mechanism or cause of Long COVID which unfortunately also means there's no one cure either.

The effects of COVID are cumulative. Each COVID reinfection increases your chances of developing Long COVID. COVID is also affecting your body in other ways, yes, even if you're otherwise young and healthy! "Repeat COVID-19 infections increase risk of organ failure, death".

Once you have Long COVID, repeat COVID infections will make your symptoms worse. "80% [of Long COVID patients] saw their symptoms worsen [from reinfection]. In 60% of people who were in recovery or remission from Long COVID, reinfection caused a recurrence of Long COVID."

There is a lot more I want to say about Long COVID but I want to keep this post at least somewhat manageable to read. Like how when COVID is contracted during pregnancy, those COVID-exposed fetuses have a 6.3-fold increased risk of motor developmental delays, or that another study found 50% of babies exposed to COVID in utero had developmental delays.

You need to keep caring about COVID, for others around you and also for yourself even if you're "healthy". Everyone is at risk. And don't forget 40-60% of COVID infections are asymptomatic, which is why masking even if you feel fine is crucial. The only way right now to not get Long COVID is to not get COVID in the first place. It's not too late, if you've stopped masking it's never too late to start again! I know it's easy to get distracted by things in your life that seem more real than the possibility of getting sick some time in the future, and the peer pressure to not mask can be intense. But it only feels less real or less important until your entire life is having Long COVID. Trust me.

I know this is a complicated issue, many people can't afford to stay home when sick even if they want to because of their jobs, there are disgusting policies trying to ban wearing masks, but please if you can. Keep masking. Masking works, masking saves lives.

This post got a bit longer than I wanted so below the cut is a non-exhaustive list of my Long COVID symptoms and some of my experiences as one of the "healthy young people" who got "unlucky". cw brief mention of suicidal ideation.

Welcome to the Thunderdome that is my body with Long COVID. Keep in mind these are just my experiences and symptoms, Long COVID can cause any range of symptoms at varying severities.

Dysautonomia: Exercise intolerance, Post-Exertional Malaise (PEM), fatigue, and heat intolerance. What do those things mean? Here's some specific examples. Absolutely terrible circulation I am so cold all the time but also, if I get a little too warm I will pass out. Eating hot food makes my heart rate spike, I sweat, my body feels heavy. Blood pooling and pins and needles in my feet when I walk. Don't even think about exercising past walking, it's impossible. I used to work out an hour a day 4 times a week and now walking up one flight of stairs makes my heart pound and I can't breathe. Can't take even just warm showers anymore or I will pass out. Heat rashes from being in the sun for 10 minutes.

Digestive issues: Honestly too many to name but: constant bloating, extreme nausea, constipation, slow motility, lack of appetite, just so much cramping and pain. I lost 18 pounds from Long COVID, as someone who was already considered underweight their entire life, and almost had to get a shunt put into my chest to deliver nutrients because I was nearly completely unable to eat. For the first 6 months of Long COVID, if I could manage 600 calories a day, that was a good day.

Histamine intolerance: Oh boy. My worst symptoms, I don't even know where to start with it. If you know Mast Cell Activation Syndrome (MCAS) it's very similar. I can only eat 19 foods. If i eat a single bite of something not on that list, it's 48 hours of absolute hell. Coughing, migraines, itchy eyes, such extreme nausea I cannot even describe it, panic/feeling of doom, racing heart rate, derealization, rash, uncontrollable muscle tremors. I only learned about histamine intolerance 5 months into having Long COVID so before that, I was experiencing these symptoms nearly every single day. Terrifying isn't even a strong enough word to describe how it felt to experience all this and have no idea what it was, how to stop it, or if it would ever stop. Really dark times.

Neurological issues: More of that derealization. Inability to concentrate. Anxiety. OCD-like symptoms such as thoughts getting "stuck" in my head, repeating 24/7 completely unable to stop them, genuinely felt like my brain had cracked open and I had lost my mind. Constant dizziness like I'm on a boat.

Sleep issues: I sleep like garbage. I have insomnia, I wake up dozens of times every night and every single time I sleep I have intensely vivid dreams. I can't sleep longer than 7 hours total no matter how exhausted I am. It is exhausting. I'm exhausted, I'm so so tired.

And finally. Just. Really intense suicidal ideation. My body, my health, my entire life has been stolen from me because someone else decided my life was worth less to them than wearing a mask or staying home if they feel sick. Before I got Long COVID, I was preparing to go to South Korea to teach English, then on to a PhD in neurolinguistics, I was supposed to meet my long distance partner and had already booked plane tickets when I got sick. All of that has been destroyed.

Most of us with Long COVID are stuck in a cycle of being extremely sick, then if you're lucky you'll slowly get better over months, just to get reinfected and go right back where you started or worse. Honestly, I'm not scared of dying from COVID. I'm scared of living for a long time, suffering from Long COVID the entire time. This isn't living.

I don't know how to end this now. I'm still fighting, I'm trying experimental treatments, I'm not giving up yet. I hope everyone reading this stays healthy and well.

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 7 hours

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Hi, big Rain World sale for the next few days. Please play funny survival simulation game, it's fun.

Screenshot is from the official discord.

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 8 hours

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The Iranian Regime is going to execute rapper Toomaj Salehi for supporting protests of Jina Amini’s murder by the regime in his songs.

Iranian activist Elica Le Bon says, “Iranians in the diaspora picked up on the fact that the regime tends not to execute people who become known to the international community. We have seen many examples of prisoners that were either released on bail or had their sentences commuted through our “say their names to save their lives” campaign on social media, using hashtags to garner attention for their causes, and even before social media existed, through getting the stories of political prisoners to international media outlets. Once reported on, and once the eyes shift to the regime and the reality of its pending brutality, realizing that the action is not worth the repercussions, we have seen them back down and not execute. For that reason, this is part of an urgent campaign for readers to talk about Toomaj as much as you can, using the hashtag #FreeToomaj or #ToomajSalehi. Every comment makes a difference, and if we were wrong, what did we lose by trying?”

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 8 hours

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NOBODY IS FREE UNTIL EVERYONE IS FREE!

Resources to help various countries!

~ RESOURCE LINKS TO HELP PALESTINE ~

Here's a very BIG thread of helpful resources to help Congo, Sudan, Yemen etc !!!

~~ RESOURCE LINKS TO HELP VARIOUS COUNTRIES ~~ <- including a petition, to educate yourself and charities/organizations!

the thread above does not include Ukraine and Armenia sadly, so i found some links from diff tweets, It took a while to search it but i found it !

~ RESOURCES LINKS TO HELP UKRAINE ~ ~ RESOURCES LINKS TO HELP ARMENIA ~

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 1 day

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Okay here’s one for what character are YOU (instead of who’s ur bestie)

#ofc im laios. ofc #anyway walks of boobily to draw my fursone making a big stretch and flying off into outer space

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 1 day

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RSL represent (ppl r welcome to mention of one handed sign for 112 in ur country is same or similar)

RSL SWEEEEEEP!!! AUEHGGH THEY’RE BOTH SO CUTES IM GOING TO START RUNNING LAPS AROUND THE HOUSE!! oh my god so fluffy … Like a furby. to me

#lit tle gyus #Hollow Knight #THK #Ghost #My doodles #tysmmmmm i recently decided im making the bugs Fluffier

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 1 day

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#ITS MEEE #eepy

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 1 day

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#i shower once in 2 days. sometimes in 3 #showers are rlly energy consuming to me idk whats up w tjat #also they are like upwards from 20 minutes bc i gotta wash me hair

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 2 days

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When Descent learns of Flowers' involvement in Fire's demise, it is the last straw and she knows she can't stay with him any longer.

mmmmmmmmmm theres probably so much to fix here but i Really REALLY just want it to be done. another behemoth comic and as always its not a very fun one. here we see the most volatile her relationship with flowers ever got, peaking in an act of violence on flowers' end

it was. straining, to say the least, to draw her hurting so badly so this one took a long time to work on. i had to take multiple breaks, haha. i hope you guys can get some enjoyment out of it anyways????? atleast we can all be happy knowing that this is it for her having to deal with him! (until later when rivers happens but weve got a couple hundred years its fine)

#ok actually. reblogs this.#even tho it needs rightfully a bajillion tws bc its drawn n written so good #abuse #tw abuse #Domestic abuse #tw domestic abuse #tw violence #violence #vulgar #cw vulgar #swearing #tw swearing #promo #hggffrgf #flowers you are a piss boy and have to do some more throwing urself off the roof. enrichment for guys like you #domestic violence #tw domestic violence #tw suicide bait #suicide bait

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 2 days

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More under cut

Bonus:

GET SOME THERAPY

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 2 days

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The best drawing advice I can give to anyone who wants to improve quickly is to use cheap notepad paper and ballpoint pens. I know it's tempting to buy the cool fancy supplies but then you'll feel pressured to not waste them. Use garbage materials and burn through them with zero thought. Only use pen because it forces you to commit and stops you from second guessing your lines and redrawing them over and over. Learn how to use your mistakes and then learn how to get it right the first time. I took numerous art classes and nothing taught me more than buying a big pack of Bics and legal pads and sketching anything that came to mind without hesitation. Fill a few pages everyday with the first thing that comes to mind. Don't rip out pages you don't like, just flip to the next page and try again. Watch yourself improve. If you really want to be a good artist, you need to learn how to draw from the ground up without relying on quality materials.

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ksenya-and-the-artistic-cucumber · 2 days

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Dungeon meshi characters but they are in random poses I saved on pinterest

#YAYYYYYYYY #senshi #dungeon meshi

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