Happy ALIEN Day to those who celebrate

Vader is ready for color!

Live in 10! Working on a Darth Vader drawing:

Thank you friend. I am doing okay. I had a frustrating day at home and work with lots of issues but I have blown off my steam accordingly and feel more myself again. I could physically feel myself relaxing as I wrote out my post. Just gotta exorcise the proverbial demons some time, you know? Maybe that's what having a muse is all about. Letting it all out in a productive (rather than destructive) way.

I just get so, so frustrated and angry and stressed and it feels like every nerve in my body is red and ready to explode but I was the product of people who did explode and lash out at the people they were supposed to care about and I know that I have to be better so sometimes I just blast my violent music super loud and have all these fantasies about fictional evil cunts who would give in to those feelings and NEVER make the choice I have to make which is to let the rage pass through and simmer out and actively choose kindness every time.

And sometimes I think that's what the dark side of the Force would look like in real life. Letting your passions, even your righteous and well-placed anger turn you into a nihilist, misanthropic, miserable person. Someone who cuts someone off in traffic or yells at a stranger because they are agitated with something else. Someone who wants to start a fight when their partner has made them unhappy, instead of trying to understand. Someone who thinks its okay to scream at or hit a child for making a mistake.

I cannot become the people that made me. Maybe that's why the Inquisitors appeal to me so much as characters. It's a warning. They were all Jedi once. Presumably once decent people who gave in to those little angers one by one until it turned them into something evil. I see and I feel temptations within myself to scream, to get revenge for every little injustice, but I refuse to let those feelings win.

I have to eat, to shower, to write out and draw my passions, to zone out to the heavy music, sometimes to engage in a little "me" time. And bit by bit, the rage falls away. I tuck a little piece away inside of every drabble, every drawing, every sigh. The passion is there, I've released it from my mind, and so I become free from it. I don't hurt anymore, and I don't hurt the people around me. I am not a part of that darkness. I am not the people who made me.

tfw someone mentions your hyperfixation <3

Played with adding some colors to this sketch of Barriss .

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a favorite scene + color palette challenge

= much fun much challenge <3

Finally finished the damn sweater

(Sort of. Still need to weave in ends and block.)

This week's shop drop includes Sabine and Barriss!

Happy #starwarsday Grievous, one of my favorite characters in the entire franchise.

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Your wish is my command! Come join the Sinquisitorius!

Is there like an inquisitor discord or something? Where are we ballin?

Get drop kicked, idiot

(Who else is ready to see her again???)

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!!! I'll work on one later today, then

Is there like an inquisitor discord or something? Where are we ballin?

Was not able to stream tonight BUT I did eventually cobble together something maybe usable as a sketch. Going to try playing a little more with the motion blur and lining it some other time.