anyone else just decaying

i am not my mother and i am not my father but a third worse thing

website

you have to choose healing again and again

"be yourself" okay, but who AM i though?

being able to joke around even in the middle of a breakdown — and actually finding my own joke funny

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*me, still insane* “I used to be sooooo crazy “

my thirteen year old self was crazy fr

“do you want to talk about it?”

no, i want to kill myself because of it.

i dont care (this affected me deeply and made me cry for several hours)

BPD culture is fearing being a toxic/abusive person so much you develop a huge guilt/shame complex and your therapist is trying to limit your time alone in your room so you dont have much time left with your thoughts to obsess over it

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bpd culture is not knowing if your real personality is kind, caring, bubbly and childlike or shy, mean, angry, and stoic because you can switch between them so quickly

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