Call me Bee or Guq (or whatever!) •• She/they ••
Mainly MDZS/CQL & MXTX and random C/Kdramas
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Inclusionist •• Trans Positive
Free use screenshots side blog is cql-screenshots
that moment when you cross the point of no return with a character should be accompanied by a specific chime i think. like 🔔 congratulations! this one has been installed in the Permanent Collection and you will never stop thinking about them as long as you live
Height gap romance except the shorter one is frequently depicted in situations where they are contextually taller. The taller one sitting while the shorter one looms over them. Both of them lying in bed with the taller one’s head pressed to the shorter one’s chest. The shorter one straddling the taller one’s lap and leaning down for a kiss. The taller one on their knees as the shorter one tilts their head up. Please, it makes me go feral
I have realized that the perfect form of media must have a delicate balance between absolutely heart wrenching pure emotional devastation and the most ridiculous nonsense you have ever seen in your whole life
Little Hua Cheng, a city flower, Flower City, Little Red, Crimson Rain Sought Flower who protects the innocent bloom from being bowed by a rain of blood, following and protecting his dianxia through the centuries, trying desperately to shield him from suffering, leaving flowers at his altar, his soul, his promise, the only thing he has left to give and this flower is usually depicted as white--pure, unsullied, innocent, like how he sees his dianxia, like Xie Lian's heavenly robes, but what if the flower was red, what if it was a Little Red flower who was protected from the blood and the hurt and the rain :(
anyway the actual point of fandom is to inspire each other. reading each other's fics and admiring each other's art and saying wow i love this and i feel something and i want to invoke this in other people, i want to write a sentence that feels like a meteor shower, i want to paint a kiss with such tenderness it makes you ache, i want to create something that someone else somewhere will see it and think oh, i need to do that too, right now. i am embracing being a corny cunt on main to say inspiring each other is one of the things humanity is best at and one of the things fandom is built for and i think that's beautiful
taking your own advice is so hard. it’s “make bad art” this and “kill your perfectionism” that until i sit down with an idea i like. the i have to execute it perfectly Or Else
I have been asked for something new from MDZS! I admit it took me some time because many of the prompts I got had some sweetness in them (like, please make them hug or kiss or stare lovingly) and I had no idea why it couldn't sit right with me. Well, for me MDZS is more about being selfish and blind to those who care about you, pointless waiting and grieving, and being VERY lucky. I seriously couldn't paint fluff having all of this in mind, but I hope you won't mind (I still tried my best! xD)
It's so cute how the novel fandom has all the "How can LXC recognize NMJ's abs?" jokes and the drama fandom has all the "How does LXC know JGY's body has no curse marks?" jokes