Feel free to skip this, but I need to put it out there to process my day.

Nobody ever tells you how hard losing a coworker is. I was not prepared to find out this morning that one of our managers passed away at an urgent care facility yesterday. He wasn't feeling well at the office yesterday morning, so he went to an urgent care. They brought him to a room and left to get the doctor and when they came back he had had a heart attack and was gone. Is there a way to prepare for that?

I didn't know him very well, but we did talk almost every day. And we flirted. I really liked him. And I think he liked me. I'm devastated. He had 5 kids who will never see their dad again. He left his parents. But more than anything I'm angry at him. I hate him for flirting with me for months and never asking me out. And I hate him for leaving me unsure of his feelings. I hate him for leaving me at all. I'm also angry at myself. I had decided to ask him what it was we were doing. If the flirting was just flirting or if it was going somewhere. I was going to ask him to go to a wedding with me. I was going to do it yesterday and I chickened out and said I would do it today, but today was too late.

I guess I'll add this to my pile of relationship trauma and reasons I'm afraid to love anyone. This sucks so much more than I would've imagined. I hate everything.

My friend at work told me and another girl that he likes "white girls because they have freckles so they look like tortillas" and I never thought being compared to a food would be a compliment, but it honestly made me feel better than anything anyone has ever said about my physical appearance.

Thoughts?

Oh I couldn’t possibly, I’ve already thought today thank you.

A few days ago my boss was leaving the office and he said "I'm going to run to see if I can find a desk" (because we have a new guy and he didn't have one). I said, "Ok, but I personally suggest driving instead of running though". So today one of the other guys said he was going to run to Home Depot and my boss said, "I was told to drive" and pointed to me. Idk why, but I thought it was so funny and now I can't stop thinking about it 😂

This is a vent and you can absolutely ignore it because I really just need to put this out there and not be made to feel like I'm overreacting or crazy.

I've spent the entire week convinced one of my coworkers hates me. We had a conversation last week about something and that I don't have the ability to fix it. Monday morning he came to my desk asking me about a different work order that had the same issue. I told him the same thing and explained it again. Then the district manager heard and told him to stop bugging me because I can't do anything about it. But then the guy was just weird with me all this week. Like, we've always had a pretty good relationship. We tease and joke and get along well. He's kind of a grumpy person, but for some reason those are the people I tend to like.

To preface, I found out that a couple I've known for almost 15 years is moving out of state. I said goodbye to them for possibly the last time on Sunday. I may never see them again. I have so many memories with them and in their home and it is really hard to see them go. So the emotions of people leaving me were high on Monday when this guy decided to come bombard me with this issue. And to be fair to him, he was having issues with some of his direct reports too, and I'm sure a lot of his frustrations weren't from the situation he was bringing me anyway. Nonetheless, he brought it to me expecting a solution I couldn't give him and it made him visibly upset. And like I said, he continued to treat me differently than normal all week.

I talked to several people about it and they all said that he was over it and that he didn't mean anything by it and that it's just him and that he wasn't mad at me and that he felt bad. So today I went to talk to him. I asked if we were good, and he said yes, but that he thought he had upset me and that I was mad. I told him I was never mad, but that he had hurt my feelings some because he knew I couldn't help and came to me upset anyway. He then basically continued to press the issue about how our system sucks (which it does, but I can't help) and that there has to be a better way and he did admit that he needs to go to our boss to get it taken care of and not me. He did not, however, apologize. Not once did he say he was sorry for hurting my feelings. Never implied that he felt bad for what happened. And never admitted that he shouldn't have brought the issue to me a second time at all. He also said that he would just not come to me anymore if there's something that needs to be fixed, implying that I won't help him. I would do literally anything in my power to fix something if I was wrong or if it was something I could help with. That just wasn't the situation.

So I went to my friend who I've known for over five years and told her about it. She told me again that it's just who he is and that he didn't mean it. And that I have to let it go because he won't think twice about it. And I can deal without an apology. But for some reason him hating me or being mad at me is like the worst thing I can imagine. I don't particularly care if people like me. I know I'm not everyone's cup of tea. Maybe it's because his boss is one of my favorite people and I don't want it to affect our relationship. Or maybe it's just because I know I didn't do anything wrong. But it kills me to think about him hating me forever because of this.

They always scared me too, but honestly they're pretty practical. It keeps most food out of the garbage can, which keeps it from smelling so bad. It also keeps pets from being so interested in the trash. Plus, if you have small children or rambunctious pets if the can gets knocked over it is a less gross mess. I never really got the point before I had one in my first apartment, but then I lived without it after that and it honestly made a huge difference in my life. I would give almost anything to have a disposal again.

as a European, garbage disposals are so scary. you guys just have a beast with knives for teeth living in your sink and act like its nothing

Thor: Love and Thunder looks so good!

Rotation boy

DOCTOR WHO APPRECIATION WEEK ↳ Day 1: Favorite Doctor

I've really wanted to try needle felting, but now I'm afraid I'll end up on a Tumblr post about how badly people mess up needle felting...

I feel like, we as a society, don't talk enough about people messing up needle felting.

“ummmmm ur bra strap is showing :/ ”

Y'all. Timehop just added Tumblr and I am honestly so excited. I have been waiting literal years to be able to see all my old Tumblr posts and when I posted them. I don't even know if anyone still uses Timehop, but I do and I'm not even ashamed.

rb and put in the tags whether 85f/29.5c is hot

I hate the future man this shit sucks so much

Your sixth most recent emoji is how your guardian angel feels about you

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what is uquiz if not some kid coming up to you in the playground saying “choose a color :p”

I sat in on our sales meeting today, and it was the best decision I ever made. Our district GM was telling the salespeople that we have a competitor that is poaching our customers. He told our hiring recruiter to recruit any of their employees that he can, saying "if they want to steal our work they'll do it without workers". He talked to our recruiter last night. A guy from that company just walked in for an interview and I am absolutely dying. Within 24 hours we have potentially hired one of their guys. Hopefully within the week they won't know what hit them.