i had a moment of weakness when i was like “yesss im gonna recover” but after like 3 days i was feeling so bad abt myself i realized how much peace and happiness starving brings me hahaha, i had to go back on track which took some time but i realized with time that i just need to live the most unhealthy life known to a human race 🙈🙈 even tho i still have bad days, i binge (very rarely, but still), i feel sad that i skip every chance to eat bc i grew up loving food… i need to learn to hate it, but i cant for some reason. I dont feel bad if i eat a low cal chocolate after losing some weight, but i have this feeling that i need to learn how to absolutely hate food, even tho ik itll be hrd for me

who is blacklisting aspartame which is used in things like diet drinks and chewing gums bc apparently its causing cancer🫠🫠🫠 ed girlies are fucked

every muscle of my body is so sore i wont be able to workout today💀💀💀

wow i haven’t been really active, but ive been doing pretty good, i went do drink again but i restrict and exercised a lot :)) im going to exercise tommorow as well and all will be good, i need to fast a little definitely

I’m going to post this every week from now on :)

for the past 3 days i definetly ate more than i wamted to, im so scared to weight myself 🙁🙁 im starting woth my fasting plan this week, starting at 12 hours again, since its summer vacation now ill work out as much as possible

am i the only one who finds bruises on my back from exercise comforting??🙈🙈🙈

i had to stop fasting bc i got my period :((( i really wanted to continue but i get really sick during my periods so i had to eat something, its still hurting a little but i can exercise today. im starting a fast on saturday, 1st day of summer vacation in my country :)) thats a good start i think

I fasted for 12hours. i wanted more but its my first time fasting in a while so ill go step by step. tommorow ill go for 18hours then 24, 30, 36, 42, 48…. and so goes on

i need help, im fasting rn and im wondering if chewing gum would break my fast…

This will be my extreme weight loss summer<3

if u have a ed/ana/thnspo blog in June 2023 plz..

🖤 🔁 so I can followw 🫧 I just came back and my feed is so dead </3

Im going to a party this friday and im going to drink alcohol. i will count that as my metabolism day bc this week im not going over 200cals. fortunately eating little makes you get drunk faster so i wont have to drink a lot to get wasted😜😜 its also good that i have 0 appetite when im hangover so i can make up for that party with a fast <3

Tip:

Castor oil works as a laxative :) 2-3tbs works perfect. its also easy to come up with an excuse bc its a good thing for hair growth, so u can tell you parents that you bought it for your hair eyelashes or eyebrows ;))) here where i live its super cheap as well

i check ed tumblr everyday like its the most important news

i fucked up sooo bad today i hate myself literally. I will waste so much food tommorow but no way im going to eat anything.

sleeping a lot is really good for weight loss but i have fucking insomnia and i physically can’t fall asleep and i hate it so so much bc i crave more food when tired and cant workout bc i feel like im gonna die