Finlay in a good place in my head, where I get to conquer some of my biggest fears I still got left.

But first, some nice lunch and hanging out with friends, because that is one of the biggest things in life one should do. Find people you can vibe with and keep them close. When you got that, all other shit that comes your way, isn’t all that important, and whatever it may be, it will pass, so yeah, beenn in a good mental state for a bit and I like it.

every time i even start to consider applying for a job that is even close to something I wan’t to do in life I get so fucking depressed, because i know i’m not the only one who wants it and there will always be someone better or more experienced, even tho that may only be true on paper. A fucking piece of paper max of two A4 pages that defines you. 

One is tempted to just go sit in a corner and slowly dissolve out of existence.

New #ROSTFRAJ new #artwork Got some exciting music to play, tuning in is recommended 🎵 🌵💚 (at Radio Študent 89,3 MHz)

I may not have a dream job or shit loads of money, but my bills are paid, I grow strawberries and tomatoes on my windowsill, which is annoying the shit out of my neighbors, and I have a set of brilliant friends that make my tiny existence great.

So fuck this whole millennial bullshit, and tel them old folks to fucking retire already so us can have a go at our lives.

Wow! What a nice surprise, I really did not see this coming so soon! #scumfuckflowerboy #tylerthecreator #vinyl #cassette

Get a job, lose the will to live.

So yeah, not much happening in my life. Apart from intensely thinking about how I want my career to go.

I have a job. Minimum wages. Which is fucking ridiculous. But on the other hand i make just enough to get by, pay the rent, buy food and maybe something not to expensive. But I have to plan that shit in advance.

So yeah, as I am working my menial job, that mostly demands physical endurance from me, I have time to reflect and contemplate and think about what I really want. Do I want to work in a firm, be their in house designer and deal with all kind of stupid shit and become dead inside, or do I want to give it a go and establish myself as a creative force. I don’t know. But I know I am happy when I’m design shit for myself. Anyways yeah.. still searching my place in this whole situation.. and my head hurts. should have put my hood on earlier, when I was walking in the cold.

#prince

No.

I don’t f-ing think so. I may not be to keen on identifying myself as a feminist, but I guess I am one none the less. Because listening to this song, it just made me cringe. Because basically what I got from this song is, guurrrl, u got to stay ready for that man to come along and marry u and get u pregnant and expect u to perform your wifely duties, while he is of on a business trip or something like that.

And I’m just like nope. Not going to happen. I ain’t staying ready for no one. If I am going to wear yoga pants I will do it for myself, because I want to do something beneficial for my body and my soul. If I want to be fit It’s because I intend to live for 120 years, not because I am waiting for a man.

So yeah, this song is shit and Beyonce totally did it first. Surely I’m not the only one who gets a strong Beyonce vibe out of it?

Every lady needs her tools.

Downer

one of those days. I try my best to avoid them and not to give in to the bad feelings of not being good enough. But trying to make it, trying to get out of this safe zone of having a job that pays the rent and puts food in front of my computer. It’s hard. And it’s hard to keep ones spirits up, when one is constantly overlooked and ignored.

Life is not a perfect yoga pose by Sofija Leron Via Flickr: it's the the struggle you go trough to reach that perfect yoga pose.

Scorpion by Sofija Leron

#selfie by Sofija Leron

Pečina by Sofija Leron Via Flickr: Taken with a disposable film camera.