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Low Functioning Borderline – The “Low Functioning” borderline is what most people think of when they are first introduced to the condition. Low functioning BPDs are a living train wreck. They have intense difficulties taking care of their basic needs, are constantly experiencing mood swings. They also have an extremely hard time managing any sort of relationship with another human being. Low Functioning BPDs are often hospitalized more than other BPD types, for the very reason that they can’t live productively without constant coaching and supervision. These patients are challenging for all but the most experienced psychiatrists. Unless otherwise treated, low functioning borderlines lead self destructive lives and attempt to manipulate those around them with desperate acts, including self harm (cutting, etc.).

High Functioning Borderline – The High Functioning Borderline Personality shares many core aspects of the low functioning borderline personality, except for the fact that they can manage their lives, appear to be productive, and generally keep their relationships civil (even diplomatic in nature). High Functioning borderlines can appear to be normal, driven people one moment; then moody, inconsolable, and manipulative the next. Somehow, there is a mechanism within the minds of High Functioning Borderlines that allows them to lead somewhat “competent” lives, despite the fact that they are in a constant battle with BPD. High functioning BPDs are no better than low functioning: it’s basically the same face wearing a different mask.

Extroverted Borderline – Anyone familiar with the Meyer-Briggs personality tests will understand the psychological differences between extroversion and introversion. When these characteristics are mixed with BPD, there are two different results. The Extroverted Borderline pushes all their feelings, fears, manipulation, rage, and moodiness outward to the people around them. In essence, if you are around an extroverted BPD, you feel like you’re living through their emotions while coping with your own at the same time. Further, extroverted BPDs will attempt self abusive acts in plain view of others in order to avoid abandonment or to express their rage. For example, an Extroverted BPD might cut themselves and then immediately share it with family and friends around them, hoping to gain sympathy or attention. In most cases, these types of behaviors frighten non-Borderlines, and they wonder whether or not the Extroverted BPD should be committed to a psych ward.

Introverted Borderline – Contrary to popular belief, “introverted” doesn’t necessarily describe someone who is a recluse (agoraphobic). Instead, introversion is characterized by experiencing life in a self-reflective, private, and at times distant manner. To others, introverts may appear shy or lacking in people skills. This might be true, however, introverts make up for their lack of social skills with rich inner lives, thoughts, and deep thinking. As a result, the introverted Borderline primarily focuses all their BPD emotions and reactions inward. Instead of having a rage episode in public, they might retreat to their rooms and cry for hours on end, perhaps even cutting themselves for their own amusement or as stress relief. Introverted Borderlines live in an odd world: on one hand, they spend most of their time in personal thought and reflection, looking to fill themselves with a viable sense of self; but on the other, they are conflicted by emptiness and the bottomless emotional pit that BPD produces. Introverted BPDs might be harder to “spot” unless you happen to know one personally, in which case you might notice occasional depressive symptoms and evidence of self harm.

Transparent Borderline – The Transparent Borderline is a bit of a mix between a high functioning borderline and either extroverted or introverted tendencies. In plain terms, Transparent Borderlines live double lives: on the surface, “in public”, they appear one way, but in private, amongst immediate family and friends, they appear completely different. As a result, they may or may not be high functioning due to this conflicted state of mind. Transparent Borderlines spend most of their emotional energy trying to balance the personality demands of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, the both of which experience strong BPD emotions like anyone else with the disease. Like Introverted Borderlines, Transparent Borderlines are harder to spot, and often only confess their true disposition after a harrowing rage, major break up, or other severely traumatic event that brings all their BPD feelings to the fore.

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I haven't been diagnosed with anything besides generalized anxiety disorder by a family doctor because I can't afford to seek mental health care. But when I get insurance and go see a psychiatrist, how can I effectively communicate to my doctor that I suspect I have BPD? I don't want to come across as a hypochondriac or that I'm drug-seeking (although being on klonopin for my "GAD" was the only thing that ever came close to regulating my moods), but I do want him to know what my concerns are.

Hi Anon,

I was very nervous about this too — it’s completely normal (especially for someone with BPD) to be worried about how you’ll look to a doctor if you walk in with a diagnosis in mind.

First of all, the primary treatment for Borderline Personality Disorder isn’t medication, it’s therapy. And the medication most BPD patients end up on is not the stuff that is likely to be abused — mood stabilizers, antidepressants, antipsychotics, etc. If you’ve already got a GAD diagnosis then your need for medication is established.

When you have insurance, call your doctor. After an initial appointment, your doctor may refer you to a mental health provider, such as a psychiatrist.

Here is how you can prepare for your appointment and learn what to expect from your doctor (source).

What you can do:

Write down any symptoms you or people close to you have noticed, and for how long.

Write down key personal information, including traumatic events in your past and any current, major stressors.

Make a list of your medical information, including other physical or mental health conditions and the names and amounts of medications or supplements you take.

Take a family member or friend along, if possible. Someone who has known you for a long time may be able to share important information with the doctor or mental health professional, with your permission.

Write down the questions you want to ask your doctor so that you can make the most of your appointment.

For symptoms common to borderline personality disorder, basic questions to ask your doctor or a mental health provider include:

What is likely causing my symptoms or condition?

Are there any other possible causes for my symptoms or condition?

What treatments are most likely to be effective for me?

How much can I expect my symptoms to improve with treatment?

How frequently will I need therapy sessions and for how long?

Are there medications that can help?

What are the possible side effects of the medication you may prescribe?

Do I need to take any precautions or follow any restrictions?

I have these other health conditions. How can I best manage them together?

How can my family members help me in my treatment?

Do you have any printed material that I can take home? What websites do you recommend?

Don’t hesitate to ask questions during your appointment if you don’t understand something.

What to expect from your doctor:

A doctor or mental health provider is likely to ask you a number of questions to aid in diagnosis of borderline personality disorder. Possible questions include:

What are your symptoms?

When did you first notice these symptoms?

How are these symptoms affecting your life, including your personal relationships and work?

How often during the course of a normal day do you experience a mood swing?

How often have you felt betrayed, victimized or abandoned? Why do you think that happened?

How well do you manage anger?

How well do you manage being alone?

Do you get bored easily?

How would you describe your sense of self-worth?

Have you ever felt you were bad, or even evil?

Have you had any problems with self-destructive or risky behavior?

Have you ever thought of or tried to harm yourself or attempted suicide?

Do you use alcohol or illegal drugs or abuse prescription drugs? How often?

How would you describe your childhood, including your relationship with your parents?

Were you physically abused or neglected as a child?

Have any of your close relatives been diagnosed with a mental health problem, including a personality disorder?

Have you been treated for any other mental health problems? If yes, what diagnoses were made, and what treatments were most effective?

Are you currently being treated for any other medical conditions?

Whew! I hope that comprehensive list gives you an idea of what to expect, and reassures you a bit. Good luck and please send in an update if you’d like to let us know how it goes :) Don’t fret in the meantime and take care of yourself using the many resources available to those with BPD.

Best,

~ Stephanie

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Have you ever just randomly cried because you’ve been holding shit in for too long?

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Hey lesbians

So, I just got to know that Avengers: Endgame is releasing on the same day as the International Lesbian Visibility Day.

So, Marvel, you better make the lesbians visible or the lesbians are going to tear you tf down

GO LESBIANS!

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Aries: you’re not alone. I know that this world is frightening, and being the strong one is what you’re so used to. you are always there to protect everyone else, and to put on the strong face for the people you love. I think that it’s time for you to recognize that putting yourself first, and being open with your emotions and feelings is only going to make you better in the long run. you can’t always swallow your emotions and feelings. be open and honest and let yourself be the one who breaks down every once in a while.

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