My late night thought after watching the ending of OBS:

Reasons why yeon su broke up with woong many times 🥲

Can be due to her lack of confidence in herself as she struggles a lot back then to survive

She felt that she will burden woong for the live that she's been living

Her insecurity of her being not good enough as a person with woong

She mentioned before woong is the only thing that makes her feel escaped from reality , which probably everytime she went back home, the reality hits her harshly that can't make her run from reality for too long

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Some people really have that thoughts in their mind even when other people say they shouldn't think that way. Hmm

For me, I don't mind the pace made by the OBS.. I kinda like it where the emotions roll coasted and not too rush in every single event that happen 💛💙

I can accept the existence of ji woong which somehow relatable between others but couldn't with NJ 😪

Quite tagged with our beloved summer when some people really think that the story line was a bit unnecessary 🤧

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The self esteem graph dropped 😪

Reason behind coffee addiction:

Ohh.. coffee tastes much bitter than my live at least for today , repeating it every day 🙂 ☕

Current

I've been holding myself a little bit more these days 🙂

"Don't disappear. Be with me forever. "

"I won't disappear. I'll be with you forever."

Missing 💛💚

From the past, you overly attached to this person. It gets so hard to let everything go. 😪 I still couldn't find courage talking to this person as that person who is the one left me hanging. I'm really not hoping for anything 😕 I just want an explanation which I am more than ready to accept whatever reason that the person does to me 😶

Somehow reading their interview given me comfort🥲. It felt so warmth and realistic reading their answer 🙃🙂. Thanks wuju💛💚

Run On W Korea Interview

JTBC’s drama Run On premieres in mid-December. When we heard your casting news, we thought that two refreshing people have met each other. What kind of impression did you have about each other?

Si Wan: That she’s very much like Elsa from the movie Frozen (laughs). How do I put it, Se Kyung had this hard to approach image, as if she’s going to use ice powers. But of course, it doesn’t feel like that at all now.

Se Kyung: I hear that a lot. I’m actually a woman like fire. My heart is burning hot, but people have an image that’s opposite of the real me.

Si Wan: Come on, you’re not like fire. Even if you are, it’s an ember that’s this small (laughs).

Se Kyung: Maybe it’s because of the diversity of his past projects, I don’t have a fixed image about oppa. I thought that maybe he’s a bright person. I remember how his face was glowing on the first day we met (laughs).

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Run On Final Thoughts

Looking around the Internet for opinions on Run On, there seemed to be a lot of people who didn’t like it for various reasons - too slow, the dialogue wasn’t great, the acting was weird, overhyped etc. And strangely, this doesn’t actually make me defensive about the show. I can understand why someone wouldn’t connect with it. It is pretty offbeat, and I can imagine a lot of it coming off as insufferably smug. Somehow though, maybe because I completely missed the show’s discourse when it was airing, I didn’t struggle with any of those things. I fell into the rhythm of the story with an ease I rarely get with K-dramas. I enjoyed every episode right up to the last. I actually finished a 16-episode K-drama romcom without skipping an episode. That’s pretty revolutionary! I don’t think I’m special for liking the show, but I do feel lucky. I feel lucky because I got to experience on of the best ensemble casts I’ve seen in a long time. I’ve never enjoyed a world in a drama so much. I really love a fleshed out supporting cast, and Run On practically spoiled me. The sheer amount of detail put into the character writing -into their personalities and their relationships with each other - made the world feel so fleshed out and vibrant. It’s no wonder the show never lost a beat when it had so many rich dynamics to draw its conflicts from.

In fact, I think the show might have been too rich - the final episodes are great, but there were so many threads that I wanted to see tied up neater and expanded on. The major threads came together nicely, but other elements suffered from a lack of time. The most jarring one would have to be Ye-Jun’s coming out to his mum. It’s a huge deal for a gay person to come out to their religious parent and an even bigger deal for that parent to accept them as they are. There’s a beautiful moment of conversation between mother and son that is just loaded with so much love and history that ends too briefly to make way for another brief resolution to another plot thread in the story. And, frankly, I don’t think the mother’s acceptance was very convincing. Maybe in a Korean context, “it’s okay to be different” would work, but Ye-jun’s mum is also Christian, and whilst she may not be as militant as Seon-gyeom’s dad, she’s definitely religious enough to threaten him with church when he comes out to her. “It’s okay to be different” simply does not work in a Christian context, because in Christianity, conformity isn’t necessarily a virtue (at least on paper). My particular strand of Evangelical/Pentecostal/Charismatic Christianity actually emphasises its difference with the world, and to be gay is to be of the world - to do the worst sexual sin in a world that’s already depraved. It’s total bogus - a lot of Christians have conveniently forgotten how Christian sexual morals were the status quo for hundreds of years and go around crying persecution just because we now have to be considerate. It’s why discussing LGBTQ+ issues with Christians is so frustrating - for a lot of them, being gay is a sinful choice made by depraved and/or confused individuals being encouraged by a sinful world that, in the meantime supresses and silences Christians, who are the true oppressed. Untangling all those layers of misinformation, bias and bigotry could be a show all on its own. That said, I’m glad Ye-jun’s mother accepted him. I’m glad that when he came out to Yeong-hwa, Yeong-hwa took him in his arms right away without question, which was such a powerful, beautiful statement. I’m glad that Ye-jun could have his happy ending. 

Speaking of happy endings, Yeong-hwa and Dan-ah’s arc ended better than I could have hoped for. I’m personally ruthless when it comes to romance - I don’t mind couples not getting together (there’s fanfiction for a reason) and if the foundation isn’t there for a couple to work, don’t force it. Usually the foundation is in terms of actual chemistry, but Dan-ah and Yeong-hwa had chemistry in spades. I was surprised that the writers actually remembered all the allusions to Rapunzel, and kept Dan-ah’s wealth in sight. The gap between them was simply too huge, and the inequalities too obvious. Dan-ah was wealthier and more powerful, Yeong-hwa was younger and healthier. I love the way Dan-ah’s derogatory “kid” was re-contextualized through her illness. He’s not just “kid” because he’s younger than her, but because he’s got a full life to live. He has vitality, which she feels she lacks. The show refuses to lapse into overblown dramatics regarding her health, but it nevertheless hangs over their relationship like one of many black clouds. There’s something poignant about two people knowing full well that their relationship can’t last, and still choosing to enjoy what little time they have with each other. And even if they couldn’t have each other, look at what they gained! Look at how they grew as individuals, at the friendships they made in the process.

I just have so much love for these characters and so much love for the actual performances themselves. I focused a lot on Dan-ah (which was completely valid lol), but that meant I didn’t get to gush about Im Si-wan and Shin Se-kyung absolutely killing it in their roles. They have such an ease with each other that makes their relationship genuine and adult in understated ways you rarely see in romcoms. In the hands of a clumsier actor, Seom-gyeom’s character could have been irritating (and for some people, he probably was), but Im Si-wan plays him with such care, conveying his nuances underneath his stoicism. And it’s lovely to Shin Se-kyung actually in control of her performance, after the mess that was Bride of Habaek. I spent a lot of time talking about Dan-ah and Yeong-hwa and I just wanted to emphasise that I loved our primary couple as much as I loved the secondary couple. As I’ve said before, this cast was just brilliant in every single way. I can’t think of any other K-drama romcom that invited me so vividly and thoroughly into the interior lives of its characters. I’m gonna stop here because this post is long af and I’ve already rambled enough, but yeah. This was magical.

I don't wish they know my current feeling, I don't wish they give me a comfort words. I'm okay with my current state right now 💯 just let me take my own time to overcome this thing

The reason why I don't really favor talking to people, its because people will say that I'm ego 😔