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If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)
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ignore this, I need to vent. maybe tw for suicide ideation if you actually decide to read though
feeling really exhausted rn from crying and having an argument with my mom...
i just wanna sleep and eat the baguette my dad handed me and the fast food stuff he got me a few days ago but neglected to eat because he got it for me at like 6 pm and I was just ready to pass out from doing homework. It's a bit stale at this point, but I don't really wanna get out of my room and make food.. the store bought baguette is pretty good though...
also my rug and desk is stained in soda right now since my mom decided to slap me twice in the face while I was holding my open bottle of soda. so there's that
she came into my room just a few moments ago and asked me who's fault it was we were having the argument. I said her cause I was not backing down after what she did and the fact she kept telling me to stop crying and that I'm acting like a child. she then gave me a terrible apology, which I just said okay. I did not accept her apology since she is not entitled to. she does this so many times to me when I was younger, it's not as frequent now as it was back then. I can't even remember much of my childhood because of how much I repressed of every single she's done this. I constantly flinched everytime she moved because of how scared I am of being hit. Back then she didn't even apologize.
She only started apologizing because of an incident during an argument last year where I threatened to run away or use a broken light bulb on myself. I didn't break the light bulb with hands, but it broke when she tried to get it out of my hands. I actually have a permanent scar on my finger after that.
we've only had arguments and moments where she hits me when it's about my grades. she holds me on a pedestal to always have high grades and have awards, since when I was younger I would get medals or little trophies. i would get certificates too. even being in a spelling bee as well, which she had me continuously writing a single word one thousand times on paper for me to remember. It was all the words on the list too. I remember she would start screaming at me if I stopped. this was for the Scripps spelling bee, I only made it to a point where I was in a competition against kids from schools nearby mine. for my school I placed 2nd I think, and for the one against other schools I placed 5th.
i haven't faced any ire from my dad, since he's a neutral party in every argument I have with my mom. though there was one time, and this was the only time. this was when I was in middle school, I spent money on books at a book fair without telling my parents. it was refunded when the situation was explained. when we got home though, my dad was angry. it was understandable. when we were inside the house, he grabbed me by the back of my shirt and started dragging me to the point where I was suffocating from my throat being cut off by my own shirt. he then threw me out onto the porch and told me I should just live on my own with the clothes I had on my body.
im not really in an abusive household i don't think so at least, i've been called spoiled before since I do get spoiled and be given things I want. a family member, my niece who's a year younger than me, says it's bribery as to keep me in check. also that I might be spoiled by my parents, but i'm still chained by restrictions. which is fair since even though I'm 17 I'm not allowed to be home alone if they're going someplace far. neither am I allowed to go walk somewhere alone, even if the grocery store is just a few blocks away from my house.
i think a lot about how I want to run away and possibly just die in a ditch somewhere. or how I shouldn't still be alive at this point and that I should have died when I was 13. or when i'm washing the dishes and while I'm cleaning a knife I would think about pressing it into my palm. I think about every time my mom says that if it wasn't for I wouldn't be alive, and how I wished she never gave birth to me.
the only reason I want to keep going on is my close friend who's stuck with me even when every other friend I've had has moved on and made other friends. I keep moving on with the support of the only one in my family who I'm close to, who knows me more than I understand myself, and knows how to keep my secrets. I still live because I want to experience life outside of my mom, I want to my freedom to choose what I want instead of being told of what i should do or how I should do something. I want to pursue my interests and not be told that "i'll grow out of it." I do not want my clothes chosen for me because "it'll look better than what you pick." I do not want to be constantly asked if I am not friends anymore with my one and only friend. I do not want to be told how my only friend will leave me someday. I do not want to be told "you can rely on me" by the very person who has argued against my ideals and has hit me several times before.
#vent#tw#tw suicide ideation#I cried for an hour straight before I wrote this#listening to music to cope
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OMG HI!! @umishiqu TY FOR TAGGING!!
Last song: Ruler of My Heart and Cure (Alien Stage has me in a grip rn)
Favorite Color: Sunflower yellow, cornflower blue, and lavender! (I can never pick just one XD)
Currently watching: Rewatching Yu-Gi-Oh and Doctor Who since these were such a core memory for me when I was younger and wanted to feel some nostalgia! Dungeon Meshi, Sherlock Holmes, and Percy Jackson!
Last Movie: FNAF movie if I remember correctly. I haven't watched any movies recently ;-;
Sweet/Savory/Spicy: Savory! Though I do like anything sweet as well!
Relationship Status: Single and probably gonna stay that way for a LONG time.
Current Obsession: Talentless Nana, Alien Stage, Identity V, Persona 3 and 5, and PJO!
Last Thing You Google'd: "Yuukyou Seishunka" I recently realized that this song was an ED of Lelouch of the Rebellion and that one of my favorite bands, ALI PROJECT, was the one who made it. Also "classical conditioning" because I was doing a project for psychology class. ^^
TAGGIING TIME!! I TAG YOU!
I'd like to know you all better! No pressure to do this!
@bunnnali, @michiruakabane, @fantast-el, @missophelia0, @salwahahah, @temtiflakes, @bdanp
NINE PEOPLE I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW BETTER
OMG TYSM FOR TAGGING ME @liass-21 !!!!! i am so sorry i drafted this tag and i thought i queue'd it and i didnt so 😭😭😭 its only like a month late. its fine everythings fine. aaaaaa 😭
LAST SONG? - "photograph" by the midnight! it is on my writing-for-top-gun playlist bc it has huge maverick vibes lol.
FAVORITE COLOR? - pink!!!! also lighter purples and blues and most pastel shades <3 and black
CURRENTLY WATCHING? - a streamer i have never watched before playing the remaster of of tomb raider i-iii bc i am excited about the remaster!! and those games are my childhood <3 not to be a million years old or anything sakfhfjfhg
LAST MOVIE? - unfortunately it was 'oz the great and powerful' 😭 if any of y'all enjoyed that movie i respect it, but i had to see it on tv at a friend's house and we were having a great time laughing at the very unexpected writing and acting choices being made lol
SWEET/SPICY/SAVORY? - aaaaaaaa i guess savory ?????? but sweet has a special place in my heart ajdhfjfhfjg
RELATIONSHIP STATUS? - committed long term relationship to ~my person~ <3<3
CURRENT OBSESSIONS? - well this is gonna be obvious but top gun primarily !!!! additionally, dan and phil !! mission impossible !!! fall out boy!! and even if the current obsession level is not as high as other things, i am always at least partially obsessed with a hundred other things and people that i am probably posting about at the same time lol
LAST THING YOU GOOGLED? - “oz the great and powerful reviews” bc i wanted to make sure that im not crazy and that other ppl also felt that movie was an insane fever dream (apparently due to the 44% on metacritic i guess they did lol)😭
tagging: aaaaaa @brambleberrycottage @daffodilstark @tellhound @torchflies @melancholydandelion @goosefilms @driftershunt @downthegenderriver @callsignstingray
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#idv#idv fanart#idv composer#idv novelist#frederick kreiburg#orpheus#idv orpheus#idv frederick#my art lol#started: January 10 2024#finished: March 20 2024
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Talentless Nana Spoilers!
Loved that we get to see Rin’s time on the island! Rin and Jin interaction! Yay!
Also I’m gonna make a guess and say that Kazuha is the girl Tsurouka mentioned in this
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I nearly forgot!! Birthday art!! It’s my birthday!!
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HI HI ‘TIS I!! (Had to recreate my acc😭)
BUT ANYWAY
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🎂HAPPY BIRTHDAY🎉 TO YOU🥳 HAPPY BIRTHDAY🎈 TO YOU🎊 HAPPY BIRTHDAY🎁 BIG SIS HANNAAAA🍾 HAPPY BIIIIIRTHDAAAAY🎂 TOOOO YOUUU🎉🥳
I love you very very much and I am very grateful for you in my life, I’m immensely proud of you for being here and brightening not only mine, but everyone’s road!!
- your younger brother (and also sister now!!) kris♡
OMG THANK YOU FOR THE BIRTHDAY WISHES!!
I love you too! You're the best sibling I could ever wish for! I'm glad to be in your life :) ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Eating my pookie's art 🍽
@dearwysteria
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It does considering both of their personalities and would be fun ngl thanks for answering
No, thank you anon! I had fun with the request and enjoyed doing it!
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oh that looks perfect its such a great design thanks a bunch! Quick question if Bill Cipher and Yuuka Sasaki did fuse together from, what would the fusions personality end up being?
Thank you anon, I’m glad you liked it!
To answer your question, I think that would they might be playful but in a malicious and teasing way. If that makes sense?
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Hi there! Are you open for art requests right now? If so, could I request that you draw Nana brushing Nanao’s hair (in their appearances from the current arc)? Tysm! <3
I’m always open for art requests thanks for asking! Here you go, this was an interesting one to do ^^
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oh thanks a bunch they both look so cute and you did such a great job! But here's the thing and I should've been more clear about this. But when I asked for a fusion I meant a combination of the 2 characters designs and personalities into 1 characters. Now I do appreciate the hard work you did and if you don’t wanna make it again I getcha doing stuff over is super frustrating for me at least. But I'm trying to fix the mistake I made last time. Hopefully this made things clearer than before and if not but you’re still interested I'm down for any questions you have thanks again
It’s alright anon! This one’s a great request and it was pretty fun to do! I didn’t know exactly what do for an outfit and I’m pretty bad at drawing clothes but I think this looked nice!
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im feeling so ill after seeing the raws for chapter 90.
also i have the urge to draw brain matter rn, specifically nanao's :)
just wanna draw his dead corpse with his brain splattered on the ground with a pool of blood
#tn rambles idk#wys rambles#i am not mentally ok even more than usual bc of this series#also might go into a bit of a hiatus for bit#i need to take a break from social media :P#gonna finish that request from anon before i do it tho
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hey I discovered your art and it's amazing and it inspired this weird idea so could ya please draw a bill cipher from gf and Yuuka Sasaki from Talentless Nana because I love both their characters, they're very similar and they're both yellow so thought it'd be perfect! If you don't do it I understand either way hope you're doing awesome!
Aw thanks anon! Here ya go!
#talentless nana#munou na nana#gravity falls#yuuka sasaki#bill cipher#dipper pines#shinji kazama#my art lol#answered asks#anon <3
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#talentless nana#munou na nana#nana hiiragi#hiiragi nana#nakajima nanao#nanao nakajima#my art lol#talentless nana x persona 5
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