❝ gosh, sora ... i'm not feeling too well myself! ❞

❛ king mickey, i don't feel too good. ❜

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both tea and isa are going to KILL me

♡ : ❝ it would hurt me less if you'd just── hate me properly, ❞ kairi says one day, voice quiet ⅋ eyes empty, slumped into herself. she wants everyone to hate her, if only because that would mean they expected anything more than the pathetic nothing she's been ⅋ offered so far. but she wants riku to hate her most of all. ( she will die, if riku hates her. she'll die, or she won't, bleeding light but never enough to kill. but she'll die like this, too, this unspoken resentment / distance / ⅋ who tried to leave first, princess? ) ❝ this── thing where you don't trust me or like me but you can't figure out how to hate me is worse. ❞ ╲ unprompted, always accepting.

something dark ⅋ ugly creeps up in him.

riku leashes it, immediately; it's second nature. this tempting whisper, this snapping anger── he'd dealt with it for years, with ansem's prodding deep in the crevices of his mind. but ansem is gone── but riku remains── so whose voice is it, really?

he doesn't know why it speaks. he loves kairi, loves her so much, too much── his heart feels choked with the fear of her disappearing again, ( again, again, again── she hasn't stopped disappearing ) , disappearing too. ‘ how could i hate you? ’ riku wants to say, ‘ how could i feel anything like that? ’ he's so sure about his love for kairi, he wants── he wants to prove it, he wishes she'd see herself how he sees her── he wants, so badly, to tell her he's never stopped thinking about her, about her safety── riku──

riku looks at her ⅋ sees a corpse.

no, not exactly── but lifeless, with her eyes dull, she's nothing better than a corpse── he blinks, ⅋ sees kairi. no, not── she's not kairi, with her gilded hair ⅋ hands worn by paper ⅋ pencils, making herself small because it's all she's learned how to do, so── he blinks, ⅋ she has kairi's face, but she carries herself a little unsure, like she's a fake, surrounded by the black of the organization coat── he blinks, he keeps blinking, through each of his failures, shattered reflections, he sees──

who is he seeing?

there's a kairi that stands in front of him, who looks tired ⅋ hurt ⅋ maybe just a little desperate── there's a kairi in front of him, who he doesn't know at all. not a corpse or a wrong reflection but── kairi. kairi, who thinks riku hates her, who thinks riku doesn't trust her. kairi, who isn't a corpse, who hasn't disappeared, who stares at him, alive ⅋ breathing, ⅋ hurt all the same.

( when did she become so unfamiliar to him? when did she start believing him so cruel? for so long, it'd been the three of them, wishing for another life on destiny islands; for so long, it'd been sora, keeping the two of them afloat.

sora, sora, sora── he's gone, now, leaving the two of them to pick up the shattered pieces. the raft is long gone ⅋ the paopu fruit has rotted away ⅋ the two of them remain, strangers more than friends, unable to stop the widening chasm. )

his words dry up. he looks away. distantly, he hears something breaking, falling away.

❝ i don't, ❞ riku starts, choked in the swell of his own emotion, ❝ i don't hate you. i don't── ❞ but what if he did? what if he does? does he blame her, for sora disappearing, sora vanishing into thin air? the thought is so ugly ⅋ violent that he physically reacts, shaking his head ⅋ clenching his hands into fists. he doesn't; he believes he doesn't. but whose voice is asking, wondering if he does? ( it sounds like his. it makes him nauseous. ) ❝ why do you── believe that? how did i give you that── ❞

he cuts off, unable to continue. ( he thinks he knows, what he's done, but can never confirm it── can never tell anyone, will take this to his grave── the lives he's taken. the sacrifices he's made. how many twisted reflections has he killed, from himself to sora to kairi? ) a heartbeat, two, three── ❝ i wish i knew how to fix this, ❞ he says meekly.

fix us.

theres smthing so magical about riku and the girls he surrounds himself with being all the girls he's killed or let suffer and that's so beautiful and awesome actually

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rereading me and sparky's old soriku thread and this is fucking HILARIOUS

smthing smthing aqua being paler than she was because of her time in the rod. then slowly, post kh3, gaining that life back, because she spends so much time in the sun :')

♡ : his hand twitches in sora's hold; it aches, just a bit. it used to be worse── ( did it get better? / did he just get used to it? ) ── but with all their training, the painful, passing reminder becomes an ever present burn. curaga blooms across sora's fingertips, skirting across the overworked tendons ⅋ out of place bones── because of course sora of all people has noticed── but no amount of magic will ever be enough. he'd waited too long to heal it properly; they both know this, yet sora seems to carry the knowledge like a weight on his shoulders, like he does with everything else.

( is he another burden atop an already shaky atlas? ) ❝ it'll be fine, ❞ riku says softly, guiltily, but he doesn't pull away from the cooling touch. ( is he a selfish orpheus? ) his eyes close as he focuses on the sensation; kairi's spells are a pleasant warmth, like the tides of destiny islands, but sora's feels like the coolness of night.

they both feel like home.

❝ it's gotten better, i promise. you ⅋ kairi have been helping with that. ❞

the left hand of darkness

can u guys look at this animatic made for march caprice cuz it makes me fucking insane

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♡ : it’s a familiar feeling── this sort of nervousness, giddy feeling, cast in the light of the sunset── but it’s different. a recollection of painful memories, redrawn. naminé walks along the sand of the island ⅋ listens to the wave crash against the shore, heading towards the dock where a lone figure sits. different, redrawn── freer now than they were before. ( are they truly free at all? ) ❝ i wanted to meet you, ❞ she says as she approaches, her smile soft ⅋ shy. ❝ in person. hello, roxas. ❞

tloz: twilight princess (manga) starters

❝ i was shattered. i lost everything. ❞ ❝ i warned you not to take me lightly. ❞ ❝ we’re partners, aren’t we? ❞ ❝ ever since we’ve met, you’ve been disobedient and rude. ❞ ❝ take suffering as your companion, and unease and fear as friends. if you do, darkness will become light. ❞ ❝ it’s a cold world out there. you’ve gotta learn to trust folks. ❞ ❝ as you stand before me now, you’re all desperation and bravado. that is not true bravery. ❞ ❝ you can’t change your past and you can’t change who you were. you can only decide who you’re going to be. ❞ ❝ resentment is a trap of the heart into which everyone falls. ❞ ❝ you don’t look well. are you ill? ❞ ❝ you were born into life with a destiny. you cannot run away from that. ❞ ❝ you carry a smouldering darkness inside you. ❞ ❝ it’s considered impolite not to give your all in a fight. ❞ ❝ at dusk and dawn…it’s easy for all sorts of things to sneak by. ❞ ❝ since that day, so much has changed for me. ❞ ❝ i’m sorry. it’s been hard, huh? ❞ ❝ a true hero must shoulder a heavy responsibility. ❞ ❝ stay calm. move cautiously and remain vigilant. ❞ ❝ one more time. try telling the truth. ❞ ❝ why keep fighting until you’re just a broken wreck? ❞ ❝ if we start a fight, we must be ready to hit back. ❞ ❝ in the end, it’s easier just to be selfish. ❞ ❝ i was lost without you. i was lonely. ❞ ❝ why do i so often taste this sense of loss? ❞ ❝ i think both our journeys are pointing to the same place. ❞ ❝ power does not inhabit a blade without bravery. ❞ ❝ did you hear something? like the cry of a beast… ❞ ❝ what’s wrong? if you’re too weak, then just leave. ❞ ❝ what is strength? is it displays of power mocking the weak? destroying beauty simply to satisfy your greed? ❞ ❝ you get too worked up over things. ❞ ❝ easy for you to say. i’m the one getting beat up. ❞ ❝ i don’t need thanks. i didn’t do it for you. ❞ ❝ depending on your attitude…i might be able to help. ❞ ❝ if you don’t do as i say, i’ll take your arm off. ❞ ❝ as leader, i will not choose the path of pain and death for my people. i must protect them. ❞ ❝ strength isn’t about power…it’s about being brave. ❞ ❝ you have good eyes. the eyes of a proud beast. ❞ ❝ if the need arises, i will not hesitate to pick up a sword and fight. ❞ ❝ i guessed you had a secret past.   people can try to hide it, but nature shows through. ❞ ❝ i was lying when i said i’d never held a sword.❞ ❝ there’s no time for sentimentality. ❞ ❝ if someone comes in who knows about your past, i’ll protect you if they try to hurt you. ❞ ❝ is there something strange about me? ❞ ❝ be careful…there have been monsters around here lately. ❞ ❝ choose…surrender or die. ❞ ❝ when i feel uneasy or afraid i just think: ‘this is my mission’. ❞ ❝ don’t take me for nothing more than a fine doll good only for decoration. ❞ ❝ i’m nothing more than dirt. i’m not worth all that effort. ❞ ❝ why do you think we’re any safer here? ❞ ❝ don’t die on me now. ❞ ❝ ha! even you have a good idea sometimes. ❞ ❝ i fought through all kinds of monsters to get here…and i survived. ❞ ❝ i’ve spent so long looking for you! i’m so glad you’re safe. ❞ ❝ people are always hovering over me…and it’s so suffocating! ❞ ❝ some detours lead to unexpected good luck. ❞ ❝ you say whatever you think…i’ve never done that. ❞ ❝ there is no greater joy than helping a friend. ❞ ❝ what do you mean ‘never mind’? ❞ ❝ these days such peaceful travels are rare indeed. ❞ ❝ wildly rushing into danger isn’t courage. ❞ ❝ didn’t you say there’s something you need to do, no matter what it takes? ❞ ❝ i sense unprecedented danger approaching. ❞ ❝ how do you feel now, looking back upon yourself at that time? ❞ ❝ as usual, you’re a wimp. ❞ ❝ resentment is dangerous. it comes in through the slightest crack in your heart. ❞ ❝ i’d go to the ends of the earth for you. ❞ ❝ it really hasn’t been that long, but you’ve grown into a fine man. ❞ ❝ now is the time for us to take back all that was stolen. ❞ ❝ one thing’s certain — those aren’t human. ❞ ❝ what do you fight to protect? answer. ❞ ❝ i wish you wouldn’t do such dangerous things. ❞ ❝ if you got hurt due to my mistakes…i don’t think i could live with that. ❞ ❝ why would you do all that…when we’ve only just met? ❞ ❝ it’s a pretty name. perfect for you. ❞ ❝ once your wounds heal, you’ll need to leave right away. ❞ ❝ the hero on his knees! quite a sight. ❞ ❝ how does it feel to be so strong? quite a rush, isn’t it? ❞ ❝ you’re all puffed up on your own arrogance…drunk on your own pride. ❞ ❝ i once wondered how good you are…now i see you’re really skilled. ❞ ❝ i’m not physically strong like you…but my wits, brains and analysis can be helpful. ❞ ❝ don’t say you can’t accept that this is the end. ❞ ❝ you just want to satisfy your own ambition and lust for power. ❞ ❝ it’ll be all right because we’re together. ❞ ❝ why would you leave me at a time like this? ❞ ❝ for the first time i feel like i’m overflowing with incredible power. ❞ ❝ there’s no time for doubt. you are the chosen one. ❞ ❝ your problem is that you demand absolute perfection. ❞ ❝ there is no easy path. but you can definitely overcome it. ❞ ❝ i’m so very sorry. i broke my promise. i hurt you. ❞ ❝ that’s the spirit. hate me more. only then will this fight be worthwhile. ❞ ❝ i thought you were dead. ❞ ❝ well…? say something. or has my beauty left you speechless? ❞ ❝ i never forgot you. not for one moment. ❞ ❝ sorry for killing the mood. ❞ ❝ light and shadow are two sides of the same coin. one cannot exist without the other. ❞ ❝ if you desire something…then that is my desire too. ❞ ❝ who says i’m afraid of you? ❞ ❝ your weapon is little better than a toy. ❞ ❝ all that awaits you is despair. ❞ ❝ i’ve done the unforgivable. i betrayed you. ❞ ❝ i’m here to repay you for what you’ve done. ❞ ❝ since i’ve met you, we’ve travelled a long way…and a lot has happened. ❞ ❝ are you on a journey of self-discovery? ❞ ❝ that was a great strike. if i was a hair slower, you’d have gutted me. ❞ ❝ when i was young, i wanted to be a hero. ❞ ❝ your struggle is futile. ❞ ❝ as you can see, i know how to fight. ❞ ❝ my hatred toward you will not be satisfied by merely killing you once or twice. ❞ ❝ you’ve been through a lot. ❞ ❝ whose side are you on? light or shadow? ❞ ❝ if you run then we’re done for! fight to survive! ❞ ❝ i’m not strong enough. not good enough. ❞ ❝ i must crush your bones, rip out your organs and relish your lingering cries of pain. ❞ ❝ that was close, huh? ❞ ❝ rest now. you don’t have to fight any more. ❞ ❝ i bear this sword so i can protect my home in times like this. ❞

i have an old list of canon divergencies here; i've been working on rewording my headcanons and removing some things i don't care about soooo this is just a riku post. oopsies!

ONE. riku did not leave behind way to dawn, nor do i believe that braveheart is his new keyblade. i don't personally believe that his arc is over yet── yes, he has conquered his darkness, he is no longer ansem's control── but there is a lot of things he needs to atone for. there's his killing of roxas and xion, his relationship with kairi-- what use is walking the road to dawn if you are willing to stain your path with blood?

in that confrontation, i think that when way to dawn broke── it impacted him heavily. he could feel a part of him breaking as well, like a physical injury. due to its sentimental value as well as it being his weapon, he brought it to yen sid in hopes that he could fix it. way to dawn is the keyblade he uses for the rest of kh3 and moving forward.

TWO. riku shows more concern for kairi than what the game shows; he still loves, and cares for kairi── even if it's not in the way she needs. i'll discuss this more in the future but he can be incredibly overbearing and stifling towards sora and kairi because of his experiences with ansem in kh1.

THREE. riku also eats the paopu fruit with sora and kairi. i think after his talk with riku replica, and after sora and kairi share their own── they share another one with riku afterwards.

FOUR. i write riku with his fractured left wrist and injured back / right hip still affecting him. sometimes, his hand with tremble when he tenses up, and most times, he fights in a way where his uninjured sight is defending the other. despite this, he is ambidextrous, and may still use both hands to fight (wielding his keyblade in one, his magic in the other). boy's got a lot of nasty scars!

FIVE. on that note, riku retains some dreameater qualities. he has some fangs; not too exaggerated, but they're there. on top of that, he eats sora's and kairi's dreams as long as they let him. if only he had a dreameater of his own, because...

SIX. riku's dreams are nightmares more often than not. he has nightmares of dying, of sora fading away, of seeing xehanort kill kairi── you name it!

SEVEN. riku also, generally, is very cautious around roxas and xion. not because he doesn't trust them── but because he remembers what he did to them. see my first point! like i said, he still has a lot of work to do before he's achieved his goal of reaching his dawn.

(brain keeps expanding thinking of potential MoM n’ Riku banter) twit. 01.11.22.