girl i didn't even know season 2 was out i cant believe they gave him lipstick eyeshadow AND eyelash extensions

ngl when i saw his character sheet for the donghua i was like "he needs to look more messy" but honestly the design grew on me... i love him having wild loose hair but the braid is so cute i really like it!!

i've always wondered how qi rong died since i don't remember it being specified in the novel (fitting, since his family didn't even care enough to wonder about his wellbeing lol) but my personal favorites are him being eaten by the xianle people or him, mad with hunger, ate someone and then died of starvation or sickness 💚

transferring some old but still important qi rong thoughts from his old blog to here:

˚ʚ ⁀➷ㅤ𝐎𝐍 𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐗𝐈𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐍:

HE REALLY, REALLY LOVED HIM!!!! pretty sure he still has affection lingering but at this point it’s so mixed with years of hatred and resentment it’s impossible to break it apart... honestly xie lian was always like a savior to him, so he held him up in the highest pedestal and thus the fall was painful for them both... like, he grew up with his dad abusing him and his mom, then with the shame of knowing he ruined his mother’s life simply by existing, therefore inciting the mockery and contempt of the people around him —before he officially became royalty or not—, so obviously he wasn’t in a good mental state. being taken in by his aunt was a type of salvation, but being acknowledged by xie lian (someone whom he admires so much, the one person qi rong didn’t believe weak, someone who would never be pushed down and ridiculed — hah!), becoming like xie lian, that, too, was salvation to him but................ his anger and his pain got the better of him and he went waaaaaayyy off into the wrong path. to me it seemed like his family just kinda gave up disciplining him, and i understand his aunt’s position: he’s her late sister’s child, not her own, she didn’t want to disrespect her memory by disciplining her son too strictly, so all she could do was give him a metaphorical slap on the wrist while he got away with worse and worse each time. xie lian was also very young himself, it wasn’t his job to control him, but it also made me really :’( to see how qi rong was always so excited to be with him and xie lian kinda brushed him off (sometimes with good reason, others...) taking a child’s toy away is just gonna make them throw a tantrum and get more aggressive; this happens every time qi rong gets reprimanded and “punished”. he got worse because no one really taught him any better, and if they did, they dubbed him a lost cause, but it really comes down to "a lot of things could’ve been avoided if his family had known how to treat him more appropriately" because back then he was just a child who dealt with his trauma in all the wrong ways until there was no turning back, and now he's just like this. me thinking abt how xie lian wanted to save everyone but qi rong wanted him to save him too and he Didn't: guess i'll die!

  ˚ʚ ⁀➷ㅤ𝐎𝐍 𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐓𝐈𝐓𝐋𝐄, 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐓𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆/𝐃𝐑𝐈𝐅𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐆𝐑𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐍:

personally i really like the sound of night drifting as opposed to night touring [green lantern] beccause drifting implies a lack of direction, gives a sense of wandering without real purpose, not knowing where you’re going but still walking, maybe because you’re being carried or pushed by an outer force, usually unseen. all of these really resonate with how qi rong refuses to see himself but are ultimately the way he is — he’s constantly drifting between who he is, who he thinks he is, and who he wants to be, which causes him to be all of those and yet none at all at the same time.  he has a very skewed view of himself, he gives off the vibe that he doesn’t even know who he is, so he imitates other people and to us spectators it makes him feel like he has a very fragile identity. who is he without the help or influence of others, directly or indirectly? who is he aside from his blood relation to xie lian, who is he without the tactless imitations of hua cheng and hei shui?  touring has somewhat different connotations than drifting, but touring does give off an air of not belonging to the places you’re visiting, which also fit qi rong really well!! he doesn’t belong with any of his family, not with the common people, not with the ghosts, obviously not the heavens either. no matter where he goes, he just does not belong anywhere.

˚ʚ ⁀➷ㅤ𝐎𝐍 𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐓𝐘:

him imitating the other calamities is the same shitty behaviour he used to have as a kid imitating xie lian because back then, to him, his cousin was the paragon of strength. he thought if he were to be more like xie lian he’d never be pushed down and mocked again, thus he desperately wanted to be like him (with all the wrong methods). qi rong hates feeling weak, it throws him back to the times he was a defenseless child who was beaten or ridiculed by everyone, so xie lian, who was strong and respected, was literally a god to him. of course, coupled with qi rong’s temper and lack of empathy and morals, that was just a recipe for disaster, and it carried over to him seeking strength via imitation of those whom he deems the strongest, because he never really learned how to do it himself.

˚ʚ ⁀➷ㅤ𝐎𝐍 𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐆𝐔 𝐙𝐈:

he doesn't fully realize it himself, but he's definitely attached to that kid. i joke about him loving his new son, but it IS the closest thing he's felt to loving someone and being loved back since he was a human child... and it is the first time he has family who loves him unconditionally. family who actually cares about him. i can't help but think that part of qi rong sees his old self in gu zi, because they both came from nothing and had abusive fathers. hell, gu zi's dad was so terrible that compared to him, gu zi thinks qi rong is kind. this definitely rattles qi rong in a way he's not used to, so while he's still an awful influence on the poor kid, he does canonically watch his behavior around him as to not cross the line and upset him. really does goes to show that all qi rong needed was a family who could both love him and be firm with him.

This was the second rebirth of Qi Rong. Until the last moment of his life, Qi Rong still clung to the sword that was given by his prince cousin, his god. The sword has protected him, this time must be OK. ─ ─The god was dead. He swears that this time he only lives for himself.

ngl sometimes i wanna write qi rong again.... insufferable stinky man.......

u know………… the worst thing is that zixuan would actually be a really good big brother if certain events played differently. even if we’ve only seen how he acts with his son and wife in tiny bits and pieces, this guy is a huge family man!!! a cheesy husband and a protective dad!!! 

with parents like his, it’s a given that he’s bound to feel some kind of void family-wise. his mom’s disgusted by his dad and makes no secret of it, his dad has a well-known reputation of being a womanizer, having other women all over him at home. i don’t doubt his parents genuinely loved him (they have wildly different ways to show it, though), but it wasn’t enough to behave properly in front of him, at least. 

so he grows up with a very skewed image of love and marriage, and i firmly believe that (him being a picky, bratty teenager aside) he was very against marrying yanli precisely because he didn’t want to be like his parents. he didn’t want to be anything like his dad and getting into a loveless marriage, constantly cheating on his wife without any shame or regret. it’s not in zixuan’s own personality (he’s much too proud and upright for that), but who’s to speak of the him in the future? he doesn’t want his wife to end up like his mother either, angry and bitter and unhappy. at the beginning he had no interest in her until it began piling up with his teenage rebellion and he lashed out at last, and the rest is history. 

obviously, now that he has his own family he’s going to make up for all that lost time he had, so i can only imagine how absolutely loving he must have been during his tragically short life as a husband and father, and how he would have loved to have siblings to actually call a family, because his parents aren’t really the best he has. be it his own siblings (because only god knows how many half-brothers and sisters he has out there, since we only know three by name) or yanli’s, even if their relationship will be strained and awkward, he’d still be part of their close-knit family by association, and that’s something he’s secretly yearned for for a long time…

doesn’t it make you sad that both jzx and jyl were forced upon the position of mediator between their parents since very, very young… jyl as the oldest with two little brothers to shield from the worst of jfm and yzy’s arguments and using her mom’s soft spot for her to help her calm down, and jzx as the “only” child, thus bearing the brunt of every single fight between his own parents and getting in between them to stop them from getting any worse than they already were almost every day, to the point their marriage immediately fell apart when he was no longer there bc he was the only thing keeping them together and stable 

i was looking thru my old swd blog and ow this still hurts

anyway i mentioned it over on qi rong’s blog but tho i was already a big ShiWuduFucker69 since his first appearance, what really sealed the deal for me is how his love for sqx made him so human. gods aren’t meant to be human. we see this more obviously when xie lian was first ascended and he was often discouraged from helping his kingdom from going to ruin, because that was their fate. when gods ascend, they’re expected to leave behind all traces of their mortal lives and family, chipping away a big part of what makes them human: their relationships. love is often considered the strongest human emotion and motivation, and he retained it. but shi wudu pretty much said fuck that!! he dedicated most of his life to taking care of sqx, all of his actions were for their sake, they’re his literal world. he’s so nonchalant about his godhood’s accomplishments because being a god doesn’t mean anything if he can’t protect his only family. to me it always felt like always sqx came first, that swd ascended not because of ambition or destiny, but because of love. he loved his sibling so much he aimed to become a god, predestined or not, and use that to save them, however wretched his methods would turn out to be. that in itself is also a product of love, but not the gentle, compassionate kind one always associates with the feeling. love can also be a forceful, wicked and cruel thing, and swd encompasses that side of it well.  i think...wanting to change one’s own fate, to challenge destiny itself, is a very human thing to do. the debate of free will is one that’s often brought up in the media we consume; how much of what we do is because we want to do it, how much of it is due to some greater force that has already predetermined our actions and we have no choice but to abide to them? i like that it was shi wudu, high ranked as he is, with so much to lose, who challenged fate itself. you wouldn’t think the cold, aloof god who’s called a tyrant would be the one to risk everything and denounce the heavens for love, and yet.  i know mxtx said gods dont reincarnate but has she considered that im depressed

oughh water master the man that u are...

and if i add liu qingge and shi wudu here. what then.

tatsumi

˚ʚ ⁀➷ㅤ@fiyresㅤsays:ㅤㅤ❝    ah kyoko - chan . . . are you mad at me ?    ❞

𝐓𝐎 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐈𝐒 𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐔𝐑𝐓 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐁𝐄 𝐇𝐔𝐑𝐓; at thirteen, she had once thought the heart strong enough to endure the weight of pain, the hunger of a soul's emptiness, and the uncertainty of the futureㅤ───ㅤ 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐢𝐱-𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐟𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐲 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐬, and that kyoko's dearest ones would not suffer, for she would be there to alleviate their heartaches.

at twenty three, things are no longer so simpleㅤ───ㅤ( and no longer so sweet. )

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ‘ㅤi'm not mad, tsu-kun.ㅤ’ㅤㅤhow selfish would she have to be, to see the man who had sunk his fists into the fire for them to feel its warmth and not be burned, and feel anger? to stomp her feet and clench her own fists, as if something as inane as her own anger would be important enough to speak of? the pit in kyoko's stomach is not so violent, yet no less ugly.

she lowers her gaze, hesitant, always hesitant to vocalize things she knows would paint a frown upon his gentle face, and when she looks back up, her smile is the serenity of the dawn after a long night's storm, but her eyes are sad as she grasps his hands in hers. ㅤㅤ‘ㅤi'm worried. i heard you got attacked on your way out of the meeting with the cavallone last week. why didn't you come to me earlier?ㅤ’

I redrew my first digital artwork ever 🥺

teehee <3

Battle Maniac

hasen ur my favourite ily

ESTHER MY BELOVED

˚ʚ ⁀➷ㅤ@bloodfistsㅤsays:ㅤㅤ❝ ㅤ( Freminet -> Lyney )  He shows Lyney a little mechanical mouse that runs on its own after being wound up. "Do you think Rosseland will like it?"ㅤ❞

rosseland has always been more teammate than pet, more trickster than catㅤ───ㅤit has managed to avoid all of lyney's traps to bait it out and away from his hat with twice the cleverness and thrice the foresight, consistently two steps ahead of anyone who dared underestimate it.

there's no chance of it mistaking this for a real mouse, but an astute cat is a cat nonetheless; wind up the right toy the right way, and the chase would be just as thrilling. lyney beams at his brother, picking up the gadget and inspecting it closely.

ㅤㅤㅤ‘ㅤi know rosseland will love it! ...with any luck, it'll be more entertaining than hiding my cards.ㅤ’ㅤㅤ