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Still
I’m still choking at the thought of you
Still
Everyone keeps asking how
But did they ever have everything they wanted in their hand?
Perfection just out of reach
Their days dream painted before them
How could I let that die so silently?
Then there’s the darkness
But I saw the light
I saw it
I lost hope
Could that be love?
You didn’t try hard enough
Never thought strategically
you couldn’t think of my mental strength
You had the plan and I had the logic
You couldn’t see that
Could that be love?
How long would it have taken?
How long will this ache last?
I can’t say if I like seeing you up or not
It hurts
I wish I was there with you
But there’s so many methods d you could have tried
But you hurt me
Further? As much? As Anyone has?
No se
I can’t wait to forget you Ricky
I can’t wait to grow past everything you did to me Ricky
Every way of thinking you took from me Ricky
Every submissive tendency you instilled in me Ricky
I can’t wait to rebuild every relationship you stole from me Ricky
I can’t wait until your name taste like nothing
Until you’re just other distant memory brought up when your name pops up in a song
I hate that it’s so common
I can’t wait to forget you
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In theory
Everything looks appealing from a far
When I have it I’m bored
Like I’m in a haze and if I squint my eyes too hard everything will be real
Why am I afraid of that
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Distraction
Just like all of the past bois
Finding purpose in eyes that don’t hold love
Baby it’s just a distraction
Tryna find a way
Just tryna make it outtt
Feeling empty cause I can’t figure it out
Hiding from me
Afraid to be alone
Empty eyes fill my head
They keep tryna make me believe
Believe this could be real
Speak of me
Tell me what you see
Cause lately the mirror is empty
Invisible only to me
Distracted by what they see
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You’re a kind soul
Disoriented
Just like me
Find yourself
I’m still looking for me
So we could never be
Your arms still bring comfort
Your eyes are warm on me
Because you haven’t met me
And I don’t intend to show you
Much more
Thanks for your visit
I’ll remember you fondly
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Ghostship
Feeling like this is to a ghost
I can’t feel you anymore
Face fill my head
Strangers words in my gaze
But what’s the point
When it all lead back to you
Back to who?
Same old story
Bitch one bored
Tell a new one
Where the bitch get it made
World at her feet
You’re still there
In a forgettenbbox
Collecting dust under a box
You’re still there
Cause maybe i left too soon
I couldn’t see the pictures you painted in your mind
And you couldn’t stand still enough to explain
I still hope you find it
Not with me, definitely
I could never let go of everything
But I love you
I hope you’re safe, I hope you are loved
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What am i?
Beautiful and young
Tired and sad
Like nothing in the world is mine
Beautifully tainted
Tragically silent
Strong enough to stand
Stepping forward is too much to ask
Standing still was never an option
Lost and confused
I keep treading
In waters that aren’t mine
Waves made by [insert name here] crash into me
Too many come to mind
Which one was the most significant?
Afraid and alone
Anxious and wary
Nothing is everything
Everything is nothing
It feels like I’m fading again
Translating myself into sorrow
Words linger in my throat
Awaiting open arms
I can’t keep crying alone
I don’t want to be interpreted
I don’t want to be fixed
I want to feel the suns warmth
Like it shines for only me
Cause I’ve been cold far too long
I just want to be mine
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Why am I here?
Darkness surrounds me
I wallow in it
Pretend like it opaqueness holds comfort
Cause brighter days require too much work
What’s going on with you?
Keep your mind clear
No one can fix you
Only you can
Days will get brighter
All you have to do in try a littler harder
Practice makes perfect
Keep it up
You’re doing great
Just get up and go
I promise it not that bad
Take your time, there’s no rush
I’ll be cheering you on
Waiting for you at the finish line
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I wish my parents had spoken up
Told me the danger that awaited
Warmed me of the damage others could cause
But with examples
They hid the world from me
So I explored alone
Broken, multiple times
They wish I’d talk to them
I wish they had intervened
Said the words that were too hard to say
Told me this would change me
But they weren’t raised like that
Alcohol was their friend
So it’s mine now too
I see their pain, did they notice it in their parents eyes too
I’m trying, but words hurt
I was never scorned
Now I don’t know how to react
Except by downing a bottle in my room
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Nothing nothing
Again there is nothing
Oooh how tired the feeling is
Nothing
Heart racing at the thought
Mind racing during the act
Where am i
Not here nor there
I feel her near
Scared, forbidden
Kept at bay
He comes to mind
Again
Nothing
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To you
You touched me without hurting me
you were the first who had
Helped me reset
I don’t have to be compliant
You see me
My body is a plus
Play with my curves as I do
Whispered adoration for me
Loved me first my body second
You heard my language of hurt
Understood that skin brings trauma
Helped me forget my boundaries aren’t negotiations
I can’t wait to meet you
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It was a mutual thing baby
I’m bad for you and you’re bad for me
We filled the void
And ran away when it became familiar
I pushed and you pulled
Had some fun
Your head in my chest
Pretending like we didn’t care
Another filled our day dreams
lingering in the space between us
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Respect
when you couldn't even allow me to love you in my own terms
ghosts fill your head
you haunted me with their memories
love you pretended to forget
love you searched for in me but couldn't reciprocate
yeah I want an equal love
let me know when we're ready for that
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Familiar
Tired darkness
The memory of you creeps in
Distant but familiar
Just a memory
Days pass and they fade
You leave with them
When darkness wins
You’re there
Was that love
How much time did we loose
How do we come back from that
Are you a better person
Did the darkest parts wake you up
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Can't see that I'm aprize
I won't stay to open your eyes
Baby boy life is too fast for all that
Ain't slowing down to let you catch up
Been there done that
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Feeling bitter
Taking up my time like i Got nothing better
Talking about the girls you lusting over
I could give a fuck honestly
Just tryna get the
Like it’s gluttony
Got bitches all over me
But I keep that shit in privacy
Speaking on your moves like they ain’t fantasy
Asking me to hear you out
But I ain’t about to catch the blowout
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I’m the girl of your dreams
Not your god given right
Don’t ask me to come down to your level
Step up love catch up
Your darkness isn’t intriguing
It’s old and tired
Let me know when you’ve had enough
I could show you what’s behind the smoke and mirrors
I could be your sunshine
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