ooc;;; hello! i haven’t been here sorry, but i’ve been pretty caught up in work and rl problems. if you’d like to know details go under the read more. anyways, what you need to know is that i don’t intend to give up on the account just yet!

the thing is the reason why i haven’t been here is because of my anxiety inconstant levels. i suffer from traumas and ptsd as well as ocd, and i have been medicated and so far have  been better, it’s not as worrisome now, (which resulted from school bullying years) but the thing is i’ve been pretty much suffering verbal/emotional/mental/psychological and physical abuse at the hands of ‘ parents’ . lately it has been aggravating and they have tried to hurt my dog as well but without success since i was there to intervene overtime, but as you can probably guess i fear for mine and my dog’s life. they are abusive and narcissistic and only think on their stomachs and no one besides my cousin or my best friend, or my grandma believe me. even so no one really cares, but that’s nothing i’m not used to by now, it does not make me difference since i’ve always been alone even when i was small. the thing here is they can’t accept the fact i’m an a adult now and i’ve been working and saving money to get out of this hell this year for sure - since that would mean exit the house and go ‘ no-contact’ but more even stop being their punching bag, they can’t accept it since they don’t teach me anything so i don’t learn how to  be auto-sufficient yet thing is i’ve been learning through myself even if they criticize though i already know they do such because they don’t want their scapegoat to get out of there. thus, lately raising the level of violence and they get every excuse to slap me or scar me, or if not menace to beat me up. they don’t look so out of the house because they live for the image, and i could well be dying and they would not care even - as once happened when i have an asthma attack triggered by that stupid narc’ mother’ smoking inside the house and closing my windows because i was coughing and alerting the neighbors of it. yeah it’s that bad so far, but only recently i realized i’ve been walking on eggshells throughout all my life with them, and my mind was unconsciously reacting to it. 

i have a trip on april so until then, i will try to finish as well my driving license, which as you can guess (again) has been difficult to finish because of all this going on. as if it wasn’t enough i have to work with my narc’ mother’ at the office, and am surrounded by a group of abusive narcissistic people who lie constantly and abuse others, shouting at their colleagues, or trying to snoop into others’ business as so happened with me and a colleague of mine. i plan to move out and get house either before the travel or right after. so if i go without coming here for some days at the time too that’s because i might not yet have internet.

sorry, really but my head’s been a turmoil of emotions and i lately don’t have much energy for anything as you can imagine. just so you know now. yeah, i’ve been going through a much shitty life and don’t have anywhere or anyone to turn to overall, but i’m taking care of myself, and surviving is a priority at the moment.

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Chosen muse: Wada Hina

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Yknow what we need? Girl friendship like. Ram said she often sees hina in matches right? Like imagine them talking friendly in their dougi and smtms ran goes pick her cellphone or looks to the stands in search for shinichi, and hina notices she's sad so she tries to divert her attention from that telling her funny stories. Just karate friendship. !!!!

Karate friendship heck yea

tanteiikun:

“s-shinichi needs an adult…”

    " an adult like who? 

        Mouri-kun’s pops? “

tanteiikun

I DIDN'T EVEN /DO/ ANYTHING YET

< LOUD WALL CRASHING NOISES >

     “ gomen,... you were saying ? ~”

regiciidal:

   ‘ is that so? ’

   — he laughed, small enough that it wasn’t so obviously fake. he glanced back down to where the ball was still held out part in front of him, but he’d stopped twirling it. his fingernails drummed across its seams. she’d caught it without barely a blink, & it wasn’t that he was weak, physically, but his physical skills were concentrated in volleyball, for the most part. so maybe she was right.

   ‘ nice to see someone else so modest! ☆ ’

   her words weren’t even as close to being as sugary & self-flattering as his — only the best, after all — but a little exaggeration wasn’t doing anyone harm.

“ yep. “

From the other angle of the chat, unknowledged with one’s thoughts and intentions, if not spoken, one could only assume those words served for a mock or a tease: which she would counter with her one playful tone, although her stance and change of movements suggested otherwise her seriousness towards it. Regarding her countless hours of training, and lost days of studies on karate practice she’d rather not be  even thought of lightly on it.                           

“ oh? is that a challenge i hear then, mr. popular? "

hina @ all the shinichis rn:  (ง'̀-'́)ง (ง'̀-'́)ง (ง'̀-'́)ง

detectivebarou

“ Y’know, a little guy told me you’ve been making my precious rival suffer ...if you mess up more and make her heart shatter, there will be more than just a black eye for you meintantei-san . ~ “

A dangerous grin crosses the features of the brunnette, her tone is menacingly sweet in sound but sour in intent, upon the familiar face of said meintantei  that the small boy living with the Mouris had mentioned earlier in a conversation upon curios inquiry: Hina had noticed that ever since the last championship, her rival captain of the teitan high had not been the same, sometimes looking aloof before matches, searching for this shinichi-niichan in the stands or for a sign on her cell. it was not of her business, one would say, but such was the same towards that old lady whose bag was to be snatched and still she acted on it when she could’ve allowed the burglar to stay on the loose.

So, yes she hoped her point would be clear once one of her fists interrupted a casual dialogue this detective nerd,   or as so  Mouri-kun had said so once, a nice warming, connecting against the wall nearby as it emitted a crashing sound .

me @ people who reblog threads they’re not in and mess up with the notes:

tebayai:

‘ah.’ after the collision between him and the other, he did stumble a bit being bumped around by just a few of the adults who were hurrying to their other destinations. (he had muttered apologies, but he doubts that they had paid any attention with the rush that they were in)

‘it’s okay. i wasn’t paying too much attention either.’ he never really caught the trains around this time considering that school and cram school and volleyball took up so much time of his. but it was a day that they had been released from practice early which gave him a bit of extra time. (and he had decided to use to get on the trains whilst it was the most crowded. not the best idea.)

‘you didn’t drop anything, did you?’ he knows that he didn’t, but it would be unfortunate if the other person did. especially on his behalf.

a sigh of relief escaped the brunnette’s lips, once she found some kind of equilibrum amidst the crowded space of the car; face swiging turning to the other teenager close by to check on their condition as well, tone light, slightly worried as she peeked on her back and confirmed the karate uniform was still well tied up within her belt; after all, they had been nice enough to consider their well-being, and state of belongings, not many would be that concerned unless they were humble enough or without much hurry at such a hour

“ I don’t think so, ..if i had anything to drop it would probably be my dougi so...what about you? you okay? “

itstartswithzero:

『 » ♔

Must every cute-looking girl possess unbelievably monstrous martial art skills? Shinichi took a moment or so to process who exactly had happened to speak to him. Oh lord. 

A karate ace plus that common misunderstanding that most had. Not a good combination, especially when Shinichi had the need to tell the truth; Ran and him weren’t in any kind of romantic relationship.

“Ahh, well, I am that ‘detective nerd’ she was talking about. But I’m not her…”

A quiet cough.

“Boyfriend…”

♔ « 』

   “ eh--? you’re not? the way you acted told a bit of otherwise...what a pity. you would make a great pair! “

a chuckle escapes the brunnette as she engages in her teasing mode, finding light playfulness the norm every once she had the chance, this time happening to be crossing paths in the streets with her rival’s friend, or boyfriend as she once believed; since for the way the girl sometimes acted around him, for the past occasions in which both attended her national matches and all, HIna could swear they were actually dating, but...speaking about it she had never seen them holding hands or kissing to be frank.

oh well.

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talontedace:

“Cool!” Bokuto nods decisively. “I might stop by to support you- if the time doesn’t clash with my volleyball practise!” While he wasn’t experienced in karate the other was, the ace still finds a source of fascination for martial arts. There was something about honing your own skills into a professional fighter’s that Bokuto finds inspiring. 

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“ Well, captains gotta stick together, right? ~ ? “

A light wink crossed her profile before one of her hands rised in a peace sign, approving of the idea and somewhat, hilarious coincidence, ...what were the odds?

  “ the match is only tomorrow though. I’ve been going through some stores, because I am running out of tape for my fingers and feet though. “

A light scrub of her nape area, the teen allowed a light flustered chuckle escape her lips, after all one thing was being an athlete and use your skills for good and greatnes, another was to be called what only books sung legends for, poets creating odes to those miraculously strong figures addressed as heros. She did not think she deserved such titel nor did she want it be on her skin, she only bwas a human being doing her job, helping others in need; besides those who allowed their ego to grow much would be taking the first step of their downfall, overestimating their abilities, and proving themselves weak in front of greater adversities, and thus wthat was the first step as well to lose as a martial artist. be it black belt or white, everyone learned everyday something new .                               

“ Maa,  i wouldn’t take it that far... if one can help a person in need then they should do it, right? knives can be handled and other kinds of weaponry of the sort...as for bullets, unless i can toss the weapon out of the owner’s hand, it’s not much avoidable... “

A sigh escaped her lips... just as many other awfully (or even dare say disgustingly) typical sterotypes, her parents were not the best supporters for her to pursue such a career, yet it was not like they condemned either way, since they had allowed her to continue it since she was small. Anyways, she had lately been thinking over it, and surely karate on the long run would sound nicer than thought of simply...

       “ To be frank, I’ve been thinking about doing it in the long run... but I have yet to decide. My parents are not really the greatest of supporters... ykno, typical japanese stereotypes... in a way. “

im sort of debating which zodiac sign i should put for hina

all i know is that it should be either a fire one or an air one since she’s such a blunt queen lil shit,and has some sass game

and since she’s a playful person i mean she said:’ oh a knife? (like it was so casual, hey you brought a toy or smh) should i play seriously too?’ - bruh she was so calm.

maybe a gemini or a leo? idek.