Every drop of this rain made me feel you, your presence near me. The carving I have for you is so real... The love in my heart for you is so unreal. Idk how to be with you my love. My eyes crave to see you. My hands are shivering with just your memories. I want you to be in love with me. 💔

“Someday, someone is going to look at you with a light in their eyes you’ve never seen, they’ll look at you like you’re everything they’ve been looking for their entire lives. Wait for it.”

— Unknown

It becomes difficult to share when you are someone who cares about your akhirah...

People do judge and moreover we don't need anymore witnesses of our sins.

Maybe we should never see each other. Maybe we should move on. May be we should just pray. Maybe we need to grow apart to be together as a perfect match ❤️

I had a hope that we can be together maybe you just needed time to figure out things there. But now ļ have no hopes I cannot keep hopes. That one text you sent me is now my everything. Before I read your text I prayed, I prayed to my rabb that it should be something good for me and good for you.

I forgave you for everything that you did. But I still don't trust your reasons. You discovered every inch of my body but not even a single piece of my soul 💔

I can never get over the trauma that you gave me, instead I may not be able to see love like how I used to see. I think love with any other human is not a thing actually. Love is for the lord, the one who created this universe, every feelings I have in me is by his grace, subhan allah. Only He knows what I feel like and I want nobody else but him with me.

I am empty inside 💔 😔 I have nothing to offer but everything I can do I will do to make someone feel special ✨️ I won't give up on being a good person but I would never let anyone make me a fool now. In'sha'Allah.

I am hurt but Alhumdulillah I happy 🙂

How can I forget you when I don't want to let go any memories of you. You are now a part of my life. This pain is for lifetime I think. I am happy that there will be a time when I'll be free from this world not worrying about you, not thinking about my own self. But I would really be scared for my family after I leave. I am of no use to anyone but my fam. I need to drink the bitter truth and never let the bitterness of my sins touch my family. But I really want you with me but I won't ask and pray like that because I trust my lord he knows what's best for me.

It is really hard for me to explain how am I not over him but I am over it. My heart aches when I write this 💔

My dad died when I was just a year old in an accident so I never really know what and how a father's love is. I always thought in my head that if he was alive he would have loved me, take care of me, treat me like his small princess and I love him even though I don't know him in person. Lately I've been thinking of him and me and everything that has happened with me whole life. I always craved for someone who could treat me like a princess, like a baby but it never happened and it all scarred me badly now. I love my dad no matter what his done when alive, how he would be with us but I pray sincerely from my heart that he gets the highest ranks in jannah, may Allah swt forgive him, ameen ya rabb.

Dear pappa I know you are worried about me but please don't Allah is with us. I somehow know that you have forgiven me for all those silly decisions I made in life and love me no matter what. I really pray that I get to meet you in person when in jannah, I would hug tight, kiss your hand and talk to you for hours, I would make biryani and other food for you and I want you to compliment me for it. I will marry someone in your presence and you will play with your grandchildren. We will have a complete family in jannah and mummy will be really happy seeing you. In'sha'Allah. ❤️

I cannot understand how and why you are doing this thing to us. We were good together how did you not see.

Life may not be the same for all of us, but we are all going through something painful.

Nothing!!! Nothing in this world can replace you. You are special no matter what the situation is between us. I like the word "us". OMA it makes blush all of a sudden, it also makes my eyes wet and my voice grumpy. I cannot get over the fact that you've blocked me without any reason. Am I being ghosted or it's just a matter of time and you'll come back to me and say "I am sorry babe I was dealing with some things that were supposed to be removed from my life so that I could give you all of me"...

I wish I could just tell you that, "there will be a piece of you in me always and forever"

Probably you are missing me. MISSING!! may be you are thinking about me. Deep down in my gut I am feeling as if you still remember me and the way I made you feel. I hope you comeback. A simple sorry can fix everything I promise. You don't really need to say another word, I will forgive you in sec. I am ready for it. Please comeback. XO me.

How can I blame you for it. All that I have in me for you isn't your mistake, it is mine. I am the one keeping you in my prayers and thoughts and expecting you to realize... but why am I doing this to myself. Nobody's gonna feel hurt about all this other than me. It is actually me hurting my heart. I can feel the pain of my sore heart.

You are actually brave to break an innocent heart. I never deserved to be here in this state trying to conceal the pain in me, not showing it to anyone not even to my own self. But almighty knows it all... what you've done and what intentions you had and have. I still believe in us... no matter what I can't stop thinking about it. I don't know how to reach you but I certainly know that you don't want me to come to you. I want you to prove me wrong. You are so dear to me I can't express. I remember every single Sec. I can not forget. You have left so much of you in me and on me that I cannot get over. Please realize it yourself I can't tell you all this. I want you because I love you.

I am trying hard to keep trusting you. I really pray that I don't get betrayed. I've fallen so hard this time that there is guilt and regrets already. Your hard heart is what makes me grief. Everything just hurts me now. I am not ok but I cannot share it with anyone but you. And you choose to not talk to me. I might be wrong and overthinking this all, but you do not give me assurance, you never give. I am certain that you are not what I expected from almighty, but you are sent to me as gift I want to keep you no matter what. I just need you to talk to me, even if I don't understand I just want to be informed about everything that you are going through. Because we agreed to be Partners forever.