I fucking hate tumblr I also really hated how lame you guys were tonight

Honestly, yeah someone could change my mind, but I would never tell you that. Theyd have to be really fucking great because Ive held out this long for them not to be. If this is a deal breaker for someone then they're not 'fucking great' enough anyways; it makes sense for me to establish that early on. Why does it seem like im only interested in the ones who wouldnt do half the shit the other guys do for me. "you can do better" "hes waiting for you to end it so he doesnt look like the douche" "Dont settle" "there are so many guys who want to treat you right" "youre not his usual type" fuck it all. Idk.

Couldveshouldvewouldve put my pride aside. Regrets.

IM LOWKEY SO ANNOYED RN Tomorrow is going to be so rough. Stay positive doe. No time for negativity.

"she's mine"

Weird to think that the last time I really used this was after A. But time has passed and i've found myself biting my lip to try to hold back a stupid goofy smile whenever I think about you. It's silly. I don't even really know you, but I want to. It's too soon for either of us to be saying half the things being said, but I don't really mind. You say what Im thinking anyways. I couldnt focus at work today. Or yesterday. It's been so long since I've been like this. Im not sure why everyone had given me such a wrong impression of you before. Youre absolutely wonderful. Just hope im not playing the fool. Im fine with who I am, and the life decisions I hold fast to, but it always makes me wonder how long youll stick around once you find out. The true test of if you really care. I go to sleep smiling. ☺

Merry Christmas! Did Santa bring you everything you asked for? 🎅 Hope your holiday is filled with joy, and surrounded by loved ones. (at Anaheim Packing House)

🎄Merry Christmas Eve! ❤ (at Anaheim Packing House)

TAKING A BREAK. I'll be on rarely. Uninstalling tumblr as well as all other social media sites from my phone.

But God is in control, and I don't need to understand why he continues to close one door after another in my life. He's got a plan.

i only understand like 9% of my life

Lol how am I gonna get chosen for selects and then FAIL completely and then every time thereafter. Pls help. Twice in the past two days I was so taken aback by being picked in classes that I'm never seen in that I failed both times. Lol the first time I was picked I didn't even get up because I though L only picked the girl next to me. Today- "you in the white shirt" I looked around until it occurred to me that I was wearing a white shirt. "Me??" "Youre the only one wearing a white shirt aren't you?" Lmfao I suck. Eees okay though. Dance is fun. Goodness it makes me so happy. So happy. Even with my effed up knee. Love it.

Fried coconut-battered shrimp and a spicy orange marmalade dipping sauce for lunch today! It was SO good. Been awhile since I've posted (AGAIN) but this one definitely deserved to be documented. 😭😍 #chefchantels