like a normal person I listen to one single mlp fan music artist an ungodly amount and get ideas to make tmnt edits that have a meaning completely separate to the meaning the song was intended to have. because I’m normal.

in the same way 2012 leonardo reminds me of myself ‘12 splinter reminds me a lot of my parents. he got thrown into a lot of unexpected shit and ended up having to raise the turtles and the circumstances were maybe not perfect but he tried! which. actually makes it worse. kind of. because no matter how hard he tried he fucked up and he fucked up big on some things. things that are going to permanently affect his kids, but you can’t really hate him for that because it’s not like he didn’t genuinely love them. you have to respect all the care and sacrifice that came with raising them and yes he’s flawed but he’s a kind man trying his hardest and what else can you ask for? so you can’t hate him. you can’t hate your dad for loving you. but in the little ways you see the world is fractured from the ways he slipped up. part of you wants to be so mad because if he had just done things a little differently maybe you wouldn’t feel so broken. maybe you wouldn’t feel so alone. maybe you wouldn’t feel like you have to do half the work raising your brothers and maybe you’d feel more comfortable FEELING. and in bad moments your brain swarms and everything is horrible and honestly you DO hate him for that. you hate how broken you are and you can’t help but blame him for all his fuck ups. you know how much he loves you and how hard he tried but maybe he didn’t try hard enough? maybe it was never fair how much he expected of you? maybe he didn’t love you enough? maybe you never actually were his first priority? what if he doesn’t actually deserve your respect? because when did he ever even actually care? and maybe those are all irrational thoughts but you still feel it. you still feel like he didn’t actually care about you. you still feel like maybe you do a better job taking care of your brothers than he does. but you’re just a kid. you don’t want to think that way. you don’t want to have to look after them like that. maybe he’s just a human(rat) who makes mistakes in the effort to do good but why did he have to make those mistakes? you want to tear shit apart you want to lash out but you can’t because no matter what he never abused you. maybe he wasn’t always there when you needed him but you can’t even say that to him because you know! you know he loves you more than anything! and so the anger is short lived and all you can do is feel hollow and sad about it. because you’re trapped. trapped dealing with all of his mistakes

anyway, I adore vylet pony, you’re not a real musician has had me in a chokehold for like 3 weeks in a row now it’s horrible the way it’s infested my mind. if you couldn’t tell I’ve been thinking about it that long by this post.

me falling through a window core

another tmnt edit, I mostly upload these to tumblr for myself to like keep them in a place that actually feels like an archive, tiktok is so fickle it can randomly delete things and mute them and even if I download videos from it they have stupid watermarks

2003 mikey is so transgender it’s great

MUTANT MAYHEM SPOILERS

the way my heart got crushed when the turtles left splinter’s little party he was trying so hard and they didn’t even acknowledge it I’m. UGH

also can I just say that the score for mutant mayhem was great

I was really hoping there would be more leatherhead content after mutant mayhem but most of it’s still my posts 😭

MUTANT MAYHEM SPOILERS

I got vaguely spoiled for the scumbug and splinter thing (because some old man was complaining that they went “woke” and made splinter kiss a male bug… scumbug is a girl in mutant mayhem and is called she throughout the movie…) but like why did they have setup for it

like at the start of the movie there’s a remark about how maybe one day splinter could find somebody and he says something like “how many mutant women do you know trust me I’ve looked” and before that he mentions that his first friend was a cockroach and then by the end of the movie he finds a mutant woman cockroach to fall for and he understands what she says and is like the only person not grossed out by her

it does insinuate that either the cousins remark made by superfly either just doesn’t apply at all or simply doesn’t apply to splinter and I mean scumbug is siblings with the other mutants which would make the other mutants actually aunts and uncles to the turtles if splinter and scumbug got married

that or it’s incest but I’ve seen way too much of that in tmnt and I would rather have a complicated explanation than accept that AGAIN

anyways yeah leatherhead was the best part of the mutant mayhem movie

no I’m kidding mutant mayhem was amazing yeah there was some cringey stuff but it was fun and silly and very much did feel like it captured the teenage essense it promised it would and THE ANIMATION OUGHHHH MY GOODDDD

really excited for all the things they’ll expand on in the TWO COMFIRMED SEASONS AND A SEQUEL‼️‼️

leatherhead was great though I love leatherhead the mutants other than superfly didn’t really get a lot of screentime but I LOVED THEM. especially leatherhead <3

I have more things to say but I think I’ll make separate posts about them

the way everyone was freaking out about leo and april potentially being a thing in mutant mayhem when it was revealed(on a t-shirt of all things) as if it would be just like 2012 apriltello and now that the movie’s out I’m seeing everyone switching up and shipping aprilnardo like yeah no it probably wouldn’t be like 2012 because 2012 writing strengths were all plot and no character

I like how april went kind of blind once in 2012 and april’s had glasses since

that’s a whole lotta snacks

best rottmnt merch I’ve seen

she’s like if I was trans the other way around and also was a turtle growing up in the sewers being trained ninjutsu by my rat dad

see the thing is I need to know if the tmntmm mutants genuinely see each other as siblings/cousins or if it’s like in a cult way. superfly could just be saying that to make the turtles feel more at ease? but ig we can’t know until the movie’s out

at the rate they’re releasing teasers I feel like I almost have to stop watching them to avoid spoilers because there’s a LOT that they’re just putting out like yeah there’s still a lot we don’t know but it’s getting to be almost too much we DO know 😭

new mutant mayhem clip from the official tmnt twitter