(Passion •30) The worst oddity since the separation is the coldness of my bed and the difficulty every night to get into it. I mean, it was a long distance relationship anyway, so the bed was empty unless she was visiting. Still it was welcoming before. I have a few tricks in my sleeve though. I sleep on the couch. Or in another empty bed. Or I walk outside for while, listening to deafening music until my head is so full of sound that any bed would do. I’m exhausting myself to sleep. And I wake up as tired as I went to bed. Nothing is more soothing than the delicate breathing of your loved one by your side. 🐺#breakup #blackhole #sleeplessnights #leapoffaith #loneliness #frustration #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #endlessly #travelnow #endofacycle #desires #sadness #couplerules #suffering #selfdestruction #silence #sorrow #suffering #soothing (à France) https://www.instagram.com/p/CkcESQqKeoS/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

(Kinky •17) I want out alone that day. I wasn’t looking for anything. I actually didn’t want to engage with strangers, even less making conversation. I sat at the bar and ordered a Japanese whiskey. I played with the ice cubes quite a long time. My eyes were not in focus, blurring the world around me as I was staring at nothingness. After a while, a woman sat just by my side. I looked at her, frowning, there were many available seats. She looked at me in the eyes, offered a sad smile, made out of empathy, but didn’t say a word. She just stayed there a moment. Then she lightly touched my hand and made a small piece of paper between my fingers. She left, still in silence. On the paper, there was the name of a hotel and a room number. And this mention: we don’t need to speak. I was intrigued, so I went. We didn’t say a word, but I will remember always the pleasures she gave me that night. 🐺 #redhair #redheadsdoitbetter #redheadgirls #gingerhead #wolvesofinstagram #worldofwolves #iloveher #iwanther #passion #wolfesway #greeneyes #distance #love #long #apart #harshness #wolf #iloveyou #longdistance #hot #passion #kinkystory #playfulgirlfriend (à France) https://www.instagram.com/p/CkV9eJ3jPS3/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

(Passion •29) I have lost sleeping capacities. My brain is repeating itself again and again, looking constantly at memories to find reasons, analyzing the smallest details to understand the failure and not repeat it. The more it gathers information, the more confused it gets. This is pointless. Dwelling in the past won’t change it. In the end, the real mistake is to have spent so much time with someone who didn’t want me. Not really. More attached to an image, to an idea than to reality. She never accepted the real person she had with her. All she wanted was paperwork. Status. Normality. Such an ugly word it is, Normality. I’m not normal. That’s what seduces people in the first place. But then they expect I will become normal with them. Depressing. I’m depressed.🐺#breakup #blackhole #sleeplessnights #leapoffaith #loneliness #frustration #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #endlessly #travelnow #endofacycle #desires #sadness #couplerules #suffering #selfdestruction #silence #sorrow #suffering #lackofenergy (à France) https://www.instagram.com/p/CkRmmh2DE7w/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

(Passion •27) Silence remains the strangest thing after years talking daily. The phone has stopped ringing except for random messages from delivery men and long-time friends. Words are lost, wandering in my head without being said. They turn around looking for a way out. It is so strange to be kicked out suddenly of someone’s life. Someone who still pretends to love you, but prefers nothingness to any form of continuity. Silence is what remains. I listen to silence, it begins to speak to me. 🐺#breakup #blackhole #sleeplessnights #leapoffaith #loneliness #frustration #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #endlessly #travelnow #endofacycle #desires #sadness #couplerules #suffering #selfdestruction #silence #sorrow #suffering #lackofenergy (à France) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cj77H75jVQv/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

(Passion •26) The night has come again. I would like to rest. Darkness embraces me, I feel her warmth in my skin. I dwell in her and soon forget about time and space. I’m progressively becoming numb. No desire, no will, no sleep. Just stay there without moving. May be life will just forget about me if I’m that discreet. 🐺#breakup #blackhole #sleeplessnights #leapoffaith #loneliness #frustration #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #endlessly #travelnow #endofacycle #desires #sadness #couplerules #suffering #selfdestruction #sorrow (à France) https://www.instagram.com/p/CjbemyUj6ru/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

(Passion •25) At least i tried. I created all the conditions for long lasting happiness to be possible. I hoped. I made efforts. I took initiatives. I offered solutions. It broke despite all that. I failed. I failed and failed again. Now, I am contemplating it all. Trying to make some sense out it. I’m the weirdo. The one that always wants too much. Let me rest. Tomorrow is another battle. 🐺#breakup #blackhole #sleeplessnights #leapoffaith #loneliness #frustration #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #endlessly #travelnow #endofacycle #desires #sadness #couplerules #suffering #selfdestruction #sorrow (à France) https://www.instagram.com/p/CjY2BpIDeBx/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

(Passion •24) Through all the pain he has endured, the worse will remain that hole in the stomach and this sensation of endless fall when she leaves. He has mastered the emotion management over the years. But the sensation itself remains as pure as on the first day. He can feel it coming few days before. And it lasts for such a long time afterwards. He would like she never leaves, but then she would never come back. 🐺#breakup #blackhole #sleeplessnights #leapoffaith #loneliness #frustration #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #endlessly #travelnow #endofacycle #desires #sadness #couplerules #suffering #selfdestruction #sorrow https://www.instagram.com/p/CjTvAlPDteS/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

(Passion •23) The big old wolf remained alone, peaceful and sad. Nothing to regret. He couldn’t make choices for her. Only show her the path. She wouldn’t walk the path. At least he learnt a little more about love, relationships and himself. New mental notes for the future. If there is a future. Howling to all lost love sorrows. 🐺#breakup #blackhole #sleeplessnights #leapoffaith #loneliness #frustration #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #endlessly #travelnow #endofacycle #desires #sadness #couplerules #rollingdowninthedeep #selfdestruction #sorrow (à France) https://www.instagram.com/p/CjSG3zEj3_M/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

(Passion •19) When sleep becomes a coma, the mind is sucked into a back hole where no dream can survive. This intense feeling that may be there is no waking up. A journey into the abyss, a test for survival skills and will, and the pain when the eyes are finally opening. The test has been passed, not without some sense of remorse. 🐺#breakup #remorse #blackhole #sleeplessnights #leapoffaith #loneliness #frustration #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #endlessly #travelnow #endofacycle #desires #sadness #couplerules #rollingdowninthedeep #selfdestruction (à Gare Saint-Lazare) https://www.instagram.com/p/CT4KVcfDsNl/?utm_medium=tumblr

(Passion •18) Our habits, our behaviors are largely a by-product of our culture, our education, our past relationships. Challenging them is not easy, as they feel so natural. In a multi-cultural couple, misunderstandings are to be expected. Finding solutions require an effort from both to acknowledge their behaviors and their consequences for their significant other. We can progress once we own our mistakes. 😢🐺#breakup #challenges #multicultural #misunderstandings #loneliness #frustration #wolfesway #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #sensuality #endlessly #travelnow #iwantmore #endofacycle #desires #yourrules #sadness #couplerules #rollingdowninthedeep #selfdestruction (à Gare Saint-Lazare) https://www.instagram.com/p/CT11PUPDscZ/?utm_medium=tumblr

(Passion •17) Little sleep and no appetite, the abandonment syndrome settles in with its familiar components. A constant urge to cry, systematically repressed due to social obligations. This impression of falling, the body always on the verge of collapsing into the black hole that became your belly. Thoughts running through the head, contradictory. The desire to do whatever it takes to have her back and the knowledge that it would only work if she’s walking the path. All I can do is keep the flame. 😢🐺#breakup #abandonment #limitations #timeisstretched #loneliness #frustration #wolfesway #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #sensuality #endlessly #travelnow #iwantmore #endofacycle #desires #yourrules #sadness #suffering #rollingdowninthedeep #selfdestruction (à Gare Saint-Lazare) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTzCy_yDUY5/?utm_medium=tumblr

(Passion •16) When times are hard in a couple, the vivid memories of happy moments spent together are a major support. A powerful reminder that your partner, whatever his current mistakes be, is the person you live and how much he brought to your life. Temporary problems can be overcome, as long as love is there. I cherish these memories deeply. I don’t believe in scorched earth policies, one may say I’m not Russian. Forgetting both past and future happiness is always self-destructing. 😢🐺#constraints #boundaries #limitations #timeisstretched #loneliness #frustration #wolfesway #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #sensuality #endlessly #travelnow #iwantmore #endofacycle #desires #yourrules #breakup #sadness #suffering #rollingdowninthedeep #selfdestruction (à France) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTw5AW4jkyV/?utm_medium=tumblr

(Passion •15) I’m not sleeping, I’m not eating. I have lost 4kg in 2 days. My mind is steady, my resolve intact. I stand tall, conscious of my responsibility to keep the flame alive. My body is shaking though, suffering from the stabbing and the withdrawal. Old wounds have been healed, here come new ones, fresh and bleeding. I’m bracing myself and gathering my strength to lift on my shoulder this love to protect it. I’ll endure. I am the Keeper. 😢🐺#passion #constraints #boundaries #limitations #timeisstretched #loneliness #frustration #wolfesway #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #sensuality #endlessly #travelnow #iwantmore #newbeginnings #endofacycle #desires #yourrules #breakup #selfdestruction #keeperoftheflame #keeper #love #unconditionallove (à France) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTwkQVBj1qX/?utm_medium=tumblr

(Passion •14) Time seems to stretch endlessly. It’s been more than a year without travels and without the possibility to be reunited with my beloved ginger. I want to travel to you! 2021, you have to let me, soon! 😢🐺#passion #constraints #boundaries #limitations #timeisstretched #loneliness #frustration #wolfesway #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #sensuality #endlessly #travelnow #iwantmore #newbeginnings #endofacycle #desires #yourrules https://www.instagram.com/p/CK_tnlOjVfT/?igshid=oxv8v3q7u1uf

(Up close and personal •01) A little more than 25 years ago, an amazing human being was born, with fire in her heart and radiant red hair 👩🏻‍🦰 to go with it. She’s now sexy as hell and master of my heart. I bless the day I met her, 28 August 2017. Our first kiss was magic, our first sex a big « bang » creating a whole universe. I wish I had known her earlier, both of us would have been better off. But she’s mine now and I’m hers now and that’s all that matters. Happy birthday 🎈🎁🎂🎊🎉 my love - your wolfie🐺#redhair #redheadsdoitbetter #redheadgirls #gingerhead #worldofwolves #iloveher #iwanther #passion #wolfesway #greeneyes #distance #love #happybirthday #gingerlove #imyours #wolvesway #faraway #longdistancerelationship #inlove #sunset #sunlight #greeneyes #copperhair #summer #beingtogether #escapethefate #sheismine #iloveyou (à France) https://www.instagram.com/p/CJLYeVIDy6L/?igshid=zcho886n5g7r

(Passion •13) The wolf is no prey for demons. He walks among them with no fear. They treat him as an equal despite his lack of evil. Traveler between worlds, the wolf is at ease in many places. It’s his inner world that is the less accessible. Getting to that place is both a challenge and a rare gift. If you are allowed there, respect and enjoy. 🐺#passion #constraints #boundaries #limitations #dreamsnevercometrue #loneliness #frustration #wolfesway #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #sensuality #toomuch #notenough #iwantmore #newbeginnings #leadingthepack #endofacycle #desires #yourrules #yourlibido #yourlife (à Switzerland, Schweiz) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDcOxFTjqF2/?igshid=1vde5huu2bykh

(Passion •12) Life expands and knows no boundaries. If you try to limit it, to make it fit in a small box, it will look for a way out and do all it can to escape. As time passes, the control and limits will have to be strengthened to keep it in your hands for a little longer. But there is no hope for keeping it tamed. There are only two possible outcomes. Either the box explodes and life gets free, or the box holds and only death will remain in it. Set life free. 🐺#passion #constraints #boundaries #limitations #dreamsnevercometrue #loneliness #frustration #wolfesway #cryingeyes #distance #nowayout #depression #sensuality #toomuch #notenough #iwantmore #newbeginnings #leadingthepack #endofacycle #desires #yourrules #yourlibido #yourlife (à Switzerland, Schweiz) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDY5ycjjKSL/?igshid=7xd11tk8yxy0