girl worth writing to | john egan x f!reader
summary : john pays you a visit while heâs on leave and things get melodramatic lol
warnings : brief mention of suicide, doesn't exactly follow the events of the show
word count : 888
The vibration of gentle snores rouse you from your sleep, your eyes search for the clock ticking away on your nightstand.
5:04 am
The sun had barely risen yet and you cursed yourself for being such a light sleeper, knowing the day you had ahead of you. However, the sight of shirtless John Egan dozing peacefully beside you was certainly one for sore eyes. You lifted a hand to his disheveled curls and attempted to stroke them back into place, whilst your mind replayed the events of the night beforeâŠ
5:34 pm
You had just returned to your flat from another agonising day at the infirmary, to the incessant ring of the telephone. You are hesitant to answer, as you are sure itâs your head nurse, calling to inform you thereâs been another emergency and you would need to return.
With a deep breath you lower yourself onto the edge of the bed and retrieve the telephone.
âHello?âŠâ You had meant to use a more formal introduction but simply couldnât find the strength.
âY/N?! Itâs me, Bucky! You remember?â He teased.
You had half the mind to pretend you had forgotten the pilot after not hearing a word from him in almost six months.
âUnfortunately, I do remember.â You mask your tone with sarcasm.
âAtta girl!â He remarked and you found yourself repressing a smile as you imagined the cheeky grin on his face.
âI just completed my twenty-fifth mission today and it was frankly very nearly my last, so theyâre graciously giving me the weekends leave!â He boasts sarcastically and you suppress a giggle.
âLucky Buck!â You retort and hear him scoff.
âAnyways, I was thinking Iâd come pay you and London a visitâŠthatâs if youâd have me, of course.â
You take a pause, pretending you have a choice. Unfortunately the truth of the matter was that youâd take the Major in, always and forever no-matter the heartache, come his departure.
âDo you still remember the address?â You asked, placing a hand to your stomach in an attempt to ease the brewing butterflies.
âI couldnât forget if I tried sweetheart, Iâll see you soon enough.â He teased playfully and ended the call.
You sighed at the realisation that you would have to spend all evening making your tired self presentable for the pilot, knowing deep down that for John it would always be worth it.
5:36 am
You jump at the feeling of his large hand wrap around your wrist that was still embedded in his hair. You feel your cheeks grow bright red as you push your body towards the opposite side of the bed.
âIâm sorry baby, I didnât mean you scare ya.â He croaks in his deep morning voice that never fails to make your knees weak.
âThatâs okay! I need to get ready for my shift anyways.â You stutter wrapping yourself in the bedsheet as you crawl out of bed.
âY/N pleaseâŠâ Bucky groans and grasps at the sheet that is now tightly wound around your shivering frame.
âYou always do thisâŠitâs too early and itâs bloody freezing.â He pleads and gently pulls you back into the bed and his embrace, gently guiding your into head to the crook of his neck.
âIâm sorry I scared youâŠtwenty-five missionsâŠitâs starting to get to me now, I think.â He admits whilst stroking a lock of hair behind your ear.
âI can only imagine the horrors you boys have enduredâŠâ You whisper.
âYou would probably understand more than most Y/NâŠwhat with the hospital and all the bombings.â He adds, his tone soft and comforting as he continues to stroke your hair. This is not the witty and sarcastic John you were familiar with.
âI suppose you could say that.â You mumble as you fidget with the dog tag that hangs around his neck, a cruel reminder.
âI guess it doesnât help that I have this American pilot of mine who when Iâm sure has gone and died on me-âYou attempt a teasing tone but it falls flat.
âWhatâs all this about me being a goner? Donât you have any faith Y/N?â He interjects, his tone only half joking.
âWell you never write or call? What am I supposed to think?!â You feel anger boiling in your chest as you push yourself away from him.
âOr maybe Iâm just not worth writing to!â You accuse before John had time to even consider a response to your sudden outburst.
âI promise itâs nothing like that Y/N⊠you know how I feel about you. Christ! I wouldnât be using my weekend off like this if I didnât have feelings for you!â He scrambles to defuse the situation, knowing your spirited ways.
âOh really?!â You mock.
âY/N these missions, theyâre suicide! I couldnât never let you get involved with me now! It would be cruel!â His statement cuts the conversation like a knife, silence falling over the entire flat.
A tear rolls down your cheek as you stifle a sob.
âI-Iâm sorry JohnâŠbut I think Iâm alreadyâŠinvolved.â You stutter.
The pilot sighs, using the bedsheet gathered around your waist to pull you back down into the mattress, so now you are pinned underneath him. There's nowhere to hide.
âIf you only knew how many times Iâve heard your voice in my head or seen your face in a crowdâŠâ He whispers whilst gently placing a kiss to each of your tear soaked cheeks.
âYouâre my girlâŠIâm sorry I ever made your feel like you weren't worth writing to.â His tone is soft but sincere.
Without looking away, he reaches for a scrap of paper that was resting atop your bedside table.
âIn fact Iâll start right nowâŠMy dearest Y/NâŠâ He declares in a exaggerated british accent and you playful slap his shoulder, giving him permission to attack you with kisses again.
When he finally pulls away your eyes meet and you raise a hand to his cheek.
âCome back to me, Major Egan.â The words tumble out before you even able to acknowledge they are there.
âAlways.â He whispers, before burying is head in your chest. It wasn't long before you feel his soft snores radiating against your body again.
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John Egan x reader fluff
Warnings-none just fluff and quite literally flowers
A/N: to the bitch in my ask box, next time you want something; instead of being rude, try using your big girl words and ask nicely.
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It was such a nice day, you were reading peacefully on the chaise next to the window before your husband launched himself in your lap to obstruct your breathing with a large bouquet under your nose.
âFlowers?â
You ask with a questioning tone, putting your book down to hold and admire them, they were lovely. Yet knowing Bucky, he more than likely did something and was trying to soften the wrath of your storm before it reached him.
Raising a brow, you look up at the man seated in your lap through your lashes, ready to make him sweat with a single question.
âWhat did you do?â
In typical dramatical Bucky fashion, he puts a hand to his nonexistent pearls, eyes widening as he looks around, aghast that you would accuse poor angelic innocent him of any mischief, pulling the most wounded pout youâve seen from him yet.
For your information, he didnât do anything (yet this time) he just saw a nice flower shop and worried when he took too long to remember when he last got you flowers, which to him was an irreparable error because you were a wonderful woman who deserved her damn flowers.
âI canât just gift my wonderful dame with nice things?â He asks as he leans over the flora covering your face to press a gentle kiss on your forehead, smiling when you leaned into his affection, humming thoughtfully.
âI never said you couldnât, itâs just sudden. Thereâs nothing special happening today.â You remind him, arm moving to hug your flowers because it really was a sweet gesture as you fight the warmth creeping into your cheeks.
âWell youâre here, yeah?â
âYeah?â Slightly confused as to where he was going with that.
âThen itâs always gonna be special. Causeâ youâre here nâ I think your real special bunny.â
You couldnât keep the broad grin taking over your face if you tried, lowering your lovely gift so you could kiss him softly. Pressing your lips together gently and pulling away in smaller pecks before wiping some your lipstick off him.
âThank you John, youâre so sweet and I love the flowers, theyâre beautiful darling.â Properly thanking him, peppering soft kisses all over his face, giggling as he sighs and purrs like a house-cat, thoroughly enjoying your affections. Snuggling onto your lap completely as he rests his head next to yours.
âRead to me? Since I am so sweet after all?â
Yeah. Thatâs definitely still your husband.
âOf course, anything for my big babyâ, you coo and his reaction is delayed in his comfort.
âMânot a big babyâ, he mumbles as he shuffles around on top of you. You fight a smirk.
âRight. Um, if I may, whoâs sitting on whoâs lap again?
ââŠ.â Was he silent or was he silenced?
âAnywaysâŠâ you clear your throat with a giggle as Bucky huffs until he hears your smooth voice pick up off where you were in your book, happy that he made you more happy, just enjoying you and the sweet scent of flowers.
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