Despite being diagnosed at birth with Cerebral Palsy which affects muscle movement ,balance ,coordination & motor skills leading to misshapen walking patterns due weakened muscles; intellectually there are no issues whatsoever meaning mentally equipped fully processing all emotions experiences thoughts ideas creativity innovation problem solving abilities intact without any obstacles., physically yes challenges present everyday however through sheer determination perseverance willpower drive unrelenting ambition coupled constant encouragement assistance lovingly provided by nearest dearest ones around this young individual lives each day striving towards goals set out manner adaptable lifestyle made easier through accessible resources network built over time allowing exploration pursuit passions interests hobbies sports music art literature culinary adventures travel fun times laughter shared memories joy happiness thus proving that disabilities need not hold anyone back! I can talk back I can't walk but I can do anything the other people could do I can talk but I can't walk that's all my family and my friend help me with daily activities not like is amazing already but I want to make my life even more amazing ❤️🥰🤩😍🧬😻Despite being diagnosed at birth with Cerebral Palsy which affects muscle movement ,balance ,coordination & motor skills leading to misshapen walking patterns due weakened muscles; intellectually there are no issues whatsoever meaning mentally equipped fully processing all emotions experiences thoughts ideas creativity innovation problem solving abilities intact without any obstacles., physically yes challenges present everyday however through sheer determination perseverance willpower drive unrelenting ambition coupled constant encouragement assistance lovingly provided by nearest dearest ones around this young individual lives each day striving towards goals set out manner adaptable lifestyle made easier through accessible resources network built over time allowing exploration pursuit passions interests hobbies sports music art literature culinary adventures travel fun times laughter shared memories joy happiness thus proving that disabilities need not hold anyone back! I can talk I just can't walk then and Friends help me when they react to the face but I can do anything that anybody else can do

Cerebral palsy affects individuals in different ways, but it doesn't define them as people. I was born with cerebral palsy and have lived with it my entire life, but I haven't let that stop me from doing what I love and living an amazing life. The green ribbon is the awareness ribbon for cerebral palsy ♿💚💝🦋♿♿💚💚

On of the less intuitive things about love, I've found, of any kind, is the importance of needing things.

I didn't realize it until recently, but I've always seen love as something requiring sacrifice, selflessness, patience, and generosity- to ask for nothing is to be the best person I can be, small and quiet and never in the way, always happy and helpful, self-sufficient and present when desired.

It's only as an adult, now, that I'm beginning to see the selfishness of wanting nothing.

I cut my friend's hair in my kitchen the other day. They wanted a trim and I had the skills, so I offered, and was genuinely excited when they stopped hesitating over "bothering me" and took me up on it. It was a peaceful afternoon, and we had tea and chatted for an hour or more.

My brother and I shared popcorn at the movies a while ago. When I came time to pay, I pulled my card out like a wild western sheriff and slapped it on the machine before he could fight me for it first. The satisfaction was delightful.

Someone called me crying on the phone the other day. Kept apologizing for disturbing me at work, talking about how they were bothering me on my lunch break. I was telling the truth when I told them that really, I was flattered and honored and relieved, knowing that if they were hurting I would know, that I didn't have to worry in silence. It felt good to hear them slowly come down, and to know that they knew it would be better soon, and to hear them laugh wetly on the other end. We're getting together for a visit next week.

It's hard to need things, if you've trained yourself not to. It's hard to want things, when you don't know how to want anymore. Trusting people is difficult, and so is relying on them, but I don't know where I'd be without the people who rely on me.

I've heard a lot of people say, "Nobody will love you unless you love yourself". I've had a lot of thoughts about it. It's not right, but it's not wrong, either, I think.

"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... I've always taken that to mean, "You will not be lovable until you develop a positive view of yourself as a person".

Now, I think it's sort of inside-out.

"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... because nobody can show their love to you in a way that you can accept until you treat yourself kindly, and learn what you need, and what you want, and how to ask for it, and then give that vulnerability away.

Love, for me, is someone I ask for a ride to the airport. Whether they end up doing this or not is irrelevant.

It's not needy, or selfish, or taking up energy. It's giving the gift of being wanted, and needed, and thought of. It's giving someone the security of being part of someone's life.

colour-inspired prompts

pink - leaning closer to listen intently - "oh yeah?" - "let me get that for you" - "here, I've got it" - working to finish something without having to speak; quiet harmony - head-tilted back, mouth-open kind of laughs

red - getting a little teary when you're about to scream - fists clenched in your lap - "that's what you think? really?" - muttered insults - lipstick stains on the side of the mouth - interlocked fingers, being pressed against the wall, eyes narrowed - "god, you just don't know when to stop, do you?"

orange - sun-kissed skin - flowers braided into hair, a worn book on a bus - a child's hand wrapped around your finger - sunset on the beach - a shattered stain glass window - medicine bottles lined up on a shelf

yellow - visiting a childhood friend after too many years gone - a frayed string bracelet - "how did you remember? I only mentioned it briefly." - a half dozen friends showing up at your doorstep when you're sick - "you didn't have to come." "I promised." - days marked off on a calendar - patches of sunlight spotting a lazy afternoon

green - taking the train into the countryside - school trips - running out into the fields, shoes wet with dew - leatherbound books and sketchapds - a willow tree in the local cemetary - "tell me. promise me."

blue - an empty chocolate box at the foot of a bed - flickers of light from the television over a sleeping figure - the same sheets from the past week - a grey sky over harsh waves - "keep it. it was always yours." - growing old and one friend staying forever young

purple - "I didn't think you'd notice." - a kiss, a lamppost, Levi's - all of your firsts - a hand on the steering wheel - quiet conversations outside an empty diner - being the last ones out of a restaurant - running through the rain to the subway

I am thrilled about God's amazing plans for me and grateful for the support of family and friends. Thank you to everybody I love you guys very much thank you so much the future is looking amazing for me I can't wait for the future I can't wait to see what the future holds for me 💜t😭😢😂

daily reminder that an inner world is not required for any sort of system! it can be an excellent visualization tool for some but it’s not something that everyone is going to have.

if you have an extremely complex inner world with pages of lore and thousands of alters/npcs, you’re so valid. but, someone who also has no sign of an inner world or one that’s simply a singular room in a house? equally as valid.

understanding we all have different experiences is key in fully accepting the collectives around us!

Your a son. Your a brother. Your a father. Your a uncle. Your someone's first love. Your so much more then what you give yourself credit for. Your smart. Your hilarious. Talented. Got heart and I know things get tough when you feel like nobody is there and like you got no one but I guarantee one thing. Your always gonna have ME, GOD AND YOUR KIDS. No matter the mistakes that the person reading this has made, or the person laughing at you has made we ALL make mistakes. Just as their child, brother, sister, mother and father has made or will make in the future, And it takes more then once, twice, three times even.. to get it right but I know you can do this. Just like the judgemental people can get it right as well. Pray for everyone on whatever battle it is your/their going through or feeling. I AM PRAYING FOR YOU. 😔🙏

Most of the ones I'm speaking on needs UNDERSTANDING and to know they got this with YOUR SIMPLE words of "you can do it. You got this" ( no matter how many times you have to tell them they need it)

I get it, there is people that has never had to go through some that others go through and that's great for you but still know your words and judgement affect some that are weak and want to run to the devil when that loved one speaks down on them. (Called addiction)

Wish I could make this world a better place but I can only walk my path God has me on and do right within my path.

If you think your not loved, I love you. God loves you !!! 😇

Keep your heads up. There is YOURSELF to prove to that you GOT THIS . 🤞💯ion pick with nobody and ion disrespect nobody until I feel disrespected.Yes, it can be exhausting. You're right about that. Sometimes its best to know when you need to bounce and find better boundaries for yourself, too. If you're not being listened to, that's a huge deficit against you, too. You're never gonna get your needs met from someone like that. It can be more beneficial to take some time leaning inward instead. What are your patterns like with your friendships and relationships? Is there any interference from your childhood or any old wounds that constantly get poked and prodded throughout your life? It sucks being alone with these types of thoughts, but it doesn't have to be such a hard & cruel punishment. You're a lovely person, you have your own voice, you have your own wants needs & desires, and you deserve to spend time listening and learning about what you need. One of those needs, is knowing when you're poking around a dead bush, so you can also know you're worth the effort to leave and find better people who want to uplift you. Go deeper than what you think you know about yourself at this surface level junk and start asking yourself the harder things. What is it you want out of your life & relationships? And how do you want to handle yourself & your pain while you navigate this life? And how do you show up for yourself when others don't? And how can you be more kinder and gentle while you work it out? These are the things to lean into when others disappoint us. If u want an idea of how to start, check out my blog. Yes, it can be exhausting. You're right about that. Sometimes its best to know when you need to bounce and find better boundaries for yourself, too. If you're not being listened to, that's a huge deficit against you, too. You're never gonna get your needs met from someone like that. It can be more beneficial to take some time leaning inward instead. What are your patterns like with your friendships and relationships? Is there any interference from your childhood or any old wounds that constantly get poked and prodded throughout your life? It sucks being alone with these types of thoughts, but it doesn't have to be such a hard & cruel punishment. You're a lovely person, you have your own voice, you have your own wants needs & desires, and you deserve to spend time listening and learning about what you need. One of those needs, is knowing when you're poking around a dead bush, so you can also know you're worth the effort to leave and find better people who want to uplift you. Go deeper than what you think you know about yourself at this surface level junk and start asking yourself the harder things. What is it you want out of your life & relationships? And how do you want to handle yourself & your pain while you navigate this life? And how do you show up for yourself when others don't? And how can you be more kinder and gentle while you work it out? These are the things to lean into when others disappoint us. If u want an idea of how to start, check out my blog. Here is my controversial mental health take of the day: your negative emotions are not the problem, its the way you handle them that becomes the problem. You being jealous that your friend hung out with someone else and didn't tell you, is actually not the problem. It's when you choose to get angry with them, yell & lash out, or passive aggressively do something they hate to get revenge, or when you ignorI’ve been triggered and I’m on one right now so yall hang on tight because here it comes 😮‍💨

*Activate word vomit

Just because you have access to a social media account and free speech doesn’t make it okay to tear someone down. Sure we all have our opinions and dark humor but that don’t mean we need to spew it all over knowing it may wreck someone else. I can just imagine sitting there typing out some hideous post or comment with a smile on face thinking I’m the “bees knees”!! Like yassss I said what I said … congratulations!! It must take a miserable person to feel good about themselves knowing they hurt someone else. What did you gain? Did you feel better about yourself? Did you get a certificate like you won the spelling bee? No. What you more than likely did was take someones mind space that was already in a dark place and push them further into a hole. Nobody is patting you on the back but the devil. That’s not a pat I want or ever seek. My mindset is “if I made someone smile or feel better about their crappy situation then my job here is done” I would never intentionally be rude or hurtful to someone because that’s not where I find happiness. Maybe that’s what feeds you & that’s a reflection of you and trust me when I say it’s not attractive. Over the past 9 months I’ve choked down so much and still managed to smile and lift other ppl up or atleast be supportive. I’ve come upon comments on other ppls post directed toward me and my past situation more than I can count and said nothing. Y’all wanna make comments like nobody will ever see them …. We do! Trust me. I’ve went to bed many a nights stressing or worried about something someone said about me that’s NOT TRUE & I let it go. I never said a word. I just let them think whatever they wanted. Because at the end of the day I KNOW THE TRUTH but mostly importantly GOD knows … he saw it all. I have peace with that. What I don’t have peace with is the fact that some of yall wanna make assumptions and when somebody puts you in your place you play the victim. You can choose to be a victim until the Lord calls you home but I choose to see everyday as a blessing I’m still here breathing and enjoying life. Your trauma and experiences is just that - YOURS - you have the power to turn it into something amazing to grow from knowing you didn’t let it break you or you can spew your hurt onto ppl the rest of your life hurting the ones that love you. In the end it’s your loss, sadly. Is it fair? Nope but it’s not fair to the ppl you hurt either.

My biggest issue with social media is “well she shares everything so we should be able to ask & say whatever we want” Truthfully, if I had shared everything some of yall woulda been in a corner sucking your thumb 🤷🏼‍♀️ I put out there what I think may help someone else and add some comedy to it because sometimes all you can do is laugh because crying never got me anywhere. Worrying never got me anywhere. Being mean never got me anywhere either even when it was deserved. Not that this post is gonna change the world but there is a whole life for all of us out there to live with happiness, hope, and joy! Just because your life plans failed doesn’t make you a topic of discussion for other ppl to judge because nobody knows YOUR situation and I for one am not gonna make an opinion of someone based off what they shared on social media.

Thank you for reading my novel. Word vomit is necessary sometimes. 😮‍💨❤️ and I will continue standing up for myself. The doormat days are long gone. I love every one of yall even the ppl that are cruel to me because you need love the most and I still have plenty to give!

Okay look I'm just gonna say it okay you're not a bad person if you can't keep up with your hygiene or showering or house work or any kind of self care while you're recovering from traumatic and abusive situations. Your body is literally stuck in freeze response and you can't move because you don't even feel safe enough to move in the first place. We are talking basic levels of survival here. It is truly a miracle you even woke up this morning (congrats by the way you made it 🎉). Chances are you've been through some horrific shit and chances are you really need to establish your sense of safety before you're gonna be ready to pay attention to daily living shit on a regular basis. And there are so many other triggering reasons why hygiene and showering and house work can be difficult & nearly impossible especially if you have experienced sexual assault or have had your body violated against your consent!!! Your body, your autonomy! And nobody ever wants to talk about that or even acknowledge that. And I think that's bullshit! If you gotta be dirty & stinky that's your business!! It is your birthright to smell like Funions dipped in hot queso sauce queen own that funk!! You worked hard for that stank you're a literal goddess okay. This isn't permanent! This is a temporary predicament until you can figure it out for yourself what's best for you. Do it when you're ready! Until then, own that stank! I literally cannot stand how society frames this it drives me insane. That stank means you're still alive. Sometimes that's all that matters.

Nobody talks about how hard it is to face people again after you've had an episode in front of them

Once they've seen you do full-force into self-destruct, they always look at you with a sense of wariness and like you're not the person they thought you were

The shame makes me want to rip my skin off

“Fall in love. Maybe it doesn't have to be with someone. Fall in love with music, art, dancing in the dark, car rides at 1 am, the glistening of the stars, the colors of the sun as it rises, the smell of flowers, the feeling of adrenaline that takes over your whole body and suffocates your lungs with joy, good friends who bring out your best, silence, noise, fall in love with the little things that make you feel most alive and find purpose. Fall in love with life.”I might “ahkeke” on the net, But ion fw ppl fr. I know folks ain’t right. I know that back door stay wide open too. I know that gossip keep my name in it too. I know they bald their face up when they see me on social media too. I know they wanna get close to me to see how I operate the way I do too. One minute I’m liked , the next I’m fighting envious and jealousy battles 🧿🦠. Im happy for them, but they wanna block me when it’s my turn. I’m cordial but I’m not friendly. I went from the life of the party to socially awkward. My circle tight. Actually it’s a dot. I couldn’t even form a circle fr.Someone once told me, “You cry more than anyone I’ve ever met.”

I’ve always had a very sensitive heart, and for a while, I was convinced that was my biggest weakness.

I cry at every proposal video, when someone hurts my feelings… Some days, something as simple as thinking about my dog getting a little older is enough to make me tear up.

Yes, it can be exhausting, and there are times when I wish I didn’t wear my emotions on my sleeve.

…but I’ve learned that having a sensitive, empathetic heart and feeling all of the things is actually not a weakness, but rather a STRENGTH.

I cry a lot, but also…

I love really hard.

I’m quick to defend those who have been wronged.

I’m extremely passionate about the things that mean something to me.

I’m very intuitive.

I’m a shoulder to cry on for my friends.

I dream big.

I’m genuine, upfront, and lack the ability to be “fake” even if I wanted to be.

Unfortunately, when you’re sensitive, not everyone is going to be capable of understanding your heart.

…but I promise you are such a light in the lives of those who do.

everybody did what they wanted regardless of my feelings , my turn 🗣💯Be proud of how you’ve been handling the past few months.

The silent battles you fought, the moments you had to humble yourself, wipe your own tears, and pat yourself on the back.

Celebrate your strength.