food diary 4-19-20

a sip of panara coffee-5 cals

a bite of fruit- 4 cals

salad- 20 cals

total- 29 cals

i went for a 2 mile hike with no sleep or food. honestly feeling great

when it’s gotten to the point other peaple throwing up triggers u

omg i’m in tears, i was just able to put to fingers around my wrist i’m sorry happy

Food diary day 1 4/18/20

breakfast- 0 calories

lunch- 0 calories

snack- salt & vinegar chips- 150 calories

dinner- coffee- 1 calories

so far i lost a Chihuahua

🌺thought this was interesting🌺

all those calories u ate are more to loose

Reblog this with a reason not to binge

fasting, a summary

stomach: empty

bladder: full 

wallet: safe

just hopped on the scale and i’m 158.8!!!! i was 163.8 yesterday so i lost 5 pounds!!!!!!! omg if i keep going i can loose so much weight by next friday!!!

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i love how they say fasting gets rid of addiction BITCH WTF WHATS A EATING DISORDER THEN

me: earings a cup of ice

ana: WTF WHY WOULD U DO THAT UR SO FUCKING FAT LITERALLY STARVE FAT BITCH

me: e_e

y’all have diet plans?

Why I won’t “Just eat”

♡Hearing people ask, “Have you lost weight?’

♡Watching the numbers drop on the scale

♡Seeing my mom look proud when I tell her I need smaller pants

♡Looking and feeling healthier

♡Being the skinny friend

♡People asking for the ‘secret’ to how I lost weight

♡Seeing my collarbones and a gap between my thighs

♡Pulling off any outfit

♡Looking graceful when I dance

♡Wrapping my pinky and thumb around my wrist and still having room

♡To look in a mirror and not feel like crying

♡Thigh high socks and boots

♡The flat stomach

♡Not being embarrassed when I say my weight

♡Avoiding the feeling of regret I always have after eating

♡Seeing people stare as I walk down the hall to class

♡Hearing people talk about how skinny i’ve gotten behind my back

♡Big sweaters engulfing my body

♡Feeling confident 

♡Becoming thinspo, instead of just reblogging it ♡Stay safe angels♡

My workout routine 😁

once a day if fasting, 3 times a day if i eat my regular calorie amount (300 cals)

Stomach

🌹30 second plank

🌹20 side hip plank

🌹30 bicycle crunch’s

🌹25 side crunches (both sides)

🌹20 knee to elbow planks

🌹25 hip raises

Booty/legs 🍑🍑🍑

💧50-100 squats

💧20 lunges (each leg)

💧40 leg raises (each leg)

💧25 calf raises (each leg)

💧50 hip raises

Cardio 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

🔥 150 jumping jacks

🔥20 burpees

i hate posts that are like ‘just don’t eat, it’s that simple’ like no tf it’s not. hunger pains, cravings, dizziness, headaches, feeling cold 24/7, weakness, and literally passing out???! non of that is simple. i mean it’s like saying ‘just don’t breath, it’s that simple’. don’t think people who starve themselves have it easy and you’re weak for not being able to, i promise it’s not easy even if they make it seem like it is by saying ‘it’s that simple’. it’s hell. and i only listed the first things you’ll experience, there’s way more consequences to starving yourself.

honestly, even though this is the first day of restricting i feel like i can do it for ever, if i just focas on the outcome i can do it, i made letters for when i hit a certain weight. somone of them are nice and supportive but the other ones are aggressive but i feel like it will be fine and somthjng i can look forward to