New starting soon, brb, and end screens for my twitch streams. Really leaning into this "someonespilledacidanddrugsallovermyworkspaceandnowI'mleftwittthis" vibe.

Experiment in acidity photo editing style.

Been trying to force myself to get a little crazy with thumbnails on youtube over the last few months after feeling frustrated with how…boring my channel felt to me. It's something I'm just going to have to chisel away at until I develop a style that feels right to me but I think I'm approaching something that feels right for the moment.

I'm tenatively calling it "making your eyes burn until you click on the video". I still want to keep the semblance of the typical thumbnaily structure with the text being in easily readable places and without having the overall image be too cluttered with random stuff. But also with some crunchy texture in there to spice things up a bit. The Dirge video is probably my favourite one though I can't lie. It has a scratchy vibe I like and the colours pop a ton.

I'm crying at Persona 3 Reload.

They managed to get the entire character of the MC said in less than 1 second of gameplay.

It is midnight, the world has plunged into darkness. Everything has turned an evil shade of green, blood is everywhere.

And other than him checking that his MP3 was okay, he doesn't even blink.

You get control of him, you discover you can look at objects:

He is literally standing in blood. the world is green. he is more interested in a construction site wall.

You go to the next screen, where they introduce the coffins that normal people are in during this time (though he doesn't know this yet)

He does NOT give a FUCK about that coffin. He just wants to know the bookstore hours. Who the FUCK is this man.

God I LOVE the P3 Protagonist.

Evoking the Persona in Persona 3 Reload (2024)

Just finished up Persona 3 Reload and I'm fucking blown away. What a heartbreakingly incredible ending that I'm not going to stop thinking about any time soon. So glad I dodged spoilers for years.

Dark Hour

Star Ocean: First Departure R Screenshots

New Video!

My Resident Evil Retrospective series (A super original idea don't steal) begins now with my review of Resident Evil 1.

Messing around with some extremely simple CRT effects in Photoshop to try and get the *vibes* right.

Metroid Prime Remastered finished! My first proper playthrough of Prime after a bunch of false starts throughout the years. Kinda pissed that I waited as long I did because it was *so* good.

I need Nintendo to get Echoes and Corruption remastered as soon as possible.

That's the tragedy, V. Someone's gonna play victim to the other's good intentions.

Playing Metroid Prime Remastered for the first time and the vibes are crazy.

You know what? That one line from that Phantom Liberty ending where V can call Johnny a "big ol' softie"? They're right. They're absolutely right.

Johnny is a softie. He goofs off on multiple occasions in V's field of view despite knowing that nobody can see him, probably to his own and V's amusement. He screams on the rollercoaster and grins like crazy at V. He adores Nibbles. He wanted to check on Kerry when he heard that he was suicidal. He finally took Rogue on that car cinema date and can flirt with her in a goofy way straight out of his favorite "Bushido" movies. He has fun on the reunion concert and gives Kerry his DeLuze Orphean as a goodbye gift. He narrates that one quest like a noir narrator just to mess with V. He understands Barry's grief over his tortoise. He's respectful when watching Joshua's crucifiction. He's nice to Spider Murphy and calls her "Spider". He sheepishly apologizes to Alt in "The Sun" ending. He puffs up his chest when Denny says she misses him. He's fuming over the kids in "Talent Academy" being treated like products, probably because it reminds him of how he was treated in the military. He feels for Solomon Reed because he sees himself in him. He feels for Songbird because her circumstances remind him of V's.

And speaking of, he really loves V. He just loves them so much; He's always on watch for any danger and does his best to give them advice. He promises that he will do everything he can to cure them. He will encourage them to take a break if they're feeling sick. He will attempt the most dangerous stunts to get them to Mikoshi. He promises V to let them wipe him from the Relic and he keeps that promise. He will realize that they're his only loved one left and will ask for the last chance, and when he gets it he does everything he can to make them proud and happy. He accepts their decision no matter what it is, because it's their body and life. His worst fear is getting to live again, but without his friend/partner/soulmate/beloved (depending on interpretation) with him. He's proud to be able to call himself V's friend. He's proud of them. He's sad that he won't be able to see how V will change. He choses to stay calm and positive before he will be innevitably killed so that his beloved V will live to keep them calm and comfort them.

That whole hardass, asshole act? It's a ruse, it's a front, it's a persona he had to put on due to bad childhood, PTSD from being drafted as a teenager, seeing other teenagers die horribly around him, losing his limb and being branded with the Arasaka logo he did his best to scratch out and being tossed into a rockstar life of drinking, drugs and fans when he was likely not much older.

He might fight it, but he will never be the detached, emotionless action hero he wants to be, because that's not at all who he is! I think that his slight grin when V says it is one of relief, that he was able to show his most vulnerable, tender and gentle side to the one person he holds dear and not be punished for it, playfully teased but with clear sympathy on V's part. After decades of struggle with who he is being so different from who he wants to be, he can finally be seen for who he is, and who he would be if his life went oh so differently.