me: *looks at my boy for even a second*

me: my sweet boy, my baby boy, my honey boy, my darling boy, my pretty boy, my boy whomst i love dearly, my treasure boy, my angel boy, my handsome boy, lovely boy of mine, my lover boy, my beloved boy, my perfect boy, my precious boy, my dear boy, my good boy, the best boy that happens to be my boy, my

i need to be sedated bc i can't stop thinking abt that image i reblogged earlier 🥴🥴 i need diego in a collar, on the floor, looking up at me POSTHASTE

look i have NO idea if 'devil's advocate' by the neighbourhood is supposed to be a sexy song or not but i cannot listen to it without imagining diego putting it on while we're in his car getting nasty 😩

what if your gf was wrong?

i'd reshape reality to make her right

please be nice to me unless youre being mean in a hot way

the eroticism of finger sucking

pissing each other off as foreplay

almost freaked out bc i thought it was dinokat anniversary today but NO LOL ITS 5/20 i still have a month

also just from an "opposites attract" standpoint.. we are complimentary colors (he is soooo orange-coded to me.. and i am blue ofc), we have the whole sun and moon dynamic thing going for us, his personality is very different from mine, i think our differences make us so good for each other.... or something...

also i haven't messaged anyone yet bc im not even sure if it's something people would be interested in, but. i was hoping to do some art of my friends and their f/o's attending diego and i's wedding 🥺 nothing huge bc i can't overwhelm myself but i think it would be fun... as like a "hey thanks for indulging me and my silly fantasy world".. it's a fall wedding so i have a while but i know i gotta start planning now bc i lose track of time so fast

i love this dumbass so much I KNOW HE'S NOT REAL but he's so important to me .. in so many ways.. some of the most difficult things i've ever had to learn in my life have been self-love and allowing myself to have standards and, while i'm still lightyears away where i should be in these aspects, selfshipping has done wonders for me in both these avenues. i've spent so much of my life believing i'm not worth anything.. but allowing myself to imagine this fantasy world where i am engaged to this perfect man who could have literally anybody in the world that he wants?? and he chooses ME?? that's nuts

i think that's why i've always preferred taking diego and putting him in my world as opposed to creating a self-insert or an oc ?? because for me personally it's all about learning to tell myself that me, kat, as i am, flaws and everything, is worthy of something beautiful and genuine and unshakeable... idk im just very emotional rn and having a difficult month and often it helps to imagine this stupid man standing firm next to me no matter what bc he thinks i'm worth it or whatever. UGH. loss and abandonment are so prominent in my life. but as silly as it might sound selfshipping does ease the anxiety at least a little bit. i love my stupid brain boyfriend

...........can i talk abt dinokat for a minute 😭

...........can i talk abt dinokat for a minute 😭

what do you mean he's fictional, we sleep in the same bed every night

oh boy when my fictional man hears about what you did you are all done for