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“RYAN WHERE THE FUCK DID YOU GO?!” and other shit you might wonder
First off: I am so sorry for disappearing off of the face of the earth oh my god
Second off: I’m going on an indefinite hiatus as of Sundayish. Yes, you read that right, an indefinite hiatus. All the content on the blog will stay for our enjoyment, and I fully authorize use of my gifs anywhere and everywehre
Third off: if you’re struggling rn, shit gets better, PLEASE trust me on this.
TLDR of this post; I got better, so can you, and I’m heading out.
ENT GC: let me know if you want admin. Do what you want with the blog, and if you wanna make a new group chat, please do so since I won’t be around to add people.
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#jonathan archer#scott bakula#t’pol#jolene blalock#star trek enterprise#trekedit#entedit#startrekedit#startrekdaily#enjoy shitty draft content#discoentgifs
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Enterprise Deserved Better
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I am not ready to let go of Archer’s crew, I loved Star Trek: Enterprise so much
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jon talking about the enterprise is all of us
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“RYAN WHERE THE FUCK DID YOU GO?!” and other shit you might wonder
First off: I am so sorry for disappearing off of the face of the earth oh my god
Second off: I’m going on an indefinite hiatus as of Sundayish. Yes, you read that right, an indefinite hiatus. All the content on the blog will stay for our enjoyment, and I fully authorize use of my gifs anywhere and everywehre
Third off: if you’re struggling rn, shit gets better, PLEASE trust me on this.
TLDR of this post; I got better, so can you, and I’m heading out.
ENT GC: let me know if you want admin. Do what you want with the blog, and if you wanna make a new group chat, please do so since I won’t be around to add people.
Keep reading
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#discoentgifs#star trek discovery#star trek#michael burnham#sonequa martin green#saru#doug jones#01x15#will you take my hand?
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enterprise-themed storytime!
because i’m in a good mood! some of these were kinda hard, but i tried. send me a character and i’ll tell you a story about/involving...
jonathan archer: something athletic you’ve done, weather it’s with a sports team or not.
t’pol: something smart you did, not limited to academically.
trip tucker: the closest you’ve ever come to being Florida Man?
malcolm reed: something selfless you did for someone else?
hoshi sato: a miscommunication.
travis mayweather: something that you did when trying to do a trend?
phlox: an animal.
porthos: a time when you were really, really good.
shran: a time when you didn’t look the greatest in others’ eyes.
soval: a time where you argued with someone who later became a friend/acquaintance.
temporal agent daniels: a time when you experienced deja vu
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“RYAN WHERE THE FUCK DID YOU GO?!” and other shit you might wonder
First off: I am so sorry for disappearing off of the face of the earth oh my god
Second off: I’m going on an indefinite hiatus as of Sundayish. Yes, you read that right, an indefinite hiatus. All the content on the blog will stay for our enjoyment, and I fully authorize use of my gifs anywhere and everywehre
Third off: if you’re struggling rn, shit gets better, PLEASE trust me on this.
TLDR of this post; I got better, so can you, and I’m heading out.
ENT GC: let me know if you want admin. Do what you want with the blog, and if you wanna make a new group chat, please do so since I won’t be around to add people.
How can I contact you/get your contact info before you go?
Dallyn and Daphne have my contact info so if you ever need to reach me and I’m gone... yeah. Like I said, I’ll be heading out Sundayish, so I’ll periodically log in here if you wanna talk to me/get my info before I go.
What’s your actual name?
That... that’s a long story, too. LMAO. Especially if you know me. DM me for the story if you know me.
Why are you leaving?
So, as you guys know, I started college, which is completely and utterly whack. Everything is changed, everything is different and I have friends now? Like, WTF. I’ve been so wrapped up in work it took me forever to get on here after Dallyn texted me “your account got hacked” so... oops. I let everyone into the ent gc (oh my GOD i look back at that and have a love/hate relationship with it!) and let me know if you figure out a way to make admins on it??? I’m confused AF.
I’m going to be focusing off college and staying off Tumblr for a while. It was 2 am technically today and I was reading all my old posts like “jfc I was so depressed???” and now I’m just... not. I made friends, real friends, over the summer. People who understand and get it (and yes some of them are ent stans.)
Why did you disappear in May and why are you leaving again?
Shortly put, and I don’t mean to sound mean, I made real friends. Real as in I will physically interact with them in real life (aka college friends). I kind of weaned off Tumblr slowly, and only kept going back for the ent gc (I LOVE YOU GUYS THOUGH!!!). And it kinda became a drag.
When I came back to Tumblr, it was like late January and early February. I’d just got out of the Instagram rping world and was so tempted to start one here, but I was scared and intimidated, and I’m glad I didn’t. Breaking off rp was the best thing I’d ever done for myself, and the best thing that this toxic girl ever did for me. My shitty mental health had been kinda dependent on this rp, it’s hard to explain, but I was being a jerk and kinda had been since freshman year with projecting my feelings onto my character’s and blurring the lines far too much between me and her. She was (and is!) still hella overpowered, hella perfect, and something that would absolutely never happen in canon.
Honestly, this whole situation was basically the lyrics to the song Clarity ft. Foxes by Zedd. I love that song, go give it a listen.
Point being, I got myself off of that once I realized. The problem had started in January 2017, ran through October 2017, and then took a hiatus until junior year but only started to really manifest itself in February 2019. And honestly, mainly when school started back, in September/October 2019 and lasted until January 4 when she and I had our last fight. (She messaged me again, later- here- and since making that post, we’ve ended things on neutral terms.)
So I came here. Tumblr. I’d been here in 2017 right after the OTHER rp ended, and I think Tumblr became my new outlet then, too. I was a baby in the middle of my freshman year then. And then there I was, coming full circle. As a senior in high school. I read all of my old posts about how I’d never make it, and there I was. I’d made it. The end of HS was in sight.
I straight up vibed through all of May. Now, I was slowly making friends in college already, but it only really took off in April and May, which is when I left. I focused more on those, building those connections. I loved you guys on Tumblr, I still do, but I was definitely going to meet these college friends. And as I pulled my head out of Tumblr, I got a job, an actual paying job , in June- and I was already gone.
As I looked back on my posts last night/this morning I was thinking “oh my GOD what the fuck” because jfc, Tumblr had turned into the place where I vented. And then as I got through the months, I became happier. The pandemic was around, duh, and I didn’t have as much school stressing me out, there wasn’t as much craziness around. I was free, I didn’t have people from high school to deal with, and I got better on my own.
YEAH, I was talking to a college guy. And yeah, that was nice, but it was more of a side thing. He was my friend, and he played me, but I learned to be myself. Learned to love Enterprise wildly and give absolutely no fucks.
And it is oh so nice to give zero fucks. It’s an amazing feeling. I hope everyone gets there someday. And yeah, I’ve had moments where people don’t like me, and moments where I’ve felt down, depressed. That’s not saying life is always perfect 100% of the time.
But what I’m trying to say is: it gets better. And to me, Tumblr was like a crutch. Sometimes you need it to help you stand, but when you think you always need it, and can stand on your own, that’s where the problem is. In May, I became confident enough to let the crutch go. And I’m thankful that I did that.
I still love you guys, everyone reading this post, the people that know me and are going to miss me. It’s not that I hate this website or anything- I just stopped using it as a crutch, you know?
Where can I read this crazy fanfic?
DM me, haha. It’s the classic “self-insert but NOT a self-insert” fanfiction originating form a fifth grade idea, reformatted by my depressed fourteen-year-old self. And I wouldn’t change it for the world. Yes, it’s Star Trek.
I also have one for the girl’s relative, too, which IMO is much better. She’s less overpowered, more of a real human being.
So why mention the fanfic and RP?
It’s weird; I’ve come full circle. I wanted to be this perfect girl, and then I planned how she’d finish her story (and I’m finishing it. I am, I promise, because she’s a part of me that I wouldn’t trade for anything). As I’ve taken a break from the E/AP-verse (my public nickname for it haha, someone found out here) I’ve realized again, I came full circle.
All I wanted back then was to be happy and I thought a guy would do it. Popularity, a bunch of friends, a “hot body” (btw FUCK BODY SHAMING and you’re all perfect) and all that BS that the media tells you. What really gives you happiness (or at least me)? Confidence. The fact that I know I have friends I can count on here. Yeah, a relationship is nice, but complete yourself before you get into one.
And when I planned my OC’s ending back in February, that’s what she got. She’s married in my head now, to her (and my!) perfect guy, but the important part is that she’s happy, and she’s herself before she got married. Before she got in her relationship.
So, yeah. I think that covers it. In all honesty, if you have more questions, send them to the ask box and I’ll tag them and all this as “ry’s goodbye” and update my nav page. It’s 12:39 AM so please excuse any typos!
Bye, guys. For now, at least.
I love you.
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This world feels like a dream. A strange, terrible, beautiful dream.
STAR TREK: DISCOVERY
—returns October 15, 2020
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its 2:45 and im starting it but send asks and i will answer probably tomorrow in one long post :)
for any of y’all that see me active and are about to demand an explanation, you WILL get one, brb im typing and still collegeing (it’s 2:13 am) and if you have questions send them to the ask box
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Y’ALL I CALLED IT
as per request, a mock star trek: captain pike tv show poster! rumors say that there’s a pike show in the works...
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does this still work because this wasn’t a bad theory
holy shit what if enterprise was an AU starting with the season 2 finale??????
i was just thinking and you know that scene where archer meets the future guy? (“the expanse” in the season 2 finale). sorry no read more because i’m on mobile and probably high from lack of sleep
he said “if they deploy the weapon” and obviously, they did. thank god archer destroyed it tho.
the sphere builders were able to see timelines so what if this was an alternate timeline???? THAT would explain why nobody’s heard of the xindi conflict. which was a pretty big thing in federation history.
it’s also proven that daniels would still exist if the timeline he knew was destroyed. for some reason he would exist but everyone else would not. the federation didn’t even happen and everyone was gone. (“shockwave, part ii” in season 2). but daniels was still around....
AND we know that the buildings and stuff were destroyed (and archer says that it seemed like they got destroyed a long time ago. so it’s not like there were still people and one just Happened to be daniels- we don’t see anyone else at all. they ALSO have PAPER BOOKS?)
so if daniels existed, bu this logic, the future guy could too. (especially if future guy WAS ACTUALLY ARCHER.) so he could warn them of the xindi. and exist. and like maybe)???
that would explain why the ent we see (xindi war and on) was never explained in the rest of canon and might shut up some of the enterprise haters.
idk, i’m tired and probably forgetting something, time to log off and SLEEP goodnight tumblr
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i still do this
it’s 11:42 pm here and i’m pretending like i’m on stage or something with the live performance of into the unknown... all i need is for jon to show up and then i’m like “oH didn’t see u there” and i’m basically a fanficfion character
imagine being able to sing tho,,,,,
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LAKSLAMXMAMMZLALWOKRLWMDKKSLALDJLS
Who is jon and em and what’s iykyk
HAKSKAMDKAKAMS
jon and em are my secret pairing in my shitty fanfics. i’m never gonna tell you who one is but you can probably guess the other,,,i’ve told so many people just dm me
iykyk is i think a gabi fuller thing? it means “if you know, you know”
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scrolling through old posts
it was me, i told myself
just got playedd and then thought “why get laid when you can get played” even tho a) i’m a virgin and b) i’m going to school with him in the fall so i’ve never met him
i had a post that predicted i was gonna get played, but then i deleted it because i thought i had a shot but nope i got played
2020 next prediction is “someone’s gonna tell m3 HE AIN’T SHIT/HE DOES NOT DESERVE YOU!!!!1! or some variation” and they’re gonna be right
time to make like trip tucker and transfer out
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for any of y’all that see me active and are about to demand an explanation, you WILL get one, brb im typing and still collegeing (it’s 2:13 am) and if you have questions send them to the ask box
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