i just want to disappear

i want to ruin everything so i can suffer terribly.

i will never be clean again

I look to the future and see nothing but an emptiness devoid of all hope....

Hate that I can’t just push a button to turn my brain off for a bit because I’m so tired of constantly dealing with these shitty dark thoughts 24/7

I wish I never met you.

i’m trying so hard

and still no one fucking cares

and that’s so selfish of me to think

cos i deserve nothing

i feel utterly useless. so so useless. im a waste, trash that needs to be tossed aside. i am not worthy of anything. im scared and empty. i can't do anything by myself. why do you love me? why bother? hahahaha..... im so disgusting and exhausted. why do any of you look at me like that? why do you care for me?

i am nothing.

i'm living a never ending nightmare

a part of me feels comfort in my traumas

POV You don't open up to people in real life, but you overshare on the internet for everyone to see.

I’m tired of being me I wish I never existed

"i love you" so why do you treat me like you hate me?

i don’t care i don’t fucking care

I’m so ready to just give in and let go of living this shitty life bc I’m drained and tired of holding on for years when it never gets better

"You’re so polite" thanks i was raised in constant fear of upsetting people.