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Im SKINNY im terribly skinny. Im finally at my goal weight and ive never felt so disgusting. I can see my ribs through my bewbs. It hurts to stand and walk. My hairs falling out. All I wanted was a stupid thigh gap and now im scared of BREAD. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?
If youre on the verge of an eating disorder for god sake please tell someone before it gets worse. Or do something.
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“Fearing that everyone in the room dislikes you and is constantly watching you”
One of the pieces I made for Tumblr’s World Mental Health Day event at the SEEN exhibition in UK. It is made to represent the dissociation in a situation with mania. I loved working on this project and if anyone out there needs help talking about their own experiences with mental health, I’m always here to support you.
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im….real? my existence has… impacts? i touch things and they move, i breath in and out and the air buzzes around me? the sun rests on my skin…. grass is crushed under my toes… people see me and have an idea of who i am… my name is on papers….? im sorry this is… this is too much….
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If your child has heard a death threat coming out of your mouth, you’re an abuser.
If your child is used to being called stupid, worthless, burden, or any kind of slur by you, you’re an abuser.
If your child knows every single way you’d like to hurt them and flinches away when you walk thru the door, you’re an abuser.
If your child knows their every vulnerability would be used as a weapon against them in your mind, you’re an abuser.
If your child was made to feel guilty and ashamed for the pain they’re being put thru, if they were told by your mouth they deserved it, you’re an abuser.
If your child heard you telling them to hurt themselves, or had you do nothing as they were hurting their own self, you’re an abuser.
If your child has to look elsewhere for the slightest bit of acknowledgment, attention and kindness, you’re an abuser.
If your child frets that other people would treat them so cruelly as you do, you’re an abuser.
If your child is afraid that other people will think of them as lowly as you do, you’re an abuser.
If your child had to beg for a necessity from you, you’re an abuser.
If your child was forced to offer labour, services or go thru strain and fear to gain basic necessities from you, you’re an abuser.
If your child had to fight to deserve to be part of your family, or to have you even acknowledge them, you’re an abuser.
If your child had no safety, support, security or love in your home, you’re an abuser.
If your child lived in fear of being kicked out, humiliated and abandoned by you, you’re an abuser.
If all you taught your child was how it feels to be hated, you’re an abuser.
If you refuse to acknowledge even for a second that you put your child thru all that suffering and fear, and still try to paint yourself as a benefactor in your child’s life, you’re an abuser and a liar.
No child has ever deserved any of this.
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Is it just me or is any kind of cheese the scariest fear food in the world?
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Im doing this all rn cause ill forget lmao
Day 1: stats
CW: 115.6 lbs
Day 2: height
Im 5’2 rn and I like my height. I could be shorter tho like 5ft even. 🤷🏻♀️
Day 3:
Ah ribbies and small calves
Day 4: greatest fear about weight loss?
Honestly not much lmao. I got a wide ribcage and shoulders tho so theyre rlly gonna stick out.
Day 5: why do you wanna lose weight? Is it for you?
I wanna look like sailor moon bro. Im just here to look like a lil anime girl dats it
Day 6: do you binge?
Obviously bro dats called eating like a normal person LMAO
Day 7: do your parents know you wanna lose weight? How do they feel abt it?
Im a whole ass adult its nonw of their business
Day 8: workout routine?
Sometimes I go outside to walk my cat
Day 9: do people ever make comments abt your weight?
My best friend literally said I was their thinspo so thats great?
Day 10: whats the hardest thing u gave up?
Nothing lmao. I still eat what I want when I want
Day 11: fav thinspo blog?
Mine
Day 12: what do you normally eat?
Breakfast:
one of these: yogurt but I dont like it so I dont have it a lot, toast+sunflower seed butter+honey, black coffee (eww), breakfast fried rice, or nothing
Lunch:
Usually nothing or I might go out with friends n eat with them if they invite me
Dinner:
Last night I had curry and rice :) . Its rlly just whatever I or my partner makes. I jus dont eat too much
Snacks:
Naan, kimchi and rice, avacados, fruit, stuff like that
Day 13: are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?
I like to think im doing it in a healthy way :^)
Day 14: whats your UGW (ultimate goal weight)?
First UGW: 105lbs
Second: 90lbs
Last: 80 lbs
Day 15: are you vegan/vegitarian? Would you ever be?
FIAJJFJAJF N O. like yeah meat has a lot of calories but I live for salmon and pork its tastey :)!!! (If u are vegan/vegetarian dats great!! You do u <3)
Day 16: when did you first decide to lose weight?
Idk but ive been anorexic since middle school so 7th grade ig
Day 17: do you have an eating disorder?
Got diagnosed with anorexia in 2018 and I had been diagnosed with bulimia in 2015(?) but I dont have bulimia sO
Day 18: what food is your weakness?
Poke bowl, curry, denjang jigae (idk how to spell it in english lmao), canolis, any fish. I like food n stuff I just dont like eating ://
Day 19: when was the last time you ate fast food?
Last weekend with my partner :0 it was mcdonalds and I got nuggets and fries. I didnt finish it tho cause I felt bad :^/
Day 20: favourite diet?
Remember back in like 2016 when everyone was talking abt the alice and wonderland diet? Thats was WILD CISJJFJAJFJ I think that ones really funny and weirdly specific
Day 21: clothing sizes?
s to xs but I like wearing oversized things bc when I run I look funny. Like an oompa loompa
Day 22: what was your lowest weight? How n why did you gain?
I actually hadn’t seen a scale in like six months (bc I wasnt allowed to >:0 ) until last weekend and I was 113 :))!! I know I got p small at other points but I cant remember the number. Ive been binging all week which sucks and I gained 2 lbs but its whatever
Day 23: did media play a role in wanting to lose weight?
Yeah. Remember 2015-16 tumblr? WILD TIMES
Day 24: how do you feel abt the terms pro-ana/pro-mia
Its DUMB FJSJBFJAJF. Like come @ me if u want but its so stupid to be pro [mental disorder]. Like imagine someone saying their pro borderline or pro bipolar. Wack shit n im not here for it. And you can say this whole list is me being “proana” but im not a big fuckin creator. This is not the blueprint LMAO
Day 25: have you ever purged? What was your first experience?
Yeah I was diagnosed with bulimia (not bulimic anymore). First time I ate spaghetti and I has noodles coming out my nose >:00 its was NASTYYYYY
Day 26: what exites you most abt reaching ur UGW
Being able to be thrown across the room easily :> possibly break a bone on the way :> sounds like a fun time deadass :>
Day 27: how do you deal with being around food?
😑 i am helen keller
Day 28: do you want a gap between ur thighs? Why or why not?
Yes and no. Yes because I kinda already have one and I think it looks cute :). No because my phone would fall though my legs into the toilet when im using the bathroom :( also thick thighs are kinda sexy ngl
Day 29: your definition of beauty
Yall ever seen a woman? Gorgeous. Beautiful. Perfect. Believe it or not women is what peak performance looks like
Day 30: 10 facts abt you!!
- my partner has a mullet and I love it :^)
- im going to cosmetology school
- I hate black coffee >:( I keep saying I like it bc its zero calories but its literally worse than spaghetti noodles coming out my nose. N a s t y
- I dont like soda either.
- I have a cat :)
- my favourite season is winter bc I can slide on the ground like a penguin
- I dont talk abt my anorexia a lot to friends n ppl around me cause its such a mood killer :// dats why im sharing it here lmao
- I cant count to ten
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i just wanted a pretty thigh gap i didn’t want to die
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Sometimes being a pro is hard.
This guy’s just doing his best but sometimes you just gotta have a cry in the shower.
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