Today I'm taking the train at 5 am, but I could not forget about weighing. It's better but still far from the goal.

4 th day and my breakfast

crisp rye bread (31 kcal)

2 dried fig (84 kcal)

115 kcal

Edit: dinner

multigrain bread (143kcal )

rose jam (29kcal)

pickled cucumber (24 kcal)

Dried fig (64kcal)

Soya smooth chocolate dessert (104kcal)

365 kcal

Today is my third day of water fast.

I feel a little bit dizzy, but I can handle it!

Today I start the second day of water fast

This is my fucking weight.

Today I’m starting my water fast ✨

keep fingers crossed!

on Friday I will publish pictures of my figure

I’m back

There have been many bad things in the past few months. I gave up my diet, I began to overeat and returned to the weight I hate. but I want to change it. I’m strong and I know that if I’ve done my best to do it someday. This time it will also succeed. I intend to lose weight and achieve the goal. so few last time. I believed the therapist and started to eat normally. Now I know it was bad because I’m a fat pig again. Ana I’m back and I can’t wait to grow rumble in my stomach and scars in front of my eyes. I start today. every day I will post a photo of weight for motivation, photo of my each meal and every week  photo of my figure. I will arrange a diet plan. I hope that I will help me with the fact that I have gone vegan. I am begging for motivations. I want to finally get rid of this disgusting fat and be thin. Today 13.01.2019 I am undertaking this fight. No vomiting, overeating or drinking calories. Ana, please help me.

I give up.. I can’t do this anymore..

Decision

I binged today, after that I was vomiting, but thanks to that I finally understood what I want to achieve. I hate such food, I want to be slim and I will achieve it because food does not give me any pleasure anymore. it remains my goal even if it is damn hard. remember these moments because I am officially starting my adventure.

😍😍😍

Therapy

I'm getting closer to reaching the 1st goal, but I have huge doubts. My therapist thinks I should start taking medication (Seronil if someone associates it). I have no idea what to do because I do not feel the need to take it. In spite of the fact that I am grateful for her a lot, because she helped me a lot, I start to feel an increasing reluctance to go to therapy. I have the impression that it distracts me from what I really want, that is weight loss. Do any of you have similar experiences?

🌻My reputation’s never been worse

I don’t know if this is a normal stage, but I start to feel guilt even after eating an apple or drinking a protein sheikh. And I do not exceed my daily limit of 500 kcal.

this is my huge motivation

WHY CHEAT? EVERY DAY THAT YOU BINGE YOU PUSH YOUR GOAL WEIGHT BY A WHOLE FUCKING WEEK, DON’T BINGE.

You can be thin. You really can. You see this so many times on tumblr, I’m sure. Maybe it hasn’t sank in yet…

Let me say it for you again for you.

You can be thin.

Don’t just read. Think.

You CAN be thin.

You literally can be fucking thin, literally. It’s very possible.

One of my all time favourite pictures

It’s November.

No, binging.

No, fast food.

No, messing around.

No, gaining weight.

No, going over your calorie limit.

We can do this!