The pain

The pain I feel is something real A deep hurt that developed over 22 years of my life It started with bullying and it ended with bullying When the bullies went to far and I ran across the ocean to the furthest point my heart could fathom to get away from the chaos                            the put downs                            the emotional turmoil                            the parts of my heart I buried deep  turned into a boiler of suppressed emotions of things left unsaid in order to conform to their standards The day I broke free I found myself I found a place that feels like home where a meg can show her true colours and instead of bullies I found true family support at all angles I rested my head and decided to stay One day I realized the boiler still lived inside          angry          brooding          steaming          pure agony waiting to resurface It started spilling over triggered by reflections in others pain My cup could not hold the boiler any longer it floods my body until it spills out of my eyes becoming so unmanageable that I was drowning- overflowing at moments I could not control And so I learn to let the boiler flow  flow out of me in whatever way it needs Acknowledging this boiler is the first step So... Where do I go from here? I am learning to communicate I am learning to honor my emotions I am learning to set boundaries I am learning to trust the process

Patterns Reminders

Creating concrete visions of a macrocosmic prism with a brilliant optimism and appropriate ambition to be open from the center redirected to the moment this is it love this is it love- unrestrainable nature we can change it from the edges- we can challenge all our borders there is always a new leader there is always a new order our pathway is proceeding and the way is always changing we are free from what prevents us to realize our destination free from all old stories I’ve been told- I walk through the valley of my own shadow Awareness is my virtue and I'm grateful for the search to dive deep within my own mind and to trust the intuition of the lives I've lived before this- our essential form of gnosis its a simple form of freedom its as smooth as inhalation oh the exhale is releasing all the tension I've been feeling on the surface and beneath me I'm connecting to my spirit and I'm here now right before you I am present in this moment and my life’s work is to honor the great beauty all around you free from all old stories I've been told- I walk through the valley of my own shadow Creating concrete visions of a macrocosmic prism with a brilliant optimism and appropriate ambition to be open from the center, redirected to the moment this is it Love, this is it Love, this is it Love...

Something I believe in embracing the dark because without the dark  how would we know the light take a moment  allow your fears to push through allow space for your shadow to allow space for the dark to allow space for the light to truly know yourself

tangled with you intellect and flow the way to grow duality’s dance reality’s balance Art by the Lovely and talented Hamish Irwin <3 

Balance Balance and exchange It's all just balance As the roots of the tree Equal it branches So do our inner worlds Match the outer worlds Balance Balance As the leaves of the tree Nourish the roots Does the mind when set free Realize the truth Balance It's all just balance Balance and exchange Like the air through the branches Like the wind on the leaves Learning how to bend Learning how to mend in the breeze Balance It's all just balance Balance

 the stream   the rain  the ocean   the tides  the currents  the moon  the push and the pull  the winds  the land Shaping life itself All a divine reflection. All a divine reminder. Intentions of the flow <3 

Something I think is important:  No attachment- it means no hidden agenda, no book-keeping, no strings attached. Allowing space for all to completely and authentically be. Surrender all expectations and attachments, as these are not the true form of Love. Loving without expectations and attachments means allowing space for all potential growth, understanding, wisdom, and unconditional Love to blossom and flourish. Learn to let go. 

Vibes speak louder than words Attracting that which resonates Authentically allow your frequency to flow

All the cycles All the seasons All the changes  All the rivers All the twists All the turns                 Puts it in perspective Erosion//Suffering- exposing the hidden layers

April 2018//Diving into a new word(world)(whirl pool) of fascination: Aho

Aho// A Native American translation: Union of spirit with self, others, nature, and creator. Used as an affirmation, acknowledgement of divine, and similar use as amen.

Aho// A Maori translation: To shine; radiate light. Connection, weave, chord, sine (Nature’s mathematical dance/natural sway of reality as we know it;cycles [creation~preservation ~transformation]) (Hindu meaning-Aum/Om[divine energy/Spirit]), or medium for atua (spirit) in divination. 

Aho.

Nov 2017

Currently my favourite word; Puāwai. Pua (verb) to bloom, produce flowers. Wai (noun) water, flow. Together these two wonderful words become Puāwai (verb) to bloom, come to fruition, open out (of a flower).

This is a word that inspires the best part of myself. The part that just wants to bloom. To flow symbiotically with all that is the current of creation to become the best version of myself possible. To not only drift with this current but move with it, to swim with it, to live with it, to be with it, to be as it. To allow this epic dance with the flow of creation to unfurl the tangled up parts of myself and come to full bloom.

It's Love

Frens

To take the plunge  To see the beauty amongst the chaos and dive in To let loose your shackles To take the plunge into uncertainty To make your splash on this seemingly tainted reality To let your wake set the world free

To acknowledge the flow
 Is to move with the flow 
Is to be the flow