I want to go home

Whatever today is at whatever time is the time i realized i made a big mistake :)) love it

I fit in bks size 0 jeans tonight so that’s crazy

Why’s it so easy to want to quit smoking when I’m high and so hard when I’m sober

I know i need to make big changes to my life in order to feel better and be happier but like where the hell do i start

Teach me to not want to die

When you text your kinda best friend who doesn’t actually like you but will fake it until she dies to see what she’s doing so maybe you can stop thinking about killing myself and she ignore you bc like i said she doesn’t actually like you hahaha

I have no real friends anymore

Ethan, I’m so sorry. I miss you every single day and will never forgive myself for what i did to our relationship. You are the most amazing person i have ever met and I’m sorry i ever made you feel like less

I WANT TO BE DEAD

Except i sometimes straight up say I’m not okay and i need help and still nobody really cares

my toxic trait : i hurt in silence and pray that someone loves me enough to notice i’m not being myself

So tired of wanting to be dead everyday

Today was a ride of emotions but here i am hating myself and wishing i wasn’t alive :) what the hell

We went out for Hans bday and it was fun but now I’m back home and am so over life

I wish i could die without it effecting my brothers lives

This times different for some reason and it’s killing me bro

Wake up and count down the hours until the days over again

Why is it that some days i wake up and feel great and some days all i want to do is die